and i waited

i waited.
and i dont know what i am waited for...
what is it.
why am i waiting.....
and i refuse to believe the only possible reason im waiting.

cos i know its not true.
or am i just ecsaping from reality?????













forget the self reflection part.
hmmm.
had a nice talk with dearest veron!
yesterday


then met jodee and eileen at heeren.
HAH
jodee immediately boasted about buying a nicer addidas shorts.

which she promised to wear today.
and as i was saying how i refused to see it....

haha.
walking down the escalator.
then suddenly realised i was on the wrong direction of the escalator

haha.
so dumb

and i was laughing like siao
everyone was staring.
haha


sometimes im just plain dumb.

fine...maybe always.

anyway.
talking about dumb...
i bought the 10 packet thingy of mamee.
then eat one,
realised no seasoning thingy inside.so bland
so i check the packet.
saw"ready to eat"
so i thought they decided to cut down on msg,
put for us so little seasoning....
eat the last packet.
then realised there was SOOOOOOOOOOO many packets of seasoning at the bottom of the whole big packet.
hmph.

dumb larh
so the seasoning has been wasted.
its rotting at home right now.


anyway
took neoprints with veron.
though they dint turn out very nice and was kinda ex....
and was a traunatic experience....
ohwell.
nice souvenier i guess.

and on the log book outside the neoprint shop....
so sick.
got one picture of this guy and girl french kissing.
and they publicise it like that.
blegh.


oh well.
as jodee said.
i guess i AM closed minded....

anyway.
we dint see the machine say dont insert coins.
but i inserted 10 coins.
hmph.
then suddenly this woman appeared and scolded us.
then we said we put already.
dint noe cannot put....

and that mean old 20+ auntie said: too bad lorh.cant print out no refund.
and while scolding, she wasted 2 of our pictures.....

so throughout the whole thingy.
we were chao scared our 10 dollars would be wasted.

my plams were sweating larh.
cos that was the remaining 5dollars out of the 10 dollars left in my pocket.
BUT IT DID COME OUT
and we purposely went admiring our neos in front of her.
HAHA


yes.
i spent nearly-fifty dollars yesterday
sheesh

im broke le larh


$12 for squash tee
$10 top up ezlink
$7 pastamania
$1 can drink
$1 ice lemon tea
$12 for huiqi's present and some useless cute toy i bought for fun
$5 for neos(which did come out!)
$2 on beard papa cream puff (cos i was full but greedy)




anyway
my mortal's so cute.
she just reported to me today bout how her freaky lights at home exploded and she got cut by the glass.....

hah.
and last time told me how she playing with her pilot pen till she poked her face and bled...


haha.
so cute right.
HAH!!!!!!!!!!
and she's a squasher too!!!!!!!!!



today had training at kallang.
1-3pm
but played till 4pm.

hah.
coach brought tjc guys to spar with us.

lost my first match with this irritating guy.
ha.
at least i won first set.
but thats cos he gave in.
he thought sure win cos I'M THIRTEEN and he's SEVENTEEN
haha.
whatever.
so after i won.
he bully me lorh!!!!!!!!!!


waaaaaa.
he started smacking the ball like super duper hard.
shivers.
but still not as hard as dearest mabel.



oh well.
but im pissed
i wasnt playing properly larh
just stood at the back and dint run cos coach was outside.
hmmm.



realised i do get stage fright.
still traumatised by last year's english oral and chinese too.
in front of whole class somemore...
and speech and drama assesment too.

and it was just in front of like....20 ppl??????

blegh.


oh well.
how random.


im guilty.
yes again.
for finding dearest____ irritating.
exactly.
for no reason.

sometimes i just find fault with everybody cept myself.

and im guilty cos when my sis left for italy,
i dint say bye.
and actually dint care
till next mrning i on my phone.
realised she had even bothered to sms me before her plane took off...
she said bye and asked if i wanted chocolates.



GRRRR....
i hate regretting my actions.
i cant stand being and irritating mean hypocrite.



blegh.


anyway.


the next guy i played with was apparently nicknamed pineapple tart by coach....
and i won him.
YAYY

his stroke abit weird.
but he hit very hard

and the meano fren of his was like.
aiyah u sure lose one larh
so mean to his own teammate....

anyway.
accepted the meano guy's offer to play a match

cos mabel lost badly to him.
and i wanted to challenge myself!!!

hah.
was quite fun

anyway
apparently nobody wanted to play with him cos coach said he stank.
(oh wells.he changed his shirt in the end)
and he's the shortest.
seventeen and shorter than me.


hahaha


anyway.
was ok challenging.
apparently coach said he was best cos he played for many years.



and then suddenly i realised i was going to miss the shot.
screamed like siao.
super high pitched.
and mabel and jodee screamed at the same time.
cos very jing zhang.
haha


inthe end
i dint miss.
but cos he got a shock
he dropped his racquet to cover his ears from 3 girl's screams....

haha
so he missed and i won that rally.

we played one set only.
cos the lights off le.
anyway was a close match.

after that.
i was laughing like siao.
then kept missing.
until 8-8

haha
suddenly i screamed again but apparently it worked no more....

hmph.
lost 10-8.
haha
but was fun


and when mabel played with him.
she was cursing....
and me and eileen laughing like siao.

cos the guy was like.
relax larh.....

haha....how "gentlemanly"
anyway.
we were like asking mabel to start crying so he wud let her win considering how "gentlemanly" he was.....


oh well.
hahahaha




tmr must go yio chu kang at nine

and im determined to be punctual for once.
im always like WAYWAY early...
(ranging from 1/2 hr---1hr)


haha.
okay.
and was supposed to go out with ngaman tmr for a movie.

but im determined to start on my sc pt.



btw,
anyone who knows mrs jeannie goh's email add pls tell me.
THANKS
and anybody willing to swap date for western dining etiquette course pls tell me.
cos it clashes with my competitions.
THANKS