YAY!
i got my flexpoint alrdy!
haha! but the green strings are weird.
and anyway,
i look forward to going trning.
cos i cant wait to try my racquet out!
but....i guess trning itself isnt smth to look forward to...

and i think i better use the cover otherwise it will break again.

anyway
going sports planet was traumatising
firstly, there were alot of ppl.
and i saw mao shi hui.
then i ran in the shop,
saw coach
and zainal.
so scary

then coach stared at me weirdly
say: you played squash ah?
then i : HUH? YAH YAH YAH...
actually i also dunno what se say, i just yah yah yah,
haha.
cos i thought she meant i played squash today or smth?
but then again, there were matches ongoing at kallang,
so...
oh well, shes probably asking if i trained today or smth.
anywa, i said hi, then grabbed my racquet and ran out without saying bye
ooops

anyway!
i think music is very nice!
and i have new found loves and new found hates too.


and.
i managed to complete geog pt in 3hrs!
considering how long i chatted, yes im quick.
i slept at 1.30 am though i finished before that
cos im a nice person.
i helped alot of ppl, and chatted with someone. kind of...lent a listening ear lah.

oh my!
im such a goood person.
ok, i shld be humble lest ppl say im ego...

anyway.
truths really shed new light on everything.
maybe thats why i dont like them.

yesterday was certaintly a day of many discoveries.
scandals are nice :)
and i found out smth which is the most unimaginable and shocking thing ever.


i think i am a sexist and i shld remain that way.
cos some things just prove me right.
or maybe its just what happened to her.

but, still.
i totally side her.

you'll never guess what happened.
its very very very shocking.
i think its the most shocking thing i have ever heard in my life.
yes.

i cant believe it...
no no no no no no no no no no no.

if that happened to me, i would probably died of depression,
but then again, i wouldnt ever let smth like that happen to me.
so there.

but i guess, i'll never know what will actually happen to me.
i guess when it comes to love, people will just do anything.

so much for the love crossing all boundaries.
she crossed those boundaries,
and it is that which put an end to her life.
yes,
i wont ever cross that line.

even someone like me who knows nth about what it feels like, what it is like, can feel so much. you probably wont be able to imagine how heart shredding it is.

yes, its really really literally like really your heart will shred.
even though it dint happen to you.
yes, its that bad and that sad and that shocking.

theres nothing i can do to help due to my immaturity,and i dont know why you are telling me all that, but i just want you to know that .

and joan chan shu fang passed away.

i hate deaths.
i think i rather die than see someone die.
and yet i have discovered that two people i knew actually died.
my condolences,
may all the love be with you:)

i think i shld never had bought a dog so hastily.
but considering my age at that time, its not my fault.
i regret so much.
i dont want a dog!
i dont want to see it die.
i dont want to witness deaths.
nope.
i shld have just spared myself from all that sorrow and just love a soft toy instead
at least a soft toy doesnt die,
at least its huggable.
at least it listens to you.
at least it loves you when no one does.
at least it remains innocent when everything goes wrong.

whats my problem.
GROW UP GIRL.


im sorry i cant do anything but cry for you.
im sorry you have to go through this.
im sorry i cant emphatise and can only sympathise.
i know crying solves no problems.
i know we arnt close at all.
i just want you to know
that though i cant help in anyway,
though i wont ever be ur best friend.
i will always lend a listening ear to you.
maybe im just kaypoh.
but please just know that i feel deeply for you.
may all the love be with you.
may all the love evryone has for me be showered onto you.
you need it more than i do.
wipe those tears away girl!
i know you arnt that weak!

but if smth like that happens to anyone, she'll probably be weaker than you.
just want to let you know, you are my new idol!
haha.
i really really salute you.
for your courage.
your strength
your logical reasoning.
not just superficialty.