stupid stupid stupid.
what is with the latest stupid fad at home.
or maybe its just me thats not caught up with it.
and i wont want to.
cos i despise it and find it utterly disgusting.
or maybe im just jealous.


oh well.



there is this really really obvious biasness against me.
and nope
im not being overly sensitive.
but anyway
i have much more things to do then be bothered with you fat idiot.


oh my goodness.
so cool.
it is so so so so touching! i love tv!
watching tv is good for the development of the mind :)


and and and and.
honestly,
i think i am so tactful compared to some people


and seriously if u think the truth is just hurtful, dont tell me.
just tell a white lie.


i rather not know the freaking truth.
but now that i know, i guess it just lets me know what type of person you are.
and anyway,
i gave up thinking u would change long time ago.
so this horrible discovery of the truth doesnt really impact me much.



and i have learnt to acccept the fact that i cant change your character.
and if u want to remain the way u are.
i can do nothing about it.
perhaps im the only one that doesnt like the way u are now,
but if it makes you a happier person,
good for you.
all i can do is wish u luck.
too bad for me i guess.



anyway,
i have grown to realise not everyone wants to be a good person.
and i know that things cant be the way i want it to be.
and whatever which seemed to be true is never true.


i am just not someone with good judgement i guess.


perhaps.

right now

you are thinking the same things as me.

sorry if i angered you in anyway.

u either tell me frankly what i should change.

or just act superficial/tactful and pretend that u like me.
but i guess i cant possibly live on decieving myself with all these untruths.
what i want to say is:
if u dont like me, say it. or just act like u do like me.and do a good job of acting.


i really hate seeing that look in your eyes which totally betrays your words.



i know im not as likable as i want to be.


i have been living in lies of my own,
decieving myself.
like lying to myself that i can do it.
lying that you dont hate me.
lying that i believe in goodness.
GROW UP.
yes thats what i need to do.
i need to accept the truth and not just manipulate them to become what i want them to be.



maybe thats why u are so pissed with me.
cos i refuse to accept the truth and continue living in my fairy tale story.





hmph.

and then lets talk about ___.
i cant believe i got pissed with you.
perhaps i just cant understand why u did that.
but i think u ought to have done that.

it certaintly woke me up.
and im really sorry for doing those things i did.
or maybe those things i never did but ought to have done.







sheeesh.
rs is super dead.
and anna is funny.
unique sense of humour.
which just proves strangers can be group members:)
and most importantly proves that im not anti-social:)
or maybe its just another one of the lies i live in.




pffffft.
oh well.



math retest was okay.
much easier but i dunno how to do some.


after that stayed back with joce to do the front door deco.
since no one seems to realise that the dead line is like thursday?
and we havet even discussed who wear what
still got back door.
and have to paint lorh
so tmr i will be staying back to volunteer to paint with joce:)

fine
maybe its not volunteer.
its my responsibility since im part of the class.



i cant believe im such a hypocrite.
and i am just as selfish so i have no right to say about others.



haha.
201 is the slowest class lah.
in deco.
subject topics (blame it on the teachers)
cle proposal.

waahaha.
its people like me who contribute to it ;D
oooops:)




IPU im gonna DIE.
sit and reach also.




honestly, i think that ___whom i barely know is anytime better than you.
but what can i do about it.
at least she has better moral values than you.
and you just dont want to change.
oh man.
i might just be distorting facts.
maybe its not moral values.
maybe theres nothing wrong wth you.
its just ME.
grrrrrrrrrrrrr.

OH MY GOSH!
quadraplets are so cool and cute!!!!!!


squash is not as nice as before:(



i love jocelyne and anthea!


oooh.
i saw anthea.
she blush like siao.
and kept hiding her face!
i know who tianyi is le.
yay!




jocelyne makes me guilty cos shes nice and im not :(


i love geog!

you make me sick