i cant speakkkkkkkk.
im sssssqueakkkkkking.
waaahahahahaha.
lost my voice le.
now in com studs and im dying of thirst.





later going to train till 2.30?
than im going home to eat lunch!
finally i get to eat at home.
enough of outside food.
besides, im broke....





yesterday was very very very pissed when i came into school.
and whole day i was moody.
cos i got booked.
and im gonna go dc soon.
and im so dead.
cos nobody going with me
and and and and i was falling asleep half the tim in class.
and and and i kept seeing irritating ppl who irritated me further.





blegh.
i think i saaid to much to ____ the other day.
stupid lah.
always like that .....



and and and and i think i AM really dumb.
which is mainly whats iritating me.
yes.
im pissed at how stupid ppl are.
including myself.




and i realised that alot of strangers seem to have more in common with me than those who arnt strangers.
yep.



there's more than sweet, sour, bitter, salty.
i just realised there was failure and disappointment.
how disappointing. ><



eeeeeeeyer.
so disappointed in those ppl whom i admired.
i wished ppl kept their bad sides to themselves.
er.....
but i suppose that would be hypocritical and superficial....





i shall try to remember jodee's DAD's WONDERFUL HELPFUL phrase :)
but i think im too bad tempered to be able to apply it.















i shall coop myself up and cut down on social activities as jodee advises :)












i NEEEEEEEEEEEEED WATER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



i shall cut my hair later.
but its stressful.




oh well.
i hate school.
and ________.






eeeeeeeeyer.
cant believe that he actually did THAT.
so bad.
i never knew ppl can go to such lengths to spite others.
i though it just happened in movies.




and movies are becoming real.
and reality is turning into a movie.




oh craaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaap.





i love my mortal.
and i think the only thing that makes me happy now is her delightful cute funny crappy letters.

i dont think i can rmb the last time i was really happy.
aaaaaaawwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.