the joy luck club!

i love reading!

The Joy Luck Club by Amy Tan
is one of the best books i have ever read!

its really nice and touching and all.
and its like really reall nice!

its super touching.
yup
and has a lot of learning points.

and it kind of made me PROUD TO BE A CHINESE!
yay!
i wished i was like living in the olden days in china,
or in california as an american-chinese!
but that time got war so its like yah, kind of freaky.


its really nice.
about how chinese lose their roots.
how mother and daughter bonds are lost.
its kind of so real and sad at the same time.


i shall type out excerpts of it.
kind of hard to choose cos the whole book is nice!
i wanted to like type the whole book out but oh well.

" that is the way with a wound. the wound begins to close in on itself, to protect what is hurting so much. and once it is closed, you no longer see what is underneath, which started the pain."

i guess time heals all wounds but at the end of it all, there will still be the scars.

"sometimes that is the only way to remember what is in your bones. you must peel off your skin, and that of your mother, and her mother before her. until there is nothing. no scar, no skin, no flesh."

hmmm.if you lose your roots, you have to trace them all the way back to find them. i think thats what this means...like chinese blood is in your bones so you have to like yah look in the bones or smth.


and i think the chinese mums were so coool!

and was kind of sad.
like how the daughter i ashamed of her cos she is old and chinese.
and how the mum says " i keep my mouth closed so selfish desires would not fall out."
yup.
so everyone shld shut up.

and its just so sad.
like how the mums know everything and their daugthers are so mean and stuff
and how the mums actually get misunderstood and bear with it all.

"when you lose something you love, faith takes over. you have to pay attention to what you lost. you have to undo the expectations."

hmmm.
but isnt it kind of hard.
to not try and expect anymore from someone you expected so much from.
hah
thats why this mum is cool!
she can do it!

and
an excerpt!!!!

" i saw a girl complaining that the pain of not beng seen was unbearable. i saw the mother lying in bed in he rlong flowing robes. then the girl pulled out a sharp sword and told her mother, "then you must die the death of a thousand cuts. it is the only way to save you." the mother accepted this and closed her eyes. the sword came down and sliced back and forth, up and down, and the mother screamed and shouted. but when she opened her eyes she saw no blood or shredded flesh. the girl said: "do you see now?" themother nodded:" now i have perfect undertstanding.i have already experienced the worst. after this there is no worst possible thing."

its like.
hmm alot of hidden meaning!

oh and there is this mum.
an-mei

her mum was actually the wife of a scholar.
but she got chased out of the house.
and an-mei her daugther was a kid and forbidden to follow her.
then one day when an-mei's popo died.
her mum came back.

and ask her to follow her.
she had remarried.
and was even more despised by the family cos its so despicable to remarry a that time.
she had married a super rich guy.

and everyone thougth she was after his money.
she was a concubine.
the fourth wife.

then an-mei wanted to follow her even though her popo warned her not to in her detah bed.
she went to the big big house.
and made friends with the servant.
the servant told her that the second wife was the baddest.
the first wife was scared of her.
she always pretended sucide so the guy would give in to her requests.
and of cos the guy would give in cos last time it was believed that if a woman commits suicide,
she will come back and look for her husband to haunt him.
so she was given the most attention.

and she couldnt bare a child.
but she wanted one.,
so she found this third wife to bare him a child.

then one day she saw an-mei's mum.
who was very beautiful
and she wanted her to marry the guy so he wouldnt waste money on brothels and stuff.
so she tricked her into bed with him.
and she was forced to bear him a child.
and had to marry him since she had his child.

but the son she bore him.
the evil second wife took it as hers.

so an-mei's mum, the fourth wife had to watch her care for her son like her own, when in actual fact was her own son.


so everyone misunderstood her as shameless and stuff but she was forced!

and in the end.
an-mei's mum commited suicide two days before chinese new year.

she put opium into sticky rice buns so the poison would stick inside her body so she cannot get saved by extracting the poison. then she died.
and the rich guy was scared cos on chinese new year she would come and haunt him.

its so sad!

and the second wife
she had also BOUGHT a fifth wife from a village.
and she was like a young girl like ten years old only lah!
so evil!

she manipulates the whole household.
hmph


and another excerpt!

jing-mei's is another mum.
and her mum's family had all died cos the jap bombed their house.
and jing mei when she was young.
was asking her mum whether her family could have escaped.

then her mum said.
"i went back to the house. and i found a doll...it was my favourite doll and i had given it to my niece. she cried if the doll was not with her.so you see? if she was in the house with that doll, her parents would be there, and so everybody would be there, waiting together, becaus ethats how our family was."

its so sad!!!!!!!


and there lots more...
hmmm.


and remember the titans is a nice nice show!
its super super touching!

really shows how teamspirit is like the best thing and nicest thing one can ever ask for.
its like so sweet and nice.
actually i think being a guy is cool.
its like so touching to see how actually one group of guys can come together as a team and like love each other so much.