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goodness gracious me.

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ok.
i feel better spewing nonsense.
gosh.
but im still highly irritable.

and i honestly wished some ppl would leave me alone to rot and stop making things difficult for me.
its like...
OBVIOUSLY a trap for me to fall in.
and if i dont fall into that trap, i will just fall ino another.
either way u will just rip my life away.
AND THUS, i have decided to feign ignorance.
hah.
so now u will just think i fell into your trap or im ignorant.
well.
the uncertainty is enough.
but dont be sad if u think i fell into your trap :)


i bet u dont know what im talking about.

i must learn to make things more unidentifiable.

i love philosphy!
guess what
i borrowed a book on capital punishment though philo is over.
but its so cheem i read one page gave up.
i shall borrow another one onterrorism and racism!



"capital punishment means :anyone with no capital gets punished"
so smart right!
the book!

ahhhh.
it makes so much sense.
totally

"we show our regard for human life by the adoption of a rule that he who violates that right in another forfeits it for himself"

"by imposing the death penalty on those who dare break the rule of existence, we affirm the dignity of every other individual"
BRILLIANT!


certaintly makes me question my existence.
pffft.


u dont know.
not at all.
well u nearly did but its best u never know.


i just hate it.
why everyone lies to me.
why nobody ever trusts me.
why i never trust anybody.
i guess nobody can be trusted.
not at all.
and it just comes back to the fact that im alone.
again.

again and again and again and again and again and again.
u just have to repeat it dont you.
im sick and tired of begging u to give me happiness.
u just have to show your dislike for me right before me right.

gosh.
i am highly highly highly highly highly pissed.
i have never been this poor in my whole life.
i hate being broke.
i guess i just have to sacrifice that hollister skirt.
BLEGH.
after yearning for it like so long.
well if i pay coach later then i can buy.
but nope.i shall not buy it.
im sure in kl i can find cheaper ones.

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gosh.
i just cant stand it that u just have to raise my hopes and then dash them.
i hate sucking up to you and not get results.

i hate sucking up to you when i hate you like siao.
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i shall never ever ever ever believe you wholeheartedly.
and never ever ever ever ever do things to please you.
i hate smiling at you and then turn behind and mutter "stupid fat pig"
gosh.
actually i dont even smile at you.
well
maybe when you raise my hopes of getting that pair of jeans.
so much for your big fat genorosity.
what happened to your promise of getting it for me.
apparently it matters so much that u forgot about it within 5 mins.
or maybe u are just feigning it.

from now on i shall just risk it and be happy.
i will not be your puppet ever again.
but i guess even if i escaped, i will still be yours.
a puppet will always belong to its master.

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and yes.
now lets talk about her.
gosh.
do you know how much your nice daughter sticks to her?
obviously you do.
thats why u treat her like gold.
and treat me as trash.
no not as trash.
the worst thing is that u dont treat me like anything.
but then again.
i shldnt care.
considering that we dont know each other.
and we both pretend to be nice.
u just do her a favor and let me tag along yah.
and i just help her keep her face by smiling and greeting you.
not like ihave a choice.
but i guess i csan always change days,or take a bus and not bother you.
considering that we arnt even neighbours.
that we are total strangers.





choir concert was cool.next year and next next year and many years i will go!
we saw mabel junior.
speaking of juniors, what happened to anonymous ppl?
anyway.
i was pointing to mabel jnr in the hall, then jodee was like
bowing and saying GOOD MORNING.
yes.
IT WAS NIGHT TIME.
and she was greeting a teacher not mabel junior XD
she thought i was pointing to the teacher
loser lah XD

and im sure today she will do smth loser though she says she dint.
oh well.

AND I LOST MY BEAUTIFUL MONA LISA!
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now have to repaint and i have no materials at all.

bel canto sat beside simin!
was nice talking again.
perhaps sunday we'll be movie-ing.
but im broke so maybe i shant go for lunch?

and dfmceoivnuencrjnmvrn v
u dont know how much i hate it when u go overboard.
i know im nice.
but u dont have to take advantage of my magnanmity by being so irresponisble do you?
hah
and u thought it was funny.
even someone who knows me less well than you do could tell i was pissed.
sorry lah but i cant handle criticisms well.
i can, just not UNJUST ones.
but i guess seeing you just makes me forgive you.
i cant hold grudges for long.

trning tmr!
yay


2.4 was fun.
running in the rain!
rained last round and i was soaked.
i ran 12.37 mins.
yay.
i feel proud of myself though i could have done better if i had not been pisssed.
hehe
ms ong was leaving aready.
so i thought i had to re run and was pissed.
but i was like 1m away from finishing line so i ran there in case i dint have to.
then i stopped at ending line and was like:have to rerun!!!!!???
then they were all like RUN RUN RUN
then i was like HUH???
then i just ran.
i realised i havent reach ending line, 3m more XD
fortunately,
thanks to yuhui and huiqi!
they asked ms ong to wait for me!!!!
so i dint have to rerun.
then i was like happy when lisa came past
and she was like RUN DONT STOP
then i HUH
and half run half walk.

then i was hsouting for yu hui like siao but she dint hear.
cos lisa said i havent run finish
and i wasnt very sure either.
but in the end i decided that i probably ran finished le and so i went in to j blk.
soaked totally.
at bus stop.
it was flooded cos drain got clogged.
super cool lah!
was like a flash flood,
as in the cuurrents were strong!
and ppl screamed when lightnibg came.
and my shoes got SUBMERGED cos the water was ankle high!


anyway
was yesterday loser day or what.
jodee malu at acs,
jocelyne during recess also

cos i saw mrs koh by with styrofoam.
so the very environmentally friendly me was telling joce of how she teached geog and dint save the earth.
then joce was like: yah lorh, so much CPF.
then i HUH.
then she said: the thing that causes global warming!
then i realised it was CFCs! ! ! !
hahahaha.
then she was like :CPF LAH!WHATS CFC!?
haha.

i am depressed over the loss of mona lisa.

and i need to do lots of stuff
1. be more humble
2.be less greedy
3.have more dicipline
4.be smarter
5.be less mean

i think i can empathise everyone but my family.
pfft.
maybe cos i know them well enough that the WORLD PEACE THEORY doesnt work on them
actually i dont know them well at all.
and
dont tell me love makes the world go round.
money is realistically as impt.
thats why im pissed and depressed.
no money,not happy.
well.
u might then say that no money, got love will be happy,
but then,
what if i say theres no love AND money.
pffft.
NOW thats a reason for me to be unhappy.
so u cant say anything about being happy without money and just love.




she lives in a house, not a home