omg.
i HATE her.
really really really really really hate her.
want to whack her face lah.
vain bimbo
zi lian!
ugly fat freak.
and we must win!
yes we can do it!
try our best...
and even if we lose.
we have years ahead.
but still.
thats really far away
and anyway.
we wont lose our teamspirit
even if the reality is that we lost
and i really think i dont mind playing squash my whole life!
but i guess im not good enough to be professional.
and im not sure if i can sacrifice and have triangular legs.
haha
i think i can!
wheee.
go ppl!
we can do it!
Sunday, March 26, 2006
Saturday, March 25, 2006
our teamspirit is not superficial and i do love the rgsquashers
and the seniors are really nice
and im ashamed to say i dont noe the juniors names.
then again.
we werent introduced.
and i think we have really bonded thru the mgs match.
yayy
and i think the seniors are really nice.
and its very sad reading their blogs.
and i think i noe whats true team spirit now.
but so much for team spirit
it just wouldnt change the fact that i lost.
that i pulled the whole team down.
hmmm.
and dont tell me no one blames me cos we are a team.
its just the big fact there that i did not play properly and lost
so theres no need for self delusion.
and i dont think i did freak out.
i dint freak out enough
so i stoned
yes i did
in my first official match ever
i wonder how i could not prepare myself for such an impt match
or maybe i had too much mental preparation
cos i was just feeling numb thruout the match
like i lose 1 set, come out
oh i lost one set
then go in.
get thrashed.
still stone
come out.
still never wake up
third set
lose
again
just like realised i had lost.
and then.
after we confirmed lost le.
and coach was talking to us.
it FINALLY hit me that i had lost
lost becos there was a freaking problem with me.
becos i wasnt freaked enuf
becos i was just stupidly stoning
cos i wasnt putting in my best
and i was seriously going to cry lah.
cos i realised that i freaking caused the team to lose.
but of course i dint
cos i HAD to maintain my image.
and cos i HAD to be strong.
but i dont noe why i just broke down when coach just stared at me.
i guess its just really hit me that i had let down so many ppl.
most imptly, myself
i was not responsible at all.
and i trained so hard.
put in so much time i sacrifice shopping, mugging, slacking.
and i trained.
just to lose.
to lose my first ever match
just to not play my best and lose for no reason
and i just cant believe it.
its seems so real.
and it is.
i dint expect it to be so real.
and its my freaking fault for not being prepared.
and i just have to account for it i guess
and i guess its nice to noe ppl care.
but the so many "no one blames you" is just deluding myself
and i appreciate it.
but even if u ppl dont blame me.
i have myself to blame
and i dint want to go for dinner was not only cos i dint bring my tuition stuff
but also cos i dint want to go home crying.
my eyes were freaking red and swollen
and i was not going to let them see i cried.
nope.
they never did and never will.
i guess i have never cried in front of anybody before.
and anyway
not like they freaking care
she doesnt even noe my comps are on.
she doesnt noe i lost
but i guess its cos i dint tell her.
so much for being strong and holding back the tears.
as eileen said.
wo zhuo kan you kan dou bu xiang shi yi ge jui ku de ren
i guess its the habit, the responsibility of being strong.
of holding back the tears.
and i think jodee and jacq are so cool
eileen's lob serves too.
and mabel's volleys
too
i love u peeps.
all rgsquashers.
and im really sorry for just dashing our hopes.
wasting ur hard work
DONT tell me about the process not the outcome thing
cos my match hads no process at all
i just went in, stoned and got thrashed
blegh
im sorry im hypocritical
im sorry for lying
but i just want to make u happy.
cos i feel really sad to see how bad u feel.
and even though what i said was to optimistic to be true.
just believe it
and somehow
i think i am so unfortunate and stressed
but i noe im not the only one.
im ashamed of wallowing in self pity.
when my problems are just so pathetic.
and i think im scared of everything
im scared of everyone
everything
myself
life
...
im scared i will make u angry
scared i will disappoint you
scared to talk to you
scared you would think im siao
scared u hate me
scared to hurt ur feelings
scared to tell u the truth
scared to see u cry
scared to wonder what u are thinking
scared i will cry
scared i will die
scared i will do stupid things and embarrass myself
scared i will let my secrets be found out
scared to let u noe how i feel
scared to let you noe how deep u hurt me
scared to let u noe how much im jealous of you
im scared of reality
how real it is.
and now im back to reality.
all i can do is cry and pick myself up from here
and hope for the best
im sorry.but i noe no matter how many times i apologise.its just like no use.like putting a dead fish in a fish tank waiting to see it swim.but i noe i cant change the facts.i dashed our dreams.our chance.our passion.our hopes.
and the seniors are really nice
and im ashamed to say i dont noe the juniors names.
then again.
we werent introduced.
and i think we have really bonded thru the mgs match.
yayy
and i think the seniors are really nice.
and its very sad reading their blogs.
and i think i noe whats true team spirit now.
but so much for team spirit
it just wouldnt change the fact that i lost.
that i pulled the whole team down.
hmmm.
and dont tell me no one blames me cos we are a team.
its just the big fact there that i did not play properly and lost
so theres no need for self delusion.
and i dont think i did freak out.
i dint freak out enough
so i stoned
yes i did
in my first official match ever
i wonder how i could not prepare myself for such an impt match
or maybe i had too much mental preparation
cos i was just feeling numb thruout the match
like i lose 1 set, come out
oh i lost one set
then go in.
get thrashed.
still stone
come out.
still never wake up
third set
lose
again
just like realised i had lost.
and then.
after we confirmed lost le.
and coach was talking to us.
it FINALLY hit me that i had lost
lost becos there was a freaking problem with me.
becos i wasnt freaked enuf
becos i was just stupidly stoning
cos i wasnt putting in my best
and i was seriously going to cry lah.
cos i realised that i freaking caused the team to lose.
but of course i dint
cos i HAD to maintain my image.
and cos i HAD to be strong.
but i dont noe why i just broke down when coach just stared at me.
i guess its just really hit me that i had let down so many ppl.
most imptly, myself
i was not responsible at all.
and i trained so hard.
put in so much time i sacrifice shopping, mugging, slacking.
and i trained.
just to lose.
to lose my first ever match
just to not play my best and lose for no reason
and i just cant believe it.
its seems so real.
and it is.
i dint expect it to be so real.
and its my freaking fault for not being prepared.
and i just have to account for it i guess
and i guess its nice to noe ppl care.
but the so many "no one blames you" is just deluding myself
and i appreciate it.
but even if u ppl dont blame me.
i have myself to blame
and i dint want to go for dinner was not only cos i dint bring my tuition stuff
but also cos i dint want to go home crying.
my eyes were freaking red and swollen
and i was not going to let them see i cried.
nope.
they never did and never will.
i guess i have never cried in front of anybody before.
and anyway
not like they freaking care
she doesnt even noe my comps are on.
she doesnt noe i lost
but i guess its cos i dint tell her.
so much for being strong and holding back the tears.
as eileen said.
wo zhuo kan you kan dou bu xiang shi yi ge jui ku de ren
i guess its the habit, the responsibility of being strong.
of holding back the tears.
and i think jodee and jacq are so cool
eileen's lob serves too.
and mabel's volleys
too
i love u peeps.
all rgsquashers.
and im really sorry for just dashing our hopes.
wasting ur hard work
DONT tell me about the process not the outcome thing
cos my match hads no process at all
i just went in, stoned and got thrashed
blegh
im sorry im hypocritical
im sorry for lying
but i just want to make u happy.
cos i feel really sad to see how bad u feel.
and even though what i said was to optimistic to be true.
just believe it
and somehow
i think i am so unfortunate and stressed
but i noe im not the only one.
im ashamed of wallowing in self pity.
when my problems are just so pathetic.
and i think im scared of everything
im scared of everyone
everything
myself
life
...
im scared i will make u angry
scared i will disappoint you
scared to talk to you
scared you would think im siao
scared u hate me
scared to hurt ur feelings
scared to tell u the truth
scared to see u cry
scared to wonder what u are thinking
scared i will cry
scared i will die
scared i will do stupid things and embarrass myself
scared i will let my secrets be found out
scared to let u noe how i feel
scared to let you noe how deep u hurt me
scared to let u noe how much im jealous of you
im scared of reality
how real it is.
and now im back to reality.
all i can do is cry and pick myself up from here
and hope for the best
im sorry.but i noe no matter how many times i apologise.its just like no use.like putting a dead fish in a fish tank waiting to see it swim.but i noe i cant change the facts.i dashed our dreams.our chance.our passion.our hopes.
Thursday, March 23, 2006
gosh
wheeee.
i love the battle tour trip!
i love kranji cemetery!
and the battlebox was absolutely cool!
wde was boring....
food was good.
cept for the freaking main course.
the chicken was the worst thing i ever ate.
it was cold.
tated and smelt frozen.
was unfresh.
stinked badly.
tasted worst than shit.
had eeeeeky fats on the slimy disgusting fatty skin.
dressed with cheapskate ketchuppy sauce.
blegh.almost puked
canopy walk was ok only lah
quite boring.
the plants my house also have...cept for those weird shaped ugly trees....
but some plants were cool.
the canopy walk was ok.
not scary at all.
i was only scared...VERY when jocelyne leaned over the railings with MY camera to take pictures for me.
freaking scared it would drop....
eeeeeeee
jane was scared of heights.
haha
and the bridge was shaking....vibrating i mean...
haha
and the view was okay.
beyond the trees can see the reservoir.
haha.
it was shrouded in mist
so it kinda looked like in movies that kinda
PARADISE
wheeee
im crapping
what photo jpournal are we supposed to do!?!?!?!
anyway.
i have realised that my bread cannot...totally cannot possibly grow mould within 3 days.
sheesh
im gonna fail that science pt
fake the results i also dunno how to fake.
blegh.
AND
i dint get bitten by mosquitoes though i wore culottes!
HAH jocelyne!
and i dint put insect repellent either!!!
wheeee.
we waited an hr for the freaking tour guide.
blegh
whats with freaking and me....
tmr is the comps against mgs le!!!
ahhhhh...
and i freaking cant do forehand drives as well as before.
and cant freaking serve hard.
my arm very pain from practising hard serves....
and i MUST run to the T....
blah.
but i just cant....
hope i will win.
and hope im in top form tmr.
shall be optimistic....
GO RGSQUASH C'DIV!!!!!!!
we can do it!
we must do it!
we will do it!
teamspirit feels good.
though jacq refuses to change her display pic....
haha
and we have got cool teamshorts and shirts!!!!!
(that cost a bomb)
haha
my science experiment is so dead.
blah.
i love the battle tour trip!
i love kranji cemetery!
and the battlebox was absolutely cool!
wde was boring....
food was good.
cept for the freaking main course.
the chicken was the worst thing i ever ate.
it was cold.
tated and smelt frozen.
was unfresh.
stinked badly.
tasted worst than shit.
had eeeeeky fats on the slimy disgusting fatty skin.
dressed with cheapskate ketchuppy sauce.
blegh.almost puked
canopy walk was ok only lah
quite boring.
the plants my house also have...cept for those weird shaped ugly trees....
but some plants were cool.
the canopy walk was ok.
not scary at all.
i was only scared...VERY when jocelyne leaned over the railings with MY camera to take pictures for me.
freaking scared it would drop....
eeeeeeee
jane was scared of heights.
haha
and the bridge was shaking....vibrating i mean...
haha
and the view was okay.
beyond the trees can see the reservoir.
haha.
it was shrouded in mist
so it kinda looked like in movies that kinda
PARADISE
wheeee
im crapping
what photo jpournal are we supposed to do!?!?!?!
anyway.
i have realised that my bread cannot...totally cannot possibly grow mould within 3 days.
sheesh
im gonna fail that science pt
fake the results i also dunno how to fake.
blegh.
AND
i dint get bitten by mosquitoes though i wore culottes!
HAH jocelyne!
and i dint put insect repellent either!!!
wheeee.
we waited an hr for the freaking tour guide.
blegh
whats with freaking and me....
tmr is the comps against mgs le!!!
ahhhhh...
and i freaking cant do forehand drives as well as before.
and cant freaking serve hard.
my arm very pain from practising hard serves....
and i MUST run to the T....
blah.
but i just cant....
hope i will win.
and hope im in top form tmr.
shall be optimistic....
GO RGSQUASH C'DIV!!!!!!!
we can do it!
we must do it!
we will do it!
teamspirit feels good.
though jacq refuses to change her display pic....
haha
and we have got cool teamshorts and shirts!!!!!
(that cost a bomb)
haha
my science experiment is so dead.
blah.
Sunday, March 19, 2006
seriously...
my less than half a year old racquet has cracked.
thanks to my violent outbursts of frustration.
ohwell.
if it just breaks halfway during competition, im going to die.
i will.
i will just lose.
and what if im playing he deciding match.
sheesh.
ahhh.
WE MUST BEAT MGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hmmm.
blogging is getting boring.
and i have not started my sc pt AT ALL.
and everyday i just slack.
nope.
this whole week played squash EVERY SINGLE DAY.
bleh.
tmr going raffles place ealy really early in the mrning.
to do the english/lit thingy.
seriously.
how poetic can one get.
writing in such an uninspirational place....
pissed on friday.
and so much for it supposing to be a good day.
i really really hate you.
but then again
what can i do.
and actually,
putting myself in your,
u dint do anything wrong.
im just reading too deep into things
or is ur biasness just that obvious.
hmph.
and ur stupid fat friend's needs are more impt than mine...
bleh.
but at least for once i dint feel like sleeping during tuition.
guess i was too angry
or
i was just engrossed in smsing...
haha.
ohwells.
sometimes i noe how its like.
but cant u freaking put yourself in my shoes.
i do try u noe.
i try to be who i should be.
who u want me to be.
try to be perfect.
try to make everybody happy.
but i guess i just cant be who u want me to be.
im just not perfect enough for u.
and u are freaking unreasonable.
and now i know what it feels like.
why drug addicts take drugs.
why smokers smoke.
why people commit suicide.
why people go missing.
why people want to make the news.
hmmm.
sometimes i feel like even i disappear.
you wouldnt notice.
u will still be sleeping like a pig
as usual
and u dont understand me at all.
u arnt even sure of what i like.
u arnt sure of what i need
what i want
what i feel
what im going thru
sometimes i wish i could choose my ideal mother
seriously
aside from providing the basic neccessities
u havent exactly aided me in life
barely.
you dont care if i come home late and look tired and angry.
you still dont do anything
yet when she isnt sick and just looks tired.
you go thru all that trouble to boil something for her.
hmph.
and talk about tired.
i come home after more than 12 hrs out.
im tired.
you go out 3 hrs.
tired like a pig.
and u expect me to understand you when u dont even understand me.
you expect me to respect you when u dont deserve any.
you dont set a good example.
you are a hypocrite.
and yet you criticise me.
you think you are giving me my own space.
but in fact you just dont care about me.
i wished i could choose my own mother.
sometimes i hate you.
but sometimes i guess i know how it feels for you to be burdened with such a big problem.
i shall not be melancholic.
whats with everybody.
or rather whats with me.
i shall stop wasting time
and i realised that when im not busy.
i will just think too much.
i will just wallow in self pity.
i will just make the next day worse than ever.
so i shall immerse myself in whatever senseless random stuff.
escaping from reality is nice'
nicer than a holiday.
yayy.
sometimes i just wish that there will be tours to heaven instead of to mars or what ever alienated place
like freakin moon.
bleh.
anyway
went to support coach yesterday
and i hereby conclude that mr lee is super nice'
we shld get him something to thank him
and we were late for trning again
and coach was really cool
though she lost'
she was surprisingly happy.
and hoppity
so cute
and my stupid squash ball burst halfway while i was at csc just now.
so i trained only half hr
oooh.
saturday was maluating
mabel REALLY carryoing her pomspoms.
and three of us getting onto a taxi and then getting out within 1 min.
and the taxi driver was bewildered and pissed.
haha
friday we shall all jiayou!!!!!!!!!!
but my canopy walk is before our match
and its very rush
and i will walk like siao.
so will be too tired to play.
HOW????
but i cant be bothered to swap/
but what if it makes me lose
surprisingly.
im not as nervous as when we had the trials
bleh
thats really bad
someone motivate me!
i have lost all self motivaion.
bleh.
my motal is really cute
she told me retardedly that a vein on her feet was popping out and she was turning into a fish
just like the lizard incident
haha
and i think she shld go watch the matches
why arnt the sec1s enthu?
last thime we so enthu lorh
and its a good experience
and get to cheer lots!
anyway
what am i thinking
see us play can learn what....
i hate life.
thanks to my violent outbursts of frustration.
ohwell.
if it just breaks halfway during competition, im going to die.
i will.
i will just lose.
and what if im playing he deciding match.
sheesh.
ahhh.
WE MUST BEAT MGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hmmm.
blogging is getting boring.
and i have not started my sc pt AT ALL.
and everyday i just slack.
nope.
this whole week played squash EVERY SINGLE DAY.
bleh.
tmr going raffles place ealy really early in the mrning.
to do the english/lit thingy.
seriously.
how poetic can one get.
writing in such an uninspirational place....
pissed on friday.
and so much for it supposing to be a good day.
i really really hate you.
but then again
what can i do.
and actually,
putting myself in your,
u dint do anything wrong.
im just reading too deep into things
or is ur biasness just that obvious.
hmph.
and ur stupid fat friend's needs are more impt than mine...
bleh.
but at least for once i dint feel like sleeping during tuition.
guess i was too angry
or
i was just engrossed in smsing...
haha.
ohwells.
sometimes i noe how its like.
but cant u freaking put yourself in my shoes.
i do try u noe.
i try to be who i should be.
who u want me to be.
try to be perfect.
try to make everybody happy.
but i guess i just cant be who u want me to be.
im just not perfect enough for u.
and u are freaking unreasonable.
and now i know what it feels like.
why drug addicts take drugs.
why smokers smoke.
why people commit suicide.
why people go missing.
why people want to make the news.
hmmm.
sometimes i feel like even i disappear.
you wouldnt notice.
u will still be sleeping like a pig
as usual
and u dont understand me at all.
u arnt even sure of what i like.
u arnt sure of what i need
what i want
what i feel
what im going thru
sometimes i wish i could choose my ideal mother
seriously
aside from providing the basic neccessities
u havent exactly aided me in life
barely.
you dont care if i come home late and look tired and angry.
you still dont do anything
yet when she isnt sick and just looks tired.
you go thru all that trouble to boil something for her.
hmph.
and talk about tired.
i come home after more than 12 hrs out.
im tired.
you go out 3 hrs.
tired like a pig.
and u expect me to understand you when u dont even understand me.
you expect me to respect you when u dont deserve any.
you dont set a good example.
you are a hypocrite.
and yet you criticise me.
you think you are giving me my own space.
but in fact you just dont care about me.
i wished i could choose my own mother.
sometimes i hate you.
but sometimes i guess i know how it feels for you to be burdened with such a big problem.
i shall not be melancholic.
whats with everybody.
or rather whats with me.
i shall stop wasting time
and i realised that when im not busy.
i will just think too much.
i will just wallow in self pity.
i will just make the next day worse than ever.
so i shall immerse myself in whatever senseless random stuff.
escaping from reality is nice'
nicer than a holiday.
yayy.
sometimes i just wish that there will be tours to heaven instead of to mars or what ever alienated place
like freakin moon.
bleh.
anyway
went to support coach yesterday
and i hereby conclude that mr lee is super nice'
we shld get him something to thank him
and we were late for trning again
and coach was really cool
though she lost'
she was surprisingly happy.
and hoppity
so cute
and my stupid squash ball burst halfway while i was at csc just now.
so i trained only half hr
oooh.
saturday was maluating
mabel REALLY carryoing her pomspoms.
and three of us getting onto a taxi and then getting out within 1 min.
and the taxi driver was bewildered and pissed.
haha
friday we shall all jiayou!!!!!!!!!!
but my canopy walk is before our match
and its very rush
and i will walk like siao.
so will be too tired to play.
HOW????
but i cant be bothered to swap/
but what if it makes me lose
surprisingly.
im not as nervous as when we had the trials
bleh
thats really bad
someone motivate me!
i have lost all self motivaion.
bleh.
my motal is really cute
she told me retardedly that a vein on her feet was popping out and she was turning into a fish
just like the lizard incident
haha
and i think she shld go watch the matches
why arnt the sec1s enthu?
last thime we so enthu lorh
and its a good experience
and get to cheer lots!
anyway
what am i thinking
see us play can learn what....
i hate life.
Thursday, March 16, 2006
omg.
these is so cool
http://img94.exs.cx/img94/405/songofpig7gr.swf
http://www.albinoblacksheep.com/flash/hampster
so cute!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
these is so cool
http://img94.exs.cx/img94/405/songofpig7gr.swf
http://www.albinoblacksheep.com/flash/hampster
so cute!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wednesday, March 15, 2006
Tuesday, March 14, 2006
i cant stand my eldest sister.
she is so drama.
was telling me bout her st john days....
then added this overly drama part which made her sound like the hero.
and i said nthat she was lying.
hah.
and she was like: aiyah.make it more interesting mah....
whatever
then she always does bad things and thats why think i will take revenge.
so everything missing also accuse me.
and she insists her water got an ant.
so my maid says pour into her cup.
and she was going to till i stopped her.
no brains larh.
got ants so she dont want
then somemore want to give the ants to my maid to drink.
brainless inconsiderate freak
and also.
that time.
kayaking course.
her fren leg cramp in the sea....
and she just left her fren alone to call for help....
dumb leh.
call for help also cant live her distressed fren alone right.....
what if she cant stay afloat anymore....
nvm.
then shes so cowardly.
and somemore.
she was chatting with her junior on the 2nd last day of the course
then the junior said tmr last day got test....
then she was like
huh.got test one ahh
dumb lah
take course obviously must pass a test right.
and if her junior dint tell her.
she wouldnt noe at all.
but anyway i think she failed in the end.
cos she dint noe how to bandage her juniors "injured" arm.
in the end
her junior had to give my sis instructions on how to tie larh
but she duh failed cos she had to be prompted by a junior.....
blegh.
but isnt that so blur and cute too.
but in conlcusion
i think my sister is childish.
inconsiderate.
vengeful.
blur.
lazy.
dumb.
drama.
and basically
her moral values seem jumbled....
and i think i give up on her.
sigh.
she is so drama.
was telling me bout her st john days....
then added this overly drama part which made her sound like the hero.
and i said nthat she was lying.
hah.
and she was like: aiyah.make it more interesting mah....
whatever
then she always does bad things and thats why think i will take revenge.
so everything missing also accuse me.
and she insists her water got an ant.
so my maid says pour into her cup.
and she was going to till i stopped her.
no brains larh.
got ants so she dont want
then somemore want to give the ants to my maid to drink.
brainless inconsiderate freak
and also.
that time.
kayaking course.
her fren leg cramp in the sea....
and she just left her fren alone to call for help....
dumb leh.
call for help also cant live her distressed fren alone right.....
what if she cant stay afloat anymore....
nvm.
then shes so cowardly.
and somemore.
she was chatting with her junior on the 2nd last day of the course
then the junior said tmr last day got test....
then she was like
huh.got test one ahh
dumb lah
take course obviously must pass a test right.
and if her junior dint tell her.
she wouldnt noe at all.
but anyway i think she failed in the end.
cos she dint noe how to bandage her juniors "injured" arm.
in the end
her junior had to give my sis instructions on how to tie larh
but she duh failed cos she had to be prompted by a junior.....
blegh.
but isnt that so blur and cute too.
but in conlcusion
i think my sister is childish.
inconsiderate.
vengeful.
blur.
lazy.
dumb.
drama.
and basically
her moral values seem jumbled....
and i think i give up on her.
sigh.
rotting away
cant things be just like it was.....
why must things change.
i guess thats just called the impermanence of things.
that i might just die anytime.
that i might just pass my math.
that i might just make everybody hate me.
hmmm.
i guess humans are humans and not immortals cos they suffer.
and why do they suffer?
hmmm.
its cos of the three roots of evils: greed, jealousy, WHAT????(forgot le)
anyway.
i guess
im stressed over tiny things
like whether i might be 10mins late for trning.
or im just being jealous of ___. jealous that she has nicer everything.
nicer hair.
nicer stuff.
nicer grades.
nicer eyes.
nicer nose.
or jealous of my sis that she is a nicer peson.
she gets to go italy
she has nicer clothes
she is more popular at home and at school
that my parents like her more than they like me
and i want this and i want that.
and im always thinking about that nice this, that nice that ....
im being greedy.
greedy for material goods.
for physical appearances
so you might have noticed my wishlist is gone.
i am not going to be greedy and jealous of others.
i shall try
yes i shall.
i shall try to be optimistic and enjoy life while i can.
i might always die suddenly from ....erm.some mysterious virus?
or bird flu?
wow.
how optimistic.
ok.
i should always be happy cos nobody's making life miserable but myself.
i should be happy cos i should be considerate towards others
i should be happy cos theres nothing to be sad about.
i should be happy cos there's a rainbow behing the black cloud.
(how cliched...)
i should be happy im more fortunate than others.
that im alive and healthy
i guess monologuing makes me feel better.
sorts my thoughts.
makes me reflect.
theres so much to live for.
i am smiling at the end of this post cos i am glad i feel happy.
and i am happy cos i am being optimistic!!!!!!!!!
and i shall try to live life to the fullest!!!!!
blegh.
seems so amazing.
now i just see the reality.
the problems staring at me again.
the problems that cant be solved by trying to be optimistic.
i guess the purpose of this post has not been achieved.
cos right now i feel like dying.
cos i am STARING at my science pt.
grrr.
if only we could live as happily as ever.
if only our squad did not have to drift apart.
if only we dint have to grow up.
if only we were forever p6.
if only i could write out my own life.
just like a script.
yes.
just like a script.......
(hah.how drama.and cliched...just for the extra touch!waahaha)
why must things change.
i guess thats just called the impermanence of things.
that i might just die anytime.
that i might just pass my math.
that i might just make everybody hate me.
hmmm.
i guess humans are humans and not immortals cos they suffer.
and why do they suffer?
hmmm.
its cos of the three roots of evils: greed, jealousy, WHAT????(forgot le)
anyway.
i guess
im stressed over tiny things
like whether i might be 10mins late for trning.
or im just being jealous of ___. jealous that she has nicer everything.
nicer hair.
nicer stuff.
nicer grades.
nicer eyes.
nicer nose.
or jealous of my sis that she is a nicer peson.
she gets to go italy
she has nicer clothes
she is more popular at home and at school
that my parents like her more than they like me
and i want this and i want that.
and im always thinking about that nice this, that nice that ....
im being greedy.
greedy for material goods.
for physical appearances
so you might have noticed my wishlist is gone.
i am not going to be greedy and jealous of others.
i shall try
yes i shall.
i shall try to be optimistic and enjoy life while i can.
i might always die suddenly from ....erm.some mysterious virus?
or bird flu?
wow.
how optimistic.
ok.
i should always be happy cos nobody's making life miserable but myself.
i should be happy cos i should be considerate towards others
i should be happy cos theres nothing to be sad about.
i should be happy cos there's a rainbow behing the black cloud.
(how cliched...)
i should be happy im more fortunate than others.
that im alive and healthy
i guess monologuing makes me feel better.
sorts my thoughts.
makes me reflect.
theres so much to live for.
i am smiling at the end of this post cos i am glad i feel happy.
and i am happy cos i am being optimistic!!!!!!!!!
and i shall try to live life to the fullest!!!!!
blegh.
seems so amazing.
now i just see the reality.
the problems staring at me again.
the problems that cant be solved by trying to be optimistic.
i guess the purpose of this post has not been achieved.
cos right now i feel like dying.
cos i am STARING at my science pt.
grrr.
if only we could live as happily as ever.
if only our squad did not have to drift apart.
if only we dint have to grow up.
if only we were forever p6.
if only i could write out my own life.
just like a script.
yes.
just like a script.......
(hah.how drama.and cliched...just for the extra touch!waahaha)
and i waited
i waited.
and i dont know what i am waited for...
what is it.
why am i waiting.....
and i refuse to believe the only possible reason im waiting.
cos i know its not true.
or am i just ecsaping from reality?????
forget the self reflection part.
hmmm.
had a nice talk with dearest veron!
yesterday
then met jodee and eileen at heeren.
HAH
jodee immediately boasted about buying a nicer addidas shorts.
which she promised to wear today.
and as i was saying how i refused to see it....
haha.
walking down the escalator.
then suddenly realised i was on the wrong direction of the escalator
haha.
so dumb
and i was laughing like siao
everyone was staring.
haha
sometimes im just plain dumb.
fine...maybe always.
anyway.
talking about dumb...
i bought the 10 packet thingy of mamee.
then eat one,
realised no seasoning thingy inside.so bland
so i check the packet.
saw"ready to eat"
so i thought they decided to cut down on msg,
put for us so little seasoning....
eat the last packet.
then realised there was SOOOOOOOOOOO many packets of seasoning at the bottom of the whole big packet.
hmph.
dumb larh
so the seasoning has been wasted.
its rotting at home right now.
anyway
took neoprints with veron.
though they dint turn out very nice and was kinda ex....
and was a traunatic experience....
ohwell.
nice souvenier i guess.
and on the log book outside the neoprint shop....
so sick.
got one picture of this guy and girl french kissing.
and they publicise it like that.
blegh.
oh well.
as jodee said.
i guess i AM closed minded....
anyway.
we dint see the machine say dont insert coins.
but i inserted 10 coins.
hmph.
then suddenly this woman appeared and scolded us.
then we said we put already.
dint noe cannot put....
and that mean old 20+ auntie said: too bad lorh.cant print out no refund.
and while scolding, she wasted 2 of our pictures.....
so throughout the whole thingy.
we were chao scared our 10 dollars would be wasted.
my plams were sweating larh.
cos that was the remaining 5dollars out of the 10 dollars left in my pocket.
BUT IT DID COME OUT
and we purposely went admiring our neos in front of her.
HAHA
yes.
i spent nearly-fifty dollars yesterday
sheesh
im broke le larh
$12 for squash tee
$10 top up ezlink
$7 pastamania
$1 can drink
$1 ice lemon tea
$12 for huiqi's present and some useless cute toy i bought for fun
$5 for neos(which did come out!)
$2 on beard papa cream puff (cos i was full but greedy)
anyway
my mortal's so cute.
she just reported to me today bout how her freaky lights at home exploded and she got cut by the glass.....
hah.
and last time told me how she playing with her pilot pen till she poked her face and bled...
haha.
so cute right.
HAH!!!!!!!!!!
and she's a squasher too!!!!!!!!!
today had training at kallang.
1-3pm
but played till 4pm.
hah.
coach brought tjc guys to spar with us.
lost my first match with this irritating guy.
ha.
at least i won first set.
but thats cos he gave in.
he thought sure win cos I'M THIRTEEN and he's SEVENTEEN
haha.
whatever.
so after i won.
he bully me lorh!!!!!!!!!!
waaaaaa.
he started smacking the ball like super duper hard.
shivers.
but still not as hard as dearest mabel.
oh well.
but im pissed
i wasnt playing properly larh
just stood at the back and dint run cos coach was outside.
hmmm.
realised i do get stage fright.
still traumatised by last year's english oral and chinese too.
in front of whole class somemore...
and speech and drama assesment too.
and it was just in front of like....20 ppl??????
blegh.
oh well.
how random.
im guilty.
yes again.
for finding dearest____ irritating.
exactly.
for no reason.
sometimes i just find fault with everybody cept myself.
and im guilty cos when my sis left for italy,
i dint say bye.
and actually dint care
till next mrning i on my phone.
realised she had even bothered to sms me before her plane took off...
she said bye and asked if i wanted chocolates.
GRRRR....
i hate regretting my actions.
i cant stand being and irritating mean hypocrite.
blegh.
anyway.
the next guy i played with was apparently nicknamed pineapple tart by coach....
and i won him.
YAYY
his stroke abit weird.
but he hit very hard
and the meano fren of his was like.
aiyah u sure lose one larh
so mean to his own teammate....
anyway.
accepted the meano guy's offer to play a match
cos mabel lost badly to him.
and i wanted to challenge myself!!!
hah.
was quite fun
anyway
apparently nobody wanted to play with him cos coach said he stank.
(oh wells.he changed his shirt in the end)
and he's the shortest.
seventeen and shorter than me.
hahaha
anyway.
was ok challenging.
apparently coach said he was best cos he played for many years.
and then suddenly i realised i was going to miss the shot.
screamed like siao.
super high pitched.
and mabel and jodee screamed at the same time.
cos very jing zhang.
haha
inthe end
i dint miss.
but cos he got a shock
he dropped his racquet to cover his ears from 3 girl's screams....
haha
so he missed and i won that rally.
we played one set only.
cos the lights off le.
anyway was a close match.
after that.
i was laughing like siao.
then kept missing.
until 8-8
haha
suddenly i screamed again but apparently it worked no more....
hmph.
lost 10-8.
haha
but was fun
and when mabel played with him.
she was cursing....
and me and eileen laughing like siao.
cos the guy was like.
relax larh.....
haha....how "gentlemanly"
anyway.
we were like asking mabel to start crying so he wud let her win considering how "gentlemanly" he was.....
oh well.
hahahaha
tmr must go yio chu kang at nine
and im determined to be punctual for once.
im always like WAYWAY early...
(ranging from 1/2 hr---1hr)
haha.
okay.
and was supposed to go out with ngaman tmr for a movie.
but im determined to start on my sc pt.
btw,
anyone who knows mrs jeannie goh's email add pls tell me.
THANKS
and anybody willing to swap date for western dining etiquette course pls tell me.
cos it clashes with my competitions.
THANKS
and i dont know what i am waited for...
what is it.
why am i waiting.....
and i refuse to believe the only possible reason im waiting.
cos i know its not true.
or am i just ecsaping from reality?????
forget the self reflection part.
hmmm.
had a nice talk with dearest veron!
yesterday
then met jodee and eileen at heeren.
HAH
jodee immediately boasted about buying a nicer addidas shorts.
which she promised to wear today.
and as i was saying how i refused to see it....
haha.
walking down the escalator.
then suddenly realised i was on the wrong direction of the escalator
haha.
so dumb
and i was laughing like siao
everyone was staring.
haha
sometimes im just plain dumb.
fine...maybe always.
anyway.
talking about dumb...
i bought the 10 packet thingy of mamee.
then eat one,
realised no seasoning thingy inside.so bland
so i check the packet.
saw"ready to eat"
so i thought they decided to cut down on msg,
put for us so little seasoning....
eat the last packet.
then realised there was SOOOOOOOOOOO many packets of seasoning at the bottom of the whole big packet.
hmph.
dumb larh
so the seasoning has been wasted.
its rotting at home right now.
anyway
took neoprints with veron.
though they dint turn out very nice and was kinda ex....
and was a traunatic experience....
ohwell.
nice souvenier i guess.
and on the log book outside the neoprint shop....
so sick.
got one picture of this guy and girl french kissing.
and they publicise it like that.
blegh.
oh well.
as jodee said.
i guess i AM closed minded....
anyway.
we dint see the machine say dont insert coins.
but i inserted 10 coins.
hmph.
then suddenly this woman appeared and scolded us.
then we said we put already.
dint noe cannot put....
and that mean old 20+ auntie said: too bad lorh.cant print out no refund.
and while scolding, she wasted 2 of our pictures.....
so throughout the whole thingy.
we were chao scared our 10 dollars would be wasted.
my plams were sweating larh.
cos that was the remaining 5dollars out of the 10 dollars left in my pocket.
BUT IT DID COME OUT
and we purposely went admiring our neos in front of her.
HAHA
yes.
i spent nearly-fifty dollars yesterday
sheesh
im broke le larh
$12 for squash tee
$10 top up ezlink
$7 pastamania
$1 can drink
$1 ice lemon tea
$12 for huiqi's present and some useless cute toy i bought for fun
$5 for neos(which did come out!)
$2 on beard papa cream puff (cos i was full but greedy)
anyway
my mortal's so cute.
she just reported to me today bout how her freaky lights at home exploded and she got cut by the glass.....
hah.
and last time told me how she playing with her pilot pen till she poked her face and bled...
haha.
so cute right.
HAH!!!!!!!!!!
and she's a squasher too!!!!!!!!!
today had training at kallang.
1-3pm
but played till 4pm.
hah.
coach brought tjc guys to spar with us.
lost my first match with this irritating guy.
ha.
at least i won first set.
but thats cos he gave in.
he thought sure win cos I'M THIRTEEN and he's SEVENTEEN
haha.
whatever.
so after i won.
he bully me lorh!!!!!!!!!!
waaaaaa.
he started smacking the ball like super duper hard.
shivers.
but still not as hard as dearest mabel.
oh well.
but im pissed
i wasnt playing properly larh
just stood at the back and dint run cos coach was outside.
hmmm.
realised i do get stage fright.
still traumatised by last year's english oral and chinese too.
in front of whole class somemore...
and speech and drama assesment too.
and it was just in front of like....20 ppl??????
blegh.
oh well.
how random.
im guilty.
yes again.
for finding dearest____ irritating.
exactly.
for no reason.
sometimes i just find fault with everybody cept myself.
and im guilty cos when my sis left for italy,
i dint say bye.
and actually dint care
till next mrning i on my phone.
realised she had even bothered to sms me before her plane took off...
she said bye and asked if i wanted chocolates.
GRRRR....
i hate regretting my actions.
i cant stand being and irritating mean hypocrite.
blegh.
anyway.
the next guy i played with was apparently nicknamed pineapple tart by coach....
and i won him.
YAYY
his stroke abit weird.
but he hit very hard
and the meano fren of his was like.
aiyah u sure lose one larh
so mean to his own teammate....
anyway.
accepted the meano guy's offer to play a match
cos mabel lost badly to him.
and i wanted to challenge myself!!!
hah.
was quite fun
anyway
apparently nobody wanted to play with him cos coach said he stank.
(oh wells.he changed his shirt in the end)
and he's the shortest.
seventeen and shorter than me.
hahaha
anyway.
was ok challenging.
apparently coach said he was best cos he played for many years.
and then suddenly i realised i was going to miss the shot.
screamed like siao.
super high pitched.
and mabel and jodee screamed at the same time.
cos very jing zhang.
haha
inthe end
i dint miss.
but cos he got a shock
he dropped his racquet to cover his ears from 3 girl's screams....
haha
so he missed and i won that rally.
we played one set only.
cos the lights off le.
anyway was a close match.
after that.
i was laughing like siao.
then kept missing.
until 8-8
haha
suddenly i screamed again but apparently it worked no more....
hmph.
lost 10-8.
haha
but was fun
and when mabel played with him.
she was cursing....
and me and eileen laughing like siao.
cos the guy was like.
relax larh.....
haha....how "gentlemanly"
anyway.
we were like asking mabel to start crying so he wud let her win considering how "gentlemanly" he was.....
oh well.
hahahaha
tmr must go yio chu kang at nine
and im determined to be punctual for once.
im always like WAYWAY early...
(ranging from 1/2 hr---1hr)
haha.
okay.
and was supposed to go out with ngaman tmr for a movie.
but im determined to start on my sc pt.
btw,
anyone who knows mrs jeannie goh's email add pls tell me.
THANKS
and anybody willing to swap date for western dining etiquette course pls tell me.
cos it clashes with my competitions.
THANKS
Sunday, March 12, 2006
nothing
summatives over le.
geog and history was okay.
chinese i got 30/40.
yayy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hah
lit was not very good.
cos i was _____ and i dint really understand the book.
jodee said that nothings safe to blog bout so i shall try to keep things discrete.
yes.
i shall try.
ohwell.
i just wont complain bout ppl larh....
wangleehom's xinzhongdereye album is so nice!
budebuai from wilber's gao shou is nice too!
hah!
val. if u stop saying his name in the english pronunciation, i might rmb to burn the cd for u...
hah.
oh well.
shall hope i can rmb to burn it by the end of this as-usual-will-be-long post.
math i hope i can pass.
wasnt that hard i think.
but dunno how to do anything.
set theory i totally wasted marks.
forgot how to do.
bleh.
mabel's in malaysia.
hope she buys bubblegum!!!!
i love sweets.
hmm.guess chocs are nicer.
sigh.
she miss so many trainings le....
but she pro le mah....
nationals coming up le.
ahhh......super scary.
and we must uplift our morales.
seriously eileen.
must jiayou and dont give up even if u play a more pro person!!!!!!!!!
cos u very taiko.
and ur game tactics are pro....!!!!
just use ur jian zhao can le.
okay!!!!!!!!!!!
jiayou squashers!
we can do it!
hoping for a third at least.
thats low expectations lorh.
considering the no. of schools taking part.....
friday was swim carn.
okay larh.
me and joan had lunch.
met eileen.
we shared table at the caifan stall.
as usual she was showing me weird grins.
i know she was trying not to laugh.
oh jocelyne set beside us too.
the caifan stall so popular meh???
oh well.
its nice.
RIGHT EILEEN????
hah!
somemore say u will never eat there again hor???
hahaha.
last time ask u to eat there u dontwant.
can dont eat caifan what....
got yu pian mi fen what.
RIGHT??????
and.omg
im so guilty.
but nevermind.
whats over is over.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY VERON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i love u lots.
miss u too.
jiayou ok!!!!!
sigh.
so sorry.
sigh.
maybe simin was right....
hmmm.
i guess shes not irritating....
just concerned...or busybody?
not like if i were her i wouldnt be....
why must be drifting apart.
why must there be a rift between us....
i realised i AM a determined person.
no means no.
most of the time....
i guess jodee is right.
im overly resoluted cos im not very openminded....
im irritated.
like whatever larh.
u are SO IRRITATING AND LAME.
if only i could just ignore u....
goh wan ting has the nicest legs on earth.
i want nice legs too.
and a nice tan!!!
but i guesss female swimmers have uglier physique than the guys...
but that mr li hadley hse teacher and squash tcher.
he was absolutely eww in his purple chao high trunks with his bulging tummy.
fair like toufu
i still rmb mt conolly swam for buckle last year
kt was ewww.
bet he thought he was cool.
hah!
he has no abs....
haha
irritating sissy larh he.
extra.
grr.
shall not waste time on idiots like him.
swim carn was basically okay
just that buckle as usual so lousy
and we got cheapskate ugly souveniers unlike the other houses
rushed home after that or tuition.
saturday woke at 6.15am to go mgs for a stupidly boring talk.
me and jodee were munching on crunchies and talking bout the retarded thingy the boy in front was playing with.and basically just crapping.
cat slept.
and jacq kept shh...ing us
and eileen was doing nothing.
i think
after that we ate brunch at some ulu place which had a cool vintage setting and cash register
service very bad.
food was badd
jodee got poisoned.
kinda
trning wasnt very good.
okay larh.
coach tot i was esecially stupid that day.
taught me how to count 1 and 2~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!
ahah
told her i was like tat everyday.
so in the end me and eileen couldnt do it so we switched to something simpler
haha
played with that vulgar p4 girl.
yayy.
i won.
fortunately
after that.
RUSHED AGAIN
to suntec.
jammed larh!!!!!
had yummy marche dinner
and anderson's fondue
and shopped.
cos was a belated bdae dinner for my sis
and today 2am mrning shes going italy
notfair'
hmph.
oh well.
so came home all sweaty
bathed at 9pm.
woah.
out from 7am to 9pm
today fortunately nothing on....
but woke at 8am
sigh.
used to waking at 6am
ohwell.
went swimming to achieve my goals of nice legs and tan
apparently dint suceed.
the pool stank
cos we couldnt go the new one.
swimmers were having trning in that pool.
and the pool we went so may old ppl.
wanted to squash.
but no time
maybe i will go later....
yayy.
tmr have to go yio chu kang at 9am.
wednesday and friday too...
siao lorh
sigh.
tmr meeting veron to shop.
after trning
yayy....
gotta rush again
from yck to orchard
not that far larh...
but i will be sweaty and stinky
blegh
again]
im always rushing
hmmm.
hope fridqay after trning can watch movie with nga man.
jocelyne say want ot go then now back out.
hmph.
nvm.
thursday hope i can go out with simin and jessie.
busy everyday lah....
mylife'sSOhectic
geog and history was okay.
chinese i got 30/40.
yayy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hah
lit was not very good.
cos i was _____ and i dint really understand the book.
jodee said that nothings safe to blog bout so i shall try to keep things discrete.
yes.
i shall try.
ohwell.
i just wont complain bout ppl larh....
wangleehom's xinzhongdereye album is so nice!
budebuai from wilber's gao shou is nice too!
hah!
val. if u stop saying his name in the english pronunciation, i might rmb to burn the cd for u...
hah.
oh well.
shall hope i can rmb to burn it by the end of this as-usual-will-be-long post.
math i hope i can pass.
wasnt that hard i think.
but dunno how to do anything.
set theory i totally wasted marks.
forgot how to do.
bleh.
mabel's in malaysia.
hope she buys bubblegum!!!!
i love sweets.
hmm.guess chocs are nicer.
sigh.
she miss so many trainings le....
but she pro le mah....
nationals coming up le.
ahhh......super scary.
and we must uplift our morales.
seriously eileen.
must jiayou and dont give up even if u play a more pro person!!!!!!!!!
cos u very taiko.
and ur game tactics are pro....!!!!
just use ur jian zhao can le.
okay!!!!!!!!!!!
jiayou squashers!
we can do it!
hoping for a third at least.
thats low expectations lorh.
considering the no. of schools taking part.....
friday was swim carn.
okay larh.
me and joan had lunch.
met eileen.
we shared table at the caifan stall.
as usual she was showing me weird grins.
i know she was trying not to laugh.
oh jocelyne set beside us too.
the caifan stall so popular meh???
oh well.
its nice.
RIGHT EILEEN????
hah!
somemore say u will never eat there again hor???
hahaha.
last time ask u to eat there u dontwant.
can dont eat caifan what....
got yu pian mi fen what.
RIGHT??????
and.omg
im so guilty.
but nevermind.
whats over is over.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY VERON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i love u lots.
miss u too.
jiayou ok!!!!!
sigh.
so sorry.
sigh.
maybe simin was right....
hmmm.
i guess shes not irritating....
just concerned...or busybody?
not like if i were her i wouldnt be....
why must be drifting apart.
why must there be a rift between us....
i realised i AM a determined person.
no means no.
most of the time....
i guess jodee is right.
im overly resoluted cos im not very openminded....
im irritated.
like whatever larh.
u are SO IRRITATING AND LAME.
if only i could just ignore u....
goh wan ting has the nicest legs on earth.
i want nice legs too.
and a nice tan!!!
but i guesss female swimmers have uglier physique than the guys...
but that mr li hadley hse teacher and squash tcher.
he was absolutely eww in his purple chao high trunks with his bulging tummy.
fair like toufu
i still rmb mt conolly swam for buckle last year
kt was ewww.
bet he thought he was cool.
hah!
he has no abs....
haha
irritating sissy larh he.
extra.
grr.
shall not waste time on idiots like him.
swim carn was basically okay
just that buckle as usual so lousy
and we got cheapskate ugly souveniers unlike the other houses
rushed home after that or tuition.
saturday woke at 6.15am to go mgs for a stupidly boring talk.
me and jodee were munching on crunchies and talking bout the retarded thingy the boy in front was playing with.and basically just crapping.
cat slept.
and jacq kept shh...ing us
and eileen was doing nothing.
i think
after that we ate brunch at some ulu place which had a cool vintage setting and cash register
service very bad.
food was badd
jodee got poisoned.
kinda
trning wasnt very good.
okay larh.
coach tot i was esecially stupid that day.
taught me how to count 1 and 2~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!
ahah
told her i was like tat everyday.
so in the end me and eileen couldnt do it so we switched to something simpler
haha
played with that vulgar p4 girl.
yayy.
i won.
fortunately
after that.
RUSHED AGAIN
to suntec.
jammed larh!!!!!
had yummy marche dinner
and anderson's fondue
and shopped.
cos was a belated bdae dinner for my sis
and today 2am mrning shes going italy
notfair'
hmph.
oh well.
so came home all sweaty
bathed at 9pm.
woah.
out from 7am to 9pm
today fortunately nothing on....
but woke at 8am
sigh.
used to waking at 6am
ohwell.
went swimming to achieve my goals of nice legs and tan
apparently dint suceed.
the pool stank
cos we couldnt go the new one.
swimmers were having trning in that pool.
and the pool we went so may old ppl.
wanted to squash.
but no time
maybe i will go later....
yayy.
tmr have to go yio chu kang at 9am.
wednesday and friday too...
siao lorh
sigh.
tmr meeting veron to shop.
after trning
yayy....
gotta rush again
from yck to orchard
not that far larh...
but i will be sweaty and stinky
blegh
again]
im always rushing
hmmm.
hope fridqay after trning can watch movie with nga man.
jocelyne say want ot go then now back out.
hmph.
nvm.
thursday hope i can go out with simin and jessie.
busy everyday lah....
mylife'sSOhectic
Saturday, March 04, 2006
!?!?!?!?!whatver world
blegh.
dunno if my archives are working
changed skin cos i realised the ultra retro one aint working....
ohwell.
WANZI CD SO COOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i love the design of the album.
SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO RETRO!!!!!
haha.
and chao funny too.
but very pervetic.
right jodee?????
haha
oh well.
today founders day wake up so early.
blegh.
boring larh.
and then we ate brunch at 10.30am......
oh well.
then cos i am a REALIST....not a pessimist EILEEN!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok
erm.
tot we wud be late for trning.AGAIN
so suggested we tell coach we MIGHT be late.
haha
so she offered to pick us up at holland road bus stop.
seriously larh.
trning at JURONG isnt fun at all.
waste my energy.
make me tired and sick even before trning start.
and whose fault is this?????????
irritating nosey parker kt.
hmph.
oh well.
he was just being responsible.i guess.
whatever larh.
tired larh
train from 12 noon to 3.15pm......
eileens dad dropped me and eileen at boon kheng....
then i refused to take 21 to kallang cos jodeesaid it was super scary and ulu!!!!!!!!!!
so i took mrt
and i met XINER!!!!!!!!!!!!
haha.
and in the end i stopped at aljunied and my mum gave her a lift home.
and i got to eat sardine puff!!!!!!!!!!
im determined to get around eating my delicious instant noodles tmr mrning.
i must nd i WILL!!!!!!!!!
haha.
what determination.
i guess the only meal i get to eat at home is dinner.
oh well.
so much food i wanna eat but cant find time to eat.
im sick of eating measly unhealthy yet yummy outside food.
i want to eat more.
but just no appetite
feel so bloated.
sigh.
friday was ...hmmm.....
we were u;ltra late for trning.
oh well.
ooopsies.
and we had no manners lorh.
we dint realised that we were supposed to apologise until coach told us.
sigh.
we need to be more polite.....
but it wasnt intentional lorh.........
its cos we spent 10mins crazily flagging a taxi.
inthe middle of the road....
haha.
we were screaming like "taxi!taxi!" hahaha
super funny.
and no taxi wud stop so we were late......
and the grip i changed not tacky at all lorh.
hmph.
jodees addicted to glue.....
so stinky she say okay....
oh well.coach was seeing double and nearly fainted.
its either cos of that or she was dissappointed in us that she was getting abit pissed.....
but i think i deproved.
ohwell.
eileen after saturday trning improve like siao....
friday played eileen lost lorh.
oh well.
but dunno why im unfeeling.
not sad not angry.....
played michelle and chelsia
chao fun.
but duh-uh lost badly.
but good experience.
WE SHLD PLAY MORE WITH SENIORS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haha.
oh well.
kallang courts wads very stinky larh.....\
but pt on steps is innovative and fun.
not that tiring larh.
but anytime better than running round the track
irritaing pop-ups keep popping out.
blegh.
coach bought us all nice turtles.
so cute......
but left early so havent get yet.
she so funny lorh.
act cute like rainie.
haha.
whine to the uncle to sell hercos wasthat kind must use the machine claws to take the toy.
in taiwan larh.
she bought for us cos we like "william hung"
hahaha.
so in the end she paid more to buy from the uncle.
haha
she took spastic picture of the turtles in a circle too.!!!!!!!!!!!!
haha.
today so could not hit properly.
but trning was best and productive.....
yayy.
one to one with mr li.
take turns lah.
then i improved forehand volleys but backhand volleys deproved lots.
totally couldnt do backnad volleyboasts......
oh well.
and i wanted to do the off the backwall thingy.
but misssed it cos was trning under mr li at that time.
hmph.
but apparently jodee an eillen had to run like siao while doing that....
but i still want to do it.....
was kinda moody during 2nd half of the trning.
cos i realised i deproved lots.
and was very angry for no reason.
oh well.
just submitted rs proposal.....
got to study geog math lit.
sigh
last minute bah
and our joint blog is seriously dead......
mr li so funny.
told us go and study and coach tot he ask her.haha.
history exam was okay....
just realised im so going to die.
so much work.......
and veron finally realised we were drifting apart.
wow.....
hmmmm.
tmr is my sis bdae....
ohwell.
today train so late....
otherwise cud have eaten dinner out....
oh well.
but i guess eating homefood wud be nice.
i just found out that boonkheng existed.
haha.
mr wolf is funny....
last night spur of the moment detemined to train hard....
haha.
smsed that to jodee during tuition.....
haha
oh well.
coach said our serves were terrible....
REALLY????????????
i tot mabels good lorh.
if hers arnt, then what is considered okay lorh.
maybe coach just saw the lousy serves and not the pro one.
eileen is improving at an alarming rate.
that is good for the team!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i think im a unfeeling person with feelings.
HAHA JODEE!!!!!!!!!!!THAT MADE SENSE BUT DINT MAKE SENSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haha.
oh.so random.
plaza sing the rice thingy with omelette is SUPER YUMMILICIOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
as nice as the double cheese thingy.....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i love gluttony!
dunno if my archives are working
changed skin cos i realised the ultra retro one aint working....
ohwell.
WANZI CD SO COOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i love the design of the album.
SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO RETRO!!!!!
haha.
and chao funny too.
but very pervetic.
right jodee?????
haha
oh well.
today founders day wake up so early.
blegh.
boring larh.
and then we ate brunch at 10.30am......
oh well.
then cos i am a REALIST....not a pessimist EILEEN!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok
erm.
tot we wud be late for trning.AGAIN
so suggested we tell coach we MIGHT be late.
haha
so she offered to pick us up at holland road bus stop.
seriously larh.
trning at JURONG isnt fun at all.
waste my energy.
make me tired and sick even before trning start.
and whose fault is this?????????
irritating nosey parker kt.
hmph.
oh well.
he was just being responsible.i guess.
whatever larh.
tired larh
train from 12 noon to 3.15pm......
eileens dad dropped me and eileen at boon kheng....
then i refused to take 21 to kallang cos jodeesaid it was super scary and ulu!!!!!!!!!!
so i took mrt
and i met XINER!!!!!!!!!!!!
haha.
and in the end i stopped at aljunied and my mum gave her a lift home.
and i got to eat sardine puff!!!!!!!!!!
im determined to get around eating my delicious instant noodles tmr mrning.
i must nd i WILL!!!!!!!!!
haha.
what determination.
i guess the only meal i get to eat at home is dinner.
oh well.
so much food i wanna eat but cant find time to eat.
im sick of eating measly unhealthy yet yummy outside food.
i want to eat more.
but just no appetite
feel so bloated.
sigh.
friday was ...hmmm.....
we were u;ltra late for trning.
oh well.
ooopsies.
and we had no manners lorh.
we dint realised that we were supposed to apologise until coach told us.
sigh.
we need to be more polite.....
but it wasnt intentional lorh.........
its cos we spent 10mins crazily flagging a taxi.
inthe middle of the road....
haha.
we were screaming like "taxi!taxi!" hahaha
super funny.
and no taxi wud stop so we were late......
and the grip i changed not tacky at all lorh.
hmph.
jodees addicted to glue.....
so stinky she say okay....
oh well.coach was seeing double and nearly fainted.
its either cos of that or she was dissappointed in us that she was getting abit pissed.....
but i think i deproved.
ohwell.
eileen after saturday trning improve like siao....
friday played eileen lost lorh.
oh well.
but dunno why im unfeeling.
not sad not angry.....
played michelle and chelsia
chao fun.
but duh-uh lost badly.
but good experience.
WE SHLD PLAY MORE WITH SENIORS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haha.
oh well.
kallang courts wads very stinky larh.....\
but pt on steps is innovative and fun.
not that tiring larh.
but anytime better than running round the track
irritaing pop-ups keep popping out.
blegh.
coach bought us all nice turtles.
so cute......
but left early so havent get yet.
she so funny lorh.
act cute like rainie.
haha.
whine to the uncle to sell hercos wasthat kind must use the machine claws to take the toy.
in taiwan larh.
she bought for us cos we like "william hung"
hahaha.
so in the end she paid more to buy from the uncle.
haha
she took spastic picture of the turtles in a circle too.!!!!!!!!!!!!
haha.
today so could not hit properly.
but trning was best and productive.....
yayy.
one to one with mr li.
take turns lah.
then i improved forehand volleys but backhand volleys deproved lots.
totally couldnt do backnad volleyboasts......
oh well.
and i wanted to do the off the backwall thingy.
but misssed it cos was trning under mr li at that time.
hmph.
but apparently jodee an eillen had to run like siao while doing that....
but i still want to do it.....
was kinda moody during 2nd half of the trning.
cos i realised i deproved lots.
and was very angry for no reason.
oh well.
just submitted rs proposal.....
got to study geog math lit.
sigh
last minute bah
and our joint blog is seriously dead......
mr li so funny.
told us go and study and coach tot he ask her.haha.
history exam was okay....
just realised im so going to die.
so much work.......
and veron finally realised we were drifting apart.
wow.....
hmmmm.
tmr is my sis bdae....
ohwell.
today train so late....
otherwise cud have eaten dinner out....
oh well.
but i guess eating homefood wud be nice.
i just found out that boonkheng existed.
haha.
mr wolf is funny....
last night spur of the moment detemined to train hard....
haha.
smsed that to jodee during tuition.....
haha
oh well.
coach said our serves were terrible....
REALLY????????????
i tot mabels good lorh.
if hers arnt, then what is considered okay lorh.
maybe coach just saw the lousy serves and not the pro one.
eileen is improving at an alarming rate.
that is good for the team!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i think im a unfeeling person with feelings.
HAHA JODEE!!!!!!!!!!!THAT MADE SENSE BUT DINT MAKE SENSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haha.
oh.so random.
plaza sing the rice thingy with omelette is SUPER YUMMILICIOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
as nice as the double cheese thingy.....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i love gluttony!
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