reading thru my archives.
and i realised
my problems from last month are like still there.
and i still feel the same way.
i am just as unhappy as ever.



and honestly, nobody can be trusted.
and it was one of my saddest mistake to trust you.


and.
and.
and.

i am tired and sick of thinking so much.
afterall no matter how much i think
i still get no answer.
i just feel sadder.
i just realise more sad truths.




i think i am thinking too much that i am often lost in my thoughts so i am always stoning and quiet.



love does solve all problems.
i dare you to disagree.
hah.
or maybe everyone is filled with love its just the amt.?

and it depends on whether you look at the amt of love someone has, or the amt of hate.


but maybe i am just qiang3 si1 duo3 li3 (i think its the correct phrase?)
and i am just finding excuses for bad ppl to say they are good.
or maybe i just put myself in their shoes too much.


i wished your shoes were easier to fit in.
cos i just cant understand your point of view and so i am just pissing you off.



and i wished things dint change so much.


and i have found a new target.
but i dont think i will ever dare to have such high hopes again.
so perhaps i will just let the opportunity pass.


i rather miss a chance at happiness than risk getting unhappiness.
FOR GOODNESS SAKE.
why cant i just learn to take risks.

-______-
i am a total loser.