why toss the ball up.
i guess its for the experience of what it feels like to be off the ground.
for the pleasure of journeying through the air for a few seconds.
for the process.

theres no difference between tossing a ball and a watermelon.
they both fall

physics inspires me
to think beyond imagination.
right im sure it does.

.mjhfhvhjvhjh6rspufzwqejhkyiuyyrreeqadxhjbkjyiyggvsewqruob
i need that illusion of faith.

kagiso:)

bing bang bong
ding dang dong.
DONG DONG QIANGGGGG!

once upon a time,
theres was a graceful mabel and a graceful dancer.
they were graceful.
very.
the end :)

sorry mabel this is short i actually wrote alrdy but it was lame so i make it short and sweet!


EBELE to the people!
DAKARAI is what we want
do EMEKA
no DEKELEDI
may EKUNDAYO happen
please FOLAMI
FUNANYA everything
FUNGAI wisely!

waalaalaaalaaaa

ahhhh.
so freaking irritating.
i am insulted by untrue insults.
thats super duper loser.
oh well i AM a loser.


stuuuupiiiidddddd.
i need long-sightedness.

well well well.
i think the exposition we did during english was really cool.
but i think its all a matter of point of view.

yah well but some people just absolutely condemn other people's point of view.
but if you would like to put it that way.
everyone is free to air her on views and explain why she supports it.
so indirectly it is promoting that way of thinking.
which is often percieved as condemnation of other points of view.
which is totally what i am doing.
oh wow.
so its just called airing ones opinions and not being close minded?
as in like if people write stuff about why they think something is wrong,
and say how stupid/evil etc some ppl are to do it,
is it voicing her view or being close minded.
it all comes back to pov!
like how you might write about how stealing is so bad and condemn it,
but that is just what you percieve to be morally wrong.
what if some people do not think stealing is morally wrong.
they are not immoral cos the morality of stuff is dependent on pov and different ppl have different criterias to what they think is morally right.

so is it wrong to condemn an idea which is widely thought to be morally wrong?
realistically, it is just what majority thinks which counts what.
like if someone says stealing is okay,
society will jus say he/she is siao and just condemn it.

so is it mean of someone to condemn other ppl's point of view if 99% of the world condemns it too?
i guess im just another hypocrite and if i dint disagree with whatever was said i would just have promoted it which in other words would be condemning the other point of view.
right?

so basically i guess this is a round about thingy which im writing.
i guess everyone has her right to her own pov so whether they want to condemn it or not its just a reality and since i cant do anything about it,
i should just REN3!

ren3-ing is super useful!
i managed to ren3 a lot of stuff yay!

okay...
but oh yah this isnt what the exposition is about but this is basically the main concept im figuring out.
the main idea of the exposition is what the author defines as being lady-like and what is being polite.
its her pov i guess.
but its really food for thought lah.
the thousand and one implications of what she says and all.
right...feminism indeed.

and in the end theres just no conclusion is just another open ended topic which i will forget rather soon.
blegh.
i guess theres no conclusion but its just up to the individual to make her own stand.
wow!
so the author has made her stand and basically is just sharing it with the wrld so she isnt wrong?
ahhhh.
i am thinking in an absolutely illogical manner.

why am i so dumb.
stupidity is irritating.
no wonder im so freaking irritated.

and i dont believe people can die without regrets.
only someone with no yearnings or greed can do so.
and all humans have yearnings so its impossible!

today was super cool.
though i think someone is very highly irritated with me.
blegh.

anyway.
im such a failure.
hurhurhur.
i was hoping the queues would be long and i wouldnt be hungry so i could skip lunch and diet!
haahaaa but im so loser.
the queues were short and i was hungry.
so i went to eat.
oh well.
its stupid to diet.
im sure skipping lunch will make me much thinner.
but it will save lots of money!
oooh so i should eat 3 packs of 20cents fish chips everyday only!

and so as not to irritate anyone else.
i was and am not on a diet.
so there.
its just a 'if-can-then-yay" kind of thing.
so yah...

and well not only were some people irritated with me i was irritated with some ppl
well thats cos i was irritable i was irritable cos some people were irritating.
wheee.
or maybe physics was just getting to me.

i think ____ is really cool and intellectual.
but i shall not say who she is otherwise alot of ppl will say im siao.
but shes really like woah cool.

today rs was cool too.
or rather james ong is cool.
he let us off 20mins early
so i went squash courts and hit abit till 3pm with an old racquet.
the old gripless racquet is actually quite cool and not lousy surprisingly.
then at 3 pm my dad and my sis came.
and the first thing i ate was truffles!
oh gosh truffles are so cool.

i never knew what they were till really long ago.
haha that so makes no sense.
well that evil woman last time bluff me say truffles were pig trotters and innocent me believed her.
oh well not her fault she prob wasnt lying i bet she dint know what they were either.
haahaaa but now i know!
yay!

but i wonder whats so famous about it all.
its tastes like normal good chocolate except abit richer.
yup so i think its not worth it at all.

which reminds me i miss the show so much.
something where two chefs are given a main ingredient and have to come up with a full course meal using it.
ahhh so cool.
ooh yah i think i want to be a chef.
but i think i cant.
cos i dont appreciate good food.
as in i dont enjoy gourmets.
and i dont see the point in indulging in ex good quality stuff when there are cheap ones with almost same taste but lousier quality.

and and and and i ate yummy super yummy crepes!
its nicer than the one jocelyne bought from japan!
its super super nice!

basically after school today i went on a eating spree!
went for tea!
shared a cake with my sis then bought lots of foodstuff.
and walked around swooning with amazement at super nice clothes but with sky high prices.
and eventually managed to find a yellow shirt that was cheap.
yay!


shit lah. why am i so freaking irritating.

its a song oh wow

Hero LyricsArtist: Nickelback

I am so high.I can hear heaven.
I am so high.
I can hear heaven.
No heaven, no heaven dont hear me.
And they say that a hero can save us.
Im not gonna stand here and wait.
I'll hold onto the wings of the eagles.
Watch as they all fly away.
Someone told me love will all save us.
But how can that be, look what love gave us.
A world full of killing, and blood-spilling
That world never came.
And they say that a hero can save us.
Im not gonna stand here and wait.
I'll hold onto the wings of the eagles.
Watch as they all fly away.
Now that the world isnt ending,
its love that Im sending to you.
It isnt the love of a hero,
and thats why I fear it wont do.
And they say that a hero can save us.
Im not gonna stand here and wait.
I'll hold onto the wings of the eagles.
Watch as they all fly away.
And they're watching us(Watching Us)
As they all fly away.



thanks to mabel.
i found out that there were lyrics on my blogskin!
isnt that cool.
yay!
i like this song!

funnyfang!

this is a highly interesting excerpt of me and eileens msn conversation regarding me coming up with a new email add due to bo liao-ness:

/kwonsangwoo.rain.hyunbin.energy] JI SUNG <3>
/kwonsangwoo.rain.hyunbin.energy] JI SUNG <3 color="#660000">lifang says:HAHA
/kwonsangwoo.rain.hyunbin.energy] JI SUNG <3 color="#660000">lifang says:YESSSS
lifang says:ok ok i like it!
lifang says:im so not angsty
lifang says:oh yah whats angsty
lifang says:haha i just know its not me lah!
lifang says:got no such word okay!
/kwonsangwoo.rain.hyunbin.energy] ANGSTY ANGBAO! says:GOT LOH
/kwonsangwoo.rain.hyunbin.energy] ANGSTY ANGBAO! says:ACTUALLY ITS ANGST OR SMTH RIGHT
lifang says:i checked dictionary.com
lifang says:got angst no angsty!
lifang says:AND FOR YOUR INFO
lifang says:ANGST MEANS A FEELING OF ANXIETY OFTEN ACCOMPANIED BY DEPRESSION
lifang says:hurhurhur
/kwonsangwoo.rain.hyunbin.energy] ANGSTY ANGBAO! says:HAHAHA
/kwonsangwoo.rain.hyunbin.energy] ANGSTY ANGBAO! says:so its like sadist right
/kwonsangwoo.rain.hyunbin.energy] ANGSTY ANGBAO! says:JUST LIKE U LA
lifang says:NO LORH
/kwonsangwoo.rain.hyunbin.energy] ANGSTY ANGBAO! says:dont careeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
lifang says:usually reserved for philosophical anxiety about the world or about personal freedom
/kwonsangwoo.rain.hyunbin.energy] ANGSTY ANGBAO! says:lol
lifang says:that so isnt me okay
lifang says:loserlifang better!
/kwonsangwoo.rain.hyunbin.energy] ANGSTY ANGBAO! says:coughcoughrighttcoughcough
/kwonsangwoo.rain.hyunbin.energy] ANGSTY ANGBAO! says:HAHA
/kwonsangwoo.rain.hyunbin.energy] ANGSTY ANGBAO! says:I M GLAD U KNOW
/kwonsangwoo.rain.hyunbin.energy] ANGSTY ANGBAO! says:OR TYCO TEO
lifang says:but its totally loser to make an email like that
/kwonsangwoo.rain.hyunbin.energy] ANGSTY ANGBAO! says:THATS WHY
lifang says:HOW ABOUT PRO PRO TEO!
lifang says:im not tyco lorh.SKILL
/kwonsangwoo.rain.hyunbin.energy] ANGSTY ANGBAO! says:no alliteration
lifang says:OR FRIENDLY FANG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lifang says:HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
/kwonsangwoo.rain.hyunbin.energy] ANGSTY ANGBAO! says:PUKES!
lifang says:hahahaha so coool!
lifang says:how about emo elmo!
lifang says:AHHHH SO COOOOOL
/kwonsangwoo.rain.hyunbin.energy] ANGSTY ANGBAO! says:u dont resemble elmo in any way my dear
lifang says:i know!
lifang says:its random lah
/kwonsangwoo.rain.hyunbin.energy] ANGSTY ANGBAO! says:hoho so random
lifang says:yup yup.
lifang says:then what else?
/kwonsangwoo.rain.hyunbin.energy] ANGSTY ANGBAO! says:uh lousy lifang
/kwonsangwoo.rain.hyunbin.energy] ANGSTY ANGBAO! says:happy hongbao
lifang says:hahahahahhaha coool
lifang says:happy hongbao is so cheesy
/kwonsangwoo.rain.hyunbin.energy] ANGSTY ANGBAO! says:lol
lifang says:SCREAM SQUASH
/kwonsangwoo.rain.hyunbin.energy] ANGSTY ANGBAO! says:HORNY HONGBAO!
lifang says:EEEEEEEWWWWWW
lifang says:still got what
lifang says:seriouslyserious?
lifang says:haha yes so cool !
/kwonsangwoo.rain.hyunbin.energy] ANGSTY ANGBAO! says:-.-/kwonsangwoo.rain.hyunbin.energy] ANGSTY ANGBAO! says:SO LAME LA
lifang says:hahahahahahahaha
/kwonsangwoo.rain.hyunbin.energy] ANGSTY ANGBAO! says:lamelifang@hotmail.com
lifang says:DONGDONGQIANG@HOTMAIL.COM
/kwonsangwoo.rain.hyunbin.energy] ANGSTY ANGBAO! says:-FAINTS-
lifang says:hahahahahahahahahahaahahhaha oh my gosh its so funnnnnnnnnnnyyyyyyyyyyy
lifang says:loveloacker!!!!!
lifang says:can right
lifang says:but so random
/kwonsangwoo.rain.hyunbin.energy] ANGSTY ANGBAO! says:HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM
lifang says:or hermittyhermit
lifang says:or purtypriestess
lifang says:hahahahahaahahahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
/kwonsangwoo.rain.hyunbin.energy] ANGSTY ANGBAO! says:getting lamer and lamer
lifang says:haha coool what
lifang says:hahaa i just thought of something lame!
lifang says:POOOH-MA
/kwonsangwoo.rain.hyunbin.energy] ANGSTY ANGBAO! says:ahem
/kwonsangwoo.rain.hyunbin.energy] ANGSTY ANGBAO! says:i dunno what ot say already
lifang says:hahahahahaaaaaa
lifang says:FUNNY FANG
lifang says:HAHAHAHAHAH
/kwonsangwoo.rain.hyunbin.energy] ANGSTY ANGBAO! says:ahemahemahem
lifang says:aiyoh seriously lah think of something nice leh
lifang says:stable stabilo!
/kwonsangwoo.rain.hyunbin.energy] ANGSTY ANGBAO! says:lol
/kwonsangwoo.rain.hyunbin.energy] ANGSTY ANGBAO! says:and thats not nice lifang says:haha i know!
lifang says:byeeeeeee ballerina!
lifang says:woah that alliterates okay!
lifang says:SHINY SHIN!



randomness and lameness indeed.

oh yah i just suddenly remembered that everyone forgot to mention seeing a security guard zhua xiao tou in one utama during milo trip! it was so cool okay the thief ran across the road and the guard so lousy one run so slow in his stupid hat

oh yah and today i trained only one and a half hours, but it was so unfruitful
i think i got worse instead.
it was the quality of a fifteen minute worth of trning cos i basically swaggered around and slowly picked up the ball and softly and slowly drive and slowly stone and slowly admire the scenery and yah, wasted most of the time.
aiyoh i decided to leave cos it was so absolutley disgusting the way i was hitting.
my arm just had no strength to drive and i was feeling so rubbery.
yup.
the result of forgetting mr lee's teachings.
i forgot how to hit hard by the wrist thingy!
sit i lost it laio so now im totally drifting.
i cant even hit straight.
and hallucinate in the courts!
i see the ball so near and then i swing and i miss cos it is actually very far.
AHHHH.

and did i mention i love loacker?
okay i dint.
so
I LOVE LOACKER!


and i just realised that most people forget how they started.
they just remember the process.
but oh well whats the point of remembering the start and not the process.
okay i think the book i read explains it more clearly but oh well im lazy to flip through the pages.

i have decided reading shall be my new hobby.
and i like fan fan's songs!
and down with deforestation!!!

randomness! oh yah and i have a hunch theres supposed to have SAs the coming week but i cant rmb whether got anot.shooosh

photos!

this lady in pink (correction, i mean mostly black.) has the greatest fashion sense ever.i mean ever.












the topshop stuff so cool right!













the airy biggish jap girl thingy with me and jodee!



oh yah i forgot to talk about today
jocelyne's hse is super nice okay!
and her brother looks like her and is super cute but naughty.
he kept throwing balls at me lorh.
but he is so cute!
i was like :jocelyne, your brother is super cute lah!
then her brother said: no, you never see how irritating i can get.
HAHAH and he is like ten years old only i think.

i like my blogskin alot! its so nice and yellow!

racial harmony was okay-ly fun.
but must have been boring for zeslene serving tea.
oh yah zeslene amd tea together is so weird.
like how lifang doesnt go with PRIEST.

waahaha.
which reminds me.
the career thingy.
i refuse to believe i am made out to be a PRIEST, NURSE, TEACHER, LIBRARIAN etc.
please lah.
imagine ME as a priest.
i absolutely dont accept that.
and therefore i shall redo my whole thingy.
anyway its inaccurate cos alot i wasnt sure so i just agreed.

oh yah but the thing was cool!
as in well discovered many interesting occupations, and now i have identified possible occupations!
should i be a social worker?
its cool lah.
but pay is small right?
and im not a kind helpful angelic person.
or a psychologist!

TIANYI"S MUM IS SOOO TOTALLY COOL OKAY!
she is a psychitrist!!!!
how cool is that.

okay back to racial harmony day.
got many surprises that day!
1. zeslene said hi XD
2. discovered Devil's Curry which is super nice.
3. found out huiwen can dance well and that SUSAN is a cute little sheep and candice cutlery.
4.RUGDEE dances and so does zhang hao! mr ben shakes alot.de souza is eww.
5. bangaaerobics is cool
6. icon in bugis is cool
7. burlington is opposite bencoolen
8.i went to sim lim square! and it has a food court
9.i am stupid rash and broke
10. i am high when describing yang's nose in chinese.
11. michelle junior is funny
12. janine is an sl?!?!

alot more but i cant rmb.

icon is super cool can.
but i wasted lots of money so i have six bucks left for the rest of july.
shit lah.
thats why today i skipped lunch.
besides having lunch at FOUR dint sound very appealing.

todays trning wasnt very good.
how disappointing.
i played like shit.
like mabel said,
the sec ones are enthu but lazy, yet they improve so much
we are enthu and notlazy, yet we dont improve but deprove.
bleh
so irritating. i cant stand playing so shittly.
i am resoluted to train tmr!
yes! at least for two hours on my own.


oh yah what happened to talking about rhd.
i digress so much indeed.

oh yah last year rhd force us do stupid performances, this year sec one dont need lorh!

okay.
jocelyne came in a nice pretty punjabi top.
guiqi so cute came in a PINK qipao top thingy.
casslyn wore revealing tops! XD
alethea came in GREEN!
and everyone else in school u.
ZESLENE WAS IN A SKIRT!!!!!
huiwen in tank top (but due to her performance i guess?)
MABEL SENIOR PLAYED THE PIANO! (i dint realise till 6.14pm on saturday when anthea told me.)

oh yah.
rubber bande games was surprisingly fun.
haha cos LYNN IS FUNNY AND COOL
shes so mean!
she won and dint give me her lolly!
imagine lynn SUCKING on a lolly lah!
ahhhh so cute!
lynn is honestly like bob the builder.
so cute right.
and she cant strangle me cos she wont read this! HAH HAH.
devils curr very nice.
the rice thingy too.
POPSICLES ARE NICE!
i just realised what i made last time was called an ice popsicle!
the toys were the nicest thing ever!
i wanted to buy all but so ex so i bough the cheapest nine bucks cute one.

the concert was so cool!
huiwen can dance okay!
and susan so cute XD
dint recognise her but recognised her shorts and shoes and muscular legs!
i videoed huiwen and took picture of susan with her round round belly!

hah.
can use to blackmail!
heh.
i shant post it here.
one must never offend seniors :)
i am so guai qiao ke ai okay!


okay what else was nice....
food basically.
and well lots of interesting stuff

after that trained a while and i mean awhile cos my arm hurt and i was sick of hitting lousily.
then went for lunch then went to wisma topshop cos jacq wanted to buy cosmetics!
haha not for herself lah
topshop has a funnily sick section.
which i had forseen cat would be amused by.

after that we went bugis!
icon is such a cool place!
lots of lian stuff!
i think lian, twits and xiaopinksterxx are cool okay!
my secret ambition :)
well yah.
did i mention i bought a nice pair of earrings for 6 bucks?
haha yup.
and jodee bought her handphone thingy
and got lots of cool shops!
can personalise flip flops okay!!!
i want!
and there was this cool cafe with beanbags looking like trash bags.
just when jodee was enlightening us about trashbags being the in thing.

and what else...i cant rmb.

then we just walked along the bugis village and bought waffle!
where eileen was preaching about how aunties bully kids and cut queue
and after dinner where we saw a cockroach in the foodcourt,
everyone left.
i was an hour early for tuition so me and jodee went to the library!
so fun okay!

we walked thru bugis junction, then we saw this big humongous balloony person.
it was a blown up jag girl with someone inside lah.
then so cute okay!
so i use my racquet to poke its head.
then it head butted me and jodee with its BIG air head!
hah but miss lah!
but so fun okay!
then it tried to kick jodee when we annoyed it somemore.
and almost fell cos it was too big!
and it used its two big airy hands to kiap jodee!
hahaahaaa.
and we were screaming happily.
then a woman walk past and said: aiyoh rgs grils like that one ah?
ooopsies.
but was so fun!
so we were trying to take picture, then the nice guy who was giving out the adverts helped us take! he also very funny lorh.
he kept kicking his friend in the big airy thingy.

so after a nice picture, we went on towards the library.
and at the library we borrowed books duh-uh so guai right.
and sat on the nice sofas to talk
the place is so cool and nice!
i think i wontmind being librarian here, somemore can hermit myself away there, and sleep on the sofas there at night!

yah so we went to borrow books.
and i followed the crowd cos there was a queue which i assumed was for borrowing books.
horrifyingly it wasnt a queue for borrowing books.
luckily jodee realised or i would have queued there for eons.

so we went to the machine meant for borrowing books.
and i was so maluated
cos i never go library for half a year or more.
so i was trying to insert my ezlink card.
and couldnt go in,
then jodee enlightened me.
oh well dunno how to describe what i did but it was dumb.
but not my fault right
the last time i went to the library the machines wernt like that!


oh well.
was a fun day lah.
then while crossing the road.
we were discussing whether to cross or not cos the green man was blinking.
so when we finally decided to cross,
we ran, then half way across the road,
it turned red.
so we ran faster
and we were so amused.


i shall upload photos another time.


OH YAH
today is jacqs birthday!
last night at 11.54 i smsed her.
cos i was lazy to wait for that six minutes more.
haha.

oh yah.
coach made tiramisu and its super nice!
jodees strings burst and technifibre is lousy lah!
cheryl improved alot!
im playing like shit still.

oh well.
i shall stop annoying people by wallowing in self pity.

i dint eat lunch today
hopefully that made me thinner!
my calves are fatter
how disgusting.

that stereotypical mindset everyone has
which i once had as well.
gosh its eeeereeeetating


hurhur
eileen is new year monster!

training is kind of ok.
except at the start when its so boring and im so tired and dead.
and like yah i cant drive well and all.
but i dont mind continuous driving.
i can of like it.
but well.
have to wairt so long and its so draggy.

i have decided seniors arnt that bad.
zeslene finally proved that she wasnt as dao as i thought she was.
hur hur.

im so proud of myself.
i TRIED to socialise again okay!
from that old woman to seniors!

trning is really kind of ok lah.
i guess its a matter of getting used to it.
but still there have been better trnings.


and im platying like shit.
thanks to my inability to master the art of not letting badminton affect my squash
shooot lah.

juniors are still nice and adorable.
but whenever i say bye i seem to get ignored
except dharani who acknowledged me.
blegh.
so much for trying to be sociable.
oh well.

tianyi is still ever so scary.

and gosh
i love math tuition!
oh and there was this funny guy
sec 3 or 4 lah
so dumb lah!
he was using a pencil BOX.
and its the old ancient one that PRIMARY ONE national day give one lorh
the one that when you flip open the lid has the pledge on it

and i remember uncle ernest suddenly!

oooh.

trning is really ok.
really.
im so glad it is.
but im not ok.
really.

shooot lah.

and my chinese is pro ok!
zhang hao says so!

im am so disgusted by myself.

open house was rather boring.
but well.
got to know the juniors ABIT better.
as in yup talked to them ABIT more.
and talked to seniors ABIT more.


huiwen is weird.
but funny.

juniors are funny but funny.
and cute.
and really really nice!

yay!
they nicely came at seven to help us!
they came earlier than me.
oops.

anyway they are really nice!
and they are efficient and brilliant!
managed to put up our mounting board.
which was a tedious and irriatting job.
the irritating board kept felling.
till the juniors saved it!

and michelle was really sweet.
she went EIGHT shops to find the balloons.
and i know something more about her
YAY
haha
i know she doesnt like wearing anything remotely resembling a skirt
heh heh
though it is kind of obvious but yah.


and im trying very hard to be nice friendly and sociable.
really!!!!!!!

i talked to cindy and dharani and huiwen like normally.
without feeling awkward!
how rare is that lah.
well maybe its like easier talking to them....
like how talking to anthea is SUPER freaky.
(any sec one reading this dont tell anthea but anyway i bet you will)
and tianyi is FREAKIER!!!!
she so scary and intimidating!
as in yah cos shes abit like CAPTAIN JACQ (SPARROW)
cool like a cucumber!
as in like ice queen go alot of qi4 shi4
sophia is the scariest of all.


oh well.

and can you believe it.
that siao girl peeping jane.
she thought my display pic said SMASH YOU.
HEHHEHEHEHEHEHEHEH
so dumb.
its squash you lah dummy.
peep also peep properly lah!

xu chun mei english lessons so funny!

and eileen sent me many korean songs!
yay.
foreign stuff are nice!


and returning to the topic of being sociable.
yah that nice samitarian told me to try and be more socialble.
yah not like i dont know that but...hmm was kind of like...
oh wtv lah.
anyway.

yesterday at the busstop waiting for bus to orchard.
this old cute lady came to me and asked if 608 goes to hong something ma tou.
right.
so i know ma tou is jetty/harbous whatever
but i dont know which one.
red what harbour?
then she said got alot of yin hang.
so i know its the one near raffles place with lots of banks!
cos i remember it being near north/south bridge road.

then cos due to ndp that bus rute got diverted.
so we were trying to analyse the map on the bus pole
then i saw the legend and smartly told her which line is the one the bus goes now.
and then she kept repeateing to me in chinese where she want to go.
then i replied in CHINESE that i thought its like somewhere along shenton way.
well.
i kind of helpfully pointed to the map and circled the area.
but i wasnt sure so i circled one quarter of the map.
haha so she wants to know where to stop.
but that map doesnt show each stop, just the road names.

so i kept telling her i not sure, she shld ask the bus uncle.
then after a minute of silence
she tried to tell me in english
her english so good lorh!
she read the road name correctly leh!

then she say in chinese.
wo bu hui jiang ying yu.
then i was like mei you lah, ni jiang de hen hao.
hur hur

then she continued in chinese.
blah blah.

then after every few miutes we would start on again on whether it was the correct route.
and i assure her gain i was rather correct.

when we finally established that.
i decided to make small talk in a bid to start my socialising goal.

so i said
ni qu na li zuo she me.
then she said you ren qing ke lah.
then i was like ohh.....the dunno what to say
then she said aiyah na me ma fan, ta men zhuan lai zhuan qu de
then i was like shi lorh, yin wei na ge guo qing re.
then i was thinking shit, is it guo qing re or guo qing jie?
haha
but who cares
so i decided to be abit more helpful and i look at the board/map thingy
and said.
ah shi lorh.shi shi wu he er shi qi re er yi.
then i realised that was abit wrong.
shldnt it be like qi yue shi wu re.
i just said like 15 re....
so weird.
anyway was really stupid.
then when i say bus uncle.
i said ba shi SHI ji
when it shld be ba shi SI ji.
haha oh well.
was hard to speak lui li chinese to her.

then after a long time.
she said.
aiyoh ze me na me jiu mei you bus lai
then i was like shi lorh quan dou shi bei ren ding le.
and everything a chartered bus passed by.
she would ask me what bus number that was.
and i would say ye shi bei ren ding le.
and we did the same thign TEN times.

then she went back to the map and ask me again.
grrr....
then she said na me wan le, ta yao chi dao le, she wants to take taxi or mrt.
in the end she took another bus to mrt station. cos after 30 minutes that was the only bus that came.
and i warned her cong mrt yao zou hen yuan.
cos she old cannot walk so far what
then in the end she dint get on the bus
she walk back to me and said.
aiyah wo zuo de shi bi jiao kuai lah.
so she went to hail her cab.

and she dint say THANKS.
hmph.
but i broke the awakward silences lorh!
but hahahaha
got so many minutes of silence so we kept talking about the same thing, the map.

and when she got on the taxi.
i look at the map again.
and i realised.
i told her wrongly!
she shld have taken bus from the opposite side!
but i kept insisting this was the correct side!
oh no.
if she took from the other side she would have reached alrdy cos that side alot of buses came.
oh well.

at lest she dint take 608 from the wrong side and get lost
fortunately.
and she even ask me again if i wads sure it was this side.

haha

but yay i made a big effort to socialise!
yay one step closer to being sociable.
aint that cool or what.

and to everyone who missed the absence of my blog.
IM BACK!

hur hur.
the mystery of the hidden blog.
ahh im so lame. i cant walk.
im so infected by carol ann tan.

shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit.
oh noooooooo.

i am totally RUINED.
freaking shit.
is the world this small.
how could she find out!!!!!

oh noooooooooo.
i knew it would happen
but not so late right.
shit shit shit shit shit.

this totally ruins my reputation and my image.
shiiiiittttttttt.

i know what you are trying to get at.

hah.
isnt it good to be isolated.
HOPEFULLY.
no one will know i changed my url!
yay.
then this blog will be like...
unknown.

well at least until i decide its time for this blog to re-return to face the world again.

i think i dont regret coming here.
well not like i cared at first.
i kind of came from all that glam and stuff.
hmm.
now no glam but got so much more.

yay.

i am happy.
second indeed!


so much to say yet nowhere to voice it out.
well maybe my brain
but.
its like overloaded.

and this post wont make sense to you.
cos its not meant to!

it feels good to be a hermit.

and i have new ideas about my ambition.
but i shall not be a loser anymore.
and tell the whole world what does not concern them.

honestly what is the point of a blog.
the world does not care for my existence nor do i care of its existence.
so why tell the hwole world what i think.

no.
actually i think this blog is like a diary.
that i hope no one will read.
but its impossible.
so yah.

its like to keep track of major stuff.
hah.

thats why i dont write everything in here.
this is for less impt stuff.
impt and confidential stuff are up in my head!

yay.
save space.
brillianto.

SIMPATICO!
do you believe in it.

twweeeety twit

oh gosh.

i really love yu le bai fen bai!
xiao zhu is hahah cutely funny.
as in stupid cute.

i love tv!
it makes everyday worth living.
and yup.
i think thats the only thing to look forward to when i get home.

oh and i met tong yi on the way out of school today.
yay.
was nice talking to her.
though was kind of weird considering we havent talked for almost one year.
yup.
but it certaintly amused me.
thanks to that few minutes casual and random chat my day has not been ruined.
yet.

and i shall hermit myself before anyone decides to be sadistic and ruin my day.

oh and geog is nice.
and i like koh by!
and i dont see how geog and chem are like closely related.
i thought it was bio.
hmmm.

friday no trning:(
awww.how saddening.
saturday also!
shooooot.

and chelsia is so interesting!

and and and and and shit.
i need to think more.

oh
i love my blogskin!
its sooo yellow.
and havent talk to anthea in ages.
hur hur
otherwise i will be happier cos shes amusingly cute.

and im one step closer to gaining more self knowledge!
i just realised.
i love new stuff and i dislike old stuff.
as in yah, nice stuff after a while just irritates you and loses its....new-ness.
i think i just have low sustainable interest in everything.
EVERYTHING.

and she totally irks me lah.
vain pok.TWIT.
to be nice i shall say you were pretty once just that i never admitted it.
but honestly now you look like a ghostly piece of shit.
especially with all that make up and fake stuff.
gosh.
sure you have nice legs and all.
but also dont need to flaunt so shamelessly right.
and please lah i know you arnt fat but
also dont need to say things like
"no.im skinny lorh.blah blah blah says im very skinny lorh."
show off lah.
goooooooood lah.
"actually hor we both have long legs leh."
GAWWWWWDDDDD.
somemore in that compassionate tone of yours.
like you have to force yourself to compliment me.
and indirectly just complimenting yourself.
not like it was meant to praise me.
its like a rich man telling a servant "er you can have my diamonds ring if you want. i have nicer and bigger ones anyway." AND wrinkling his nose in disgust while saying it.

GRRRRRR.

and things like "actually you also very skinny lah"
like i need you to comfort like that.
act like mother theresa.

PLEASE LAH.
who goes around praising herself saying that she is skinny with fab legs.

oh.
and you are always bitten by a snake hor.
and someone else just had to follow in your footsteps.
to think that it was our one and only inside joke.
now you are disgustingly willingly getting bitten by a snake though you use to find it disgusting.
oh sure.
i believe something must have compelled you to do so.
oh yah actually i do believe it.
its probably dire circumstances.
just that i can stay by my principles more strongly then you do.
there goes the one and only inside joke we ever shared.
grrr pui.

I HATE FOAM FOAM FOAM FOAM FOAM FOAM FOAM FOAM.

pui pui :)

one word says it all.
PUI.
(courtesy of jodee)


:) :) :) :) :) :) :)

perhaps this few spastic smileys might be able to emphasize the great big joy i am experiencing now.
what a happy world this is!



quarantines are the best solution.



oh yah.
i was wondering if.
ignorance comes from the word ignore.
somehow i have to feeling it doesnt.


pui :)

the joy luck club!

i love reading!

The Joy Luck Club by Amy Tan
is one of the best books i have ever read!

its really nice and touching and all.
and its like really reall nice!

its super touching.
yup
and has a lot of learning points.

and it kind of made me PROUD TO BE A CHINESE!
yay!
i wished i was like living in the olden days in china,
or in california as an american-chinese!
but that time got war so its like yah, kind of freaky.


its really nice.
about how chinese lose their roots.
how mother and daughter bonds are lost.
its kind of so real and sad at the same time.


i shall type out excerpts of it.
kind of hard to choose cos the whole book is nice!
i wanted to like type the whole book out but oh well.

" that is the way with a wound. the wound begins to close in on itself, to protect what is hurting so much. and once it is closed, you no longer see what is underneath, which started the pain."

i guess time heals all wounds but at the end of it all, there will still be the scars.

"sometimes that is the only way to remember what is in your bones. you must peel off your skin, and that of your mother, and her mother before her. until there is nothing. no scar, no skin, no flesh."

hmmm.if you lose your roots, you have to trace them all the way back to find them. i think thats what this means...like chinese blood is in your bones so you have to like yah look in the bones or smth.


and i think the chinese mums were so coool!

and was kind of sad.
like how the daughter i ashamed of her cos she is old and chinese.
and how the mum says " i keep my mouth closed so selfish desires would not fall out."
yup.
so everyone shld shut up.

and its just so sad.
like how the mums know everything and their daugthers are so mean and stuff
and how the mums actually get misunderstood and bear with it all.

"when you lose something you love, faith takes over. you have to pay attention to what you lost. you have to undo the expectations."

hmmm.
but isnt it kind of hard.
to not try and expect anymore from someone you expected so much from.
hah
thats why this mum is cool!
she can do it!

and
an excerpt!!!!

" i saw a girl complaining that the pain of not beng seen was unbearable. i saw the mother lying in bed in he rlong flowing robes. then the girl pulled out a sharp sword and told her mother, "then you must die the death of a thousand cuts. it is the only way to save you." the mother accepted this and closed her eyes. the sword came down and sliced back and forth, up and down, and the mother screamed and shouted. but when she opened her eyes she saw no blood or shredded flesh. the girl said: "do you see now?" themother nodded:" now i have perfect undertstanding.i have already experienced the worst. after this there is no worst possible thing."

its like.
hmm alot of hidden meaning!

oh and there is this mum.
an-mei

her mum was actually the wife of a scholar.
but she got chased out of the house.
and an-mei her daugther was a kid and forbidden to follow her.
then one day when an-mei's popo died.
her mum came back.

and ask her to follow her.
she had remarried.
and was even more despised by the family cos its so despicable to remarry a that time.
she had married a super rich guy.

and everyone thougth she was after his money.
she was a concubine.
the fourth wife.

then an-mei wanted to follow her even though her popo warned her not to in her detah bed.
she went to the big big house.
and made friends with the servant.
the servant told her that the second wife was the baddest.
the first wife was scared of her.
she always pretended sucide so the guy would give in to her requests.
and of cos the guy would give in cos last time it was believed that if a woman commits suicide,
she will come back and look for her husband to haunt him.
so she was given the most attention.

and she couldnt bare a child.
but she wanted one.,
so she found this third wife to bare him a child.

then one day she saw an-mei's mum.
who was very beautiful
and she wanted her to marry the guy so he wouldnt waste money on brothels and stuff.
so she tricked her into bed with him.
and she was forced to bear him a child.
and had to marry him since she had his child.

but the son she bore him.
the evil second wife took it as hers.

so an-mei's mum, the fourth wife had to watch her care for her son like her own, when in actual fact was her own son.


so everyone misunderstood her as shameless and stuff but she was forced!

and in the end.
an-mei's mum commited suicide two days before chinese new year.

she put opium into sticky rice buns so the poison would stick inside her body so she cannot get saved by extracting the poison. then she died.
and the rich guy was scared cos on chinese new year she would come and haunt him.

its so sad!

and the second wife
she had also BOUGHT a fifth wife from a village.
and she was like a young girl like ten years old only lah!
so evil!

she manipulates the whole household.
hmph


and another excerpt!

jing-mei's is another mum.
and her mum's family had all died cos the jap bombed their house.
and jing mei when she was young.
was asking her mum whether her family could have escaped.

then her mum said.
"i went back to the house. and i found a doll...it was my favourite doll and i had given it to my niece. she cried if the doll was not with her.so you see? if she was in the house with that doll, her parents would be there, and so everybody would be there, waiting together, becaus ethats how our family was."

its so sad!!!!!!!


and there lots more...
hmmm.


and remember the titans is a nice nice show!
its super super touching!

really shows how teamspirit is like the best thing and nicest thing one can ever ask for.
its like so sweet and nice.
actually i think being a guy is cool.
its like so touching to see how actually one group of guys can come together as a team and like love each other so much.

laaaaaaaaalaaaaaaaalaaaaaaaaa

shut up.
yes i should shut up.

ok yay i did shut up.

inspired by cherie,
i realised that ppl mature by being sad!
yup.

how saddening.

and today was a weird weird day.


and i dislike alot of things.
yup.


ohhhhhhhh gosssssssssssh.
yah exactly!
i was so stupid to think such stupid thoughts
but luckily i kept my mouth shut.
or i would have made a fool of myself.
honestly what was i thinking.
some people are just ________ irritating.


and i shall continue to be a sexist.
gosh.

oh i shld shut up.
and not bitch
yup.

but why shld i deprive myself of the pleasure.
well it makes me happier even it doesnt make you so.


and inspired by cherie AGAIN.

i realised that aging is actually good cos it brings you one step closer to death.

shooooooooshhhh

oh sdejkmvmfevjpjcpmqjpkvlacjcjlaopdafjsvmsidfjsuscnkshcoshishhdhdodoid
shhhoooooooosssssshhhhh

and shhhhhhhhhhhiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiittttttttttttttt
im in deep shit.

oh no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no.
shiiiiiiiiiiitttttttt.
oh no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no.


i need liberation.
yes
avoid trouble when you see it coming straight at you.
oh yah.
sure.
but what if trouble actually has eyes and finds its way to you.

oh well.
i cant help that im lovable.
even trouble loves me so much.

awwwwwwww.
how sweeeet.


grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
i shall try and be humble and less lovable so trouble wont like me that much

yay.
i shall go hide now!

oh and shutting up does wonders to ones health.
and math test was ok.

and i love juniors!

and im so proud of myself!
i made the effort to improve.
like finally.
isnt that something to be happy about!
yay.


AND
JODEE LEE YIIIIII HWAAAAAA!!!!!
you horrible person.
peeer pressure leh you.
eeeyer.
make use of cheng chia rigggghhhhht.
how entirely effective and intelligent.
grmph.



everyday is christmas,
thats why Santa is so tired.
yesssssssssss

pleeeeeeeeease spare me from the misery and shuttttttt upppppppppp.
you wont even spare my innocent ears from your highly irritating voice preaching of evils.
gosh.
how evil is that.

abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz now i know my abc's ......then what ah?
ok forget it. this innocent little music doesnt seem to block out your voice which is getting louder and louder and louder.
seriously.
im not interested in your converstaion so shuttttt uppppp wont ya.

pfffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffft.




and and and.
xin niang si ba sui is like so sad its over.
and like.
the zhenshu was trying to find her dreams.
which made me wonder what dreams i have.
oh yeah.sure i have dreams. alot.
but no ambition.

and jocelyne and lisa were trying to help me think of my ambition.
but im too choosy.
haha.
and i certaintly ddi give them the impression of being materialistic.
hahahaha.
cos i wanted alot alot alot of money.

but now come to think of it.
i dont think thats what i want.

but money has the ability to give you the disillusion of happiness so why not.
if you cant have happiness, and illusion is good enough isnt it.
hmmmmmmmm.
thats if im living in a commercialised world, i would want to be a millionaire.

but no i dont want to.
nope.
saying about how i can buy branded bags with that money.
i dont think i meant it at all.
haha
though jocelyne took it VERY seriously.
was like trying to knock sense into my head.(literally)
as in well.
perhaps...
thats just finding a reason to be rich i guess.
i have no need for the money actually.
i dont want to buy branded bags.

ok.
so now that being a millionaire is out.

i thought for many many many days.
and i have decided what i want to do.

i want to be a hermit.
and i was telling jodee how cool i would be to liveup in a tree in bukit timah hill.
HAHA.
no lah,
somewhere like the amazon forest.
and i wont get eaten by wild animals,
cos i will learn to befriend them.
and i will talk to trees.
i love trees.
unlike humans,
they are so pure and unevil lah!
they wont bitch backstab, criticise.
they will just listen and selflessly share their beauty with the whole world.
you can tell them your darkest secrets,
for they ar the most trustworthy friends.
you can play with them among their bracnches.
hug them when you feel like crying.
sing and sway with them when you are hyped.
and when its time to say goodbye.
you apologise for being so sinful and chop them off for firewood.
ok the fire wood part isnt true.

no wait!
i shall have like 20 trees identified as my family and friends!
and then teh others i can chop then off for firewood.
i wont chop my friends and family off.
otherwise i have no one to talk to.

uh huh.
and then.
i will swim with the crocs.
and learn why the lion roars.
soar among the clouds with the eagles,
run with the cheetahs,
curl up to sleep with the squirrels,
ask the owl what he thinks about,
learn how to slither from the snake.

and lotsa lotsa stuff!

but its hard to do that lah.

so!
plan B!


i want to live in tibet.
high up in the himalayas where it is untouched by commercialisim
oh wait.
i must mention of HOW EVIL CHINA GOVERNMENT IS!
they go and build a trian to tibet to commercialise tibet
WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY
then i cant go there to live anymore!
i dont want it commercialised.
why must they be fffffreaking so selfish and open the tibetan ppl to evils of the world.
why cant they just leave such a sacred place laone.
it ids only one of the few rare places untouched by commercialism.
must they make the whole world commercialised,
and not even let some people in the world be happy.
why why why why why why.
all because of money.
well sure the china ppl will gain more money with better economy.
but its so darnnnnnn selfish!

ok.
nvm.
i shall just climb higher up tibet.
where no one can reach except the nice unevil ppl!
then i will have the whole village as my family.
i wont ever be lonely.
yep!

everyday, i will follow my motherly neighbour to go to the mountains to pick herbs, plant food,
herd llamas, camels, horses, sheep etc.

yup.
it will be so fun and carefree.
i wont have any need for money.
theres nothing to buy.
i get food from my crops.
i get happiness from a loving kind nice nice village!
i pass time by using my hands to reap my own food i need.
i wont need to follow fashion trends.
cos no one cares anyway.
i dont have to be self concious.
i can be as fat as i want.
cos its cold and i need blubber.

i will sing and dance during festivals.
i will pray everyday.
i will walk alone in the mountains everyday and think.
i will talk to nature.
i will learn how to soar from the vultures.
i will build snowmans with the snow.
i will live in a house made of sticks.

and

when i am dead.
my ashes will be thrown from the top of the world.
i will fly all over the world.
i will slither into clouds and fall back to earth as rain.
i will float aimlessly for eternity
i will travel all over the world.
i will look at humans with a objective point of view.

i will oversee teh whole world.
because i am at the top of the world.
righ at the top.
where no one can reach.
no evil to stain me.
no one to push me down the snowy peaks.

thats what i want.
i think.

though jodee says i wont survive more than a week.
laugh all you want ppl reading this.
im just an idealist.
with so much time to spare.
thinking about such things during physics lessons.
well.
its just a dream.
that would be nice if it came true.
really nice.
but it seems all too nice to be true.

but i can always try!
yay!
then i can go to tibet and teach the cute innocent kids
about stuff.

and cos i dont speak tibet language.
smiling will be the universal language there.

and it is there.
it is there where heaven truely is.
right at the top.
the top of the world.

and one day i will be standing at the peak.
and looking down to the world.
and being happy that i made the right decision.



if all this can come true.
wouldnt it be wonderful.


ok.
PLAN C.
i am gonna be a humanitarian!
in tibet!
haha.
or anywhere else lah.
like africa
YAY!
and i will help lots and lots of ppl.
and will be happy nowing that im fortunate cos there are constant reminders.




i think i need to think more.
bye.


oh and sorry if i pissed anyone off.
im just melancholic.
very very very very sorry.

IN CASE ANYONE DOESNT KNOW.
NOW YOU DO.

for your information i am a big fat loser cum fool aspiring to be a hermit.

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mmmmmhmmmm.
its true.

weirdly siao me.

ahh.tatum.

or duke

this is channing in shes the man.

and he is a nice nice character in the show.

and he is an underdog.

and underdogs are cool.

therefore channing tatum is cool!

and even jodee agrees he is more worth supporting than jacob!

jacob is too kawaii-ly cute.

actually the person who likes da chang jin also very kawaii-ly cute.

cos he has super small eyes when he smiles! so he looks very blur.

though his eyes not as small as cats. or mabels. XD

and and and and and.

channing tatum is worth supporting cos.

he is foreign.

and.

he is a model!

ahhh.

he models for calvin klein,Levi's,abercombie etc.

gosh.

actually he is an actor but he advertise so much sure earn more than if he acts what.

and albert einstein is very kawaii-ly cute too.

i love that guys hair! so eccentric!

yay!

oh oh oh.

the lee dong gun also kawaii-ly cute!

i love his hair too.

his hair is super cute.(ok hair cute?eww)

oh well.

its cute lorh. its so curly!

and his eyebags so big that he has no eyes XD.

ok i think im weird.

ppl are cute cos of nice hair and barely-there-eyes?

ok.im weird.

but channing tatum really very very very coool!

he is a model ok!

and stripes are in!

in in in in in!

i like urban!

and victoria beckam has nice nice legs.

and they arnt like matchsticks.

whats the newspaper persons problem!

ahhh.her legs are slim not thin lorh!

i shld stop being obsessed with models.

but!models are so cool!

oh what superficiality.

but i have analysed models.

or maybe people(on the bus , mrt etc)

and realised.

some people look good.

very good.

but they are not pretty AT ALL.

and these people really really look good!

ahh its so irritating.

like models, most are not pretty, but they have that kind of model face.

and they look good even though they arnt pretty!

and and and.

taking bus for one mnth helped me realised that.

adults and children look diffrerent!

and its unexplainable.maybe.

like how a teenager doesnt look like a 20+ person.

there is just that level of maturity in their faces.

and its not maturity by wrinkles etc.

its just like you look at someone's face and you can tell how old she is.

its just so amazing.

and i think its got to do with the facial bone structure of adults.

and the loss of baby fats.

and how some short ppl have long legs.which honestly irritate me.

and i realised being petite is better than being neither tall nor short.

and how height doesnt matter.

short-ness is only evident when in comparison with others.

you may be short in school but go on the bus and you might be the tallest!

i am so so weird.

and im so so so so dead.

i only annotated one poem so far.

i havent done math.

shit shit shit shit shits

half frozen milo is nice.so is milo powder, and frozen ribena.

i am binge-ing ALOT.

yay.

oh shit the hols are over in 3 days time.

and there is this weird scary pervert trying to befriend eileen XD

ahh.and im so mean i zheng him until super meanly.

oh well.

you cant blame me for being a sexist.

oops isnt that contradictory.

oh well.as in im a sexist but i support ALL models not just channing tatum,(he just happens to be in the movie)

stop trying to grow up and be someone you arnt ready to be yet.it irritates me.

pollution

this horrid world is polluted
mentally.
physically.

oh yuck.

now im feeling guilty for being exposed to such horrible pollutions.

yuck yuck yuck.

OH MY GOSH EEEEEWWWWWW

ohhh yuck!

gross gross gross gross gross

okay
the story goes like this.
(this is sicker than cat's sick jokes)

oh gosh

okay,
one fine day/glorious night with romantic moonlight etc (last saturday)
when i was not in singapore, but at milo (see what happens without me around!)
my frrreaking sister was sending her friend out of the house,
and she dint close the gate in time,
and my dear doggy ran out.
and as usual.
he ran into other ppl's house cos their gate was open
(considering how idiotic he is, yes he would do such a thing)
and then,
there was this mongrel larger than him,
(that kind of dogs used to guard hse and attack ppl)
and it attacked my dear intruder.
and my dear idiotic dog,
act cool for what!
somemore never run,
stay and act macho,
go and fight back with the dog twice his size.
so dumb!
and in the end,
he got bitten on the neck/shoulder.
BADLY.
and he still wanted to fight.
then the guy sprayed water on both of them,
and my maid
ran to carry him home.
(him as in my dear idiotic dog not the guy )
and then
the next day,
my dear dog dint eat the whole day,
nor did he walk at all.
then the next day he managed to eat and run.
and so on.

and of course when meticulous caing nice ME
XD
came back to singapore.
i meticulously took care of him.

and i noticed how disgustingly pus was oozing out.
and how it was swollen.
and how his long curly hair was infecting the whole wound.
and so my smart mother irritatingly used horrible ways to cure him.

she squirted iodine and saline on his wound
(saline, yes the one to wash contact lens)
to use as antisceptic.
and he squirmed and squealed cos duh it stings.

and a few days later.
which is today
FINALLY
i got to bring him to the vet

and after long time of waiting
and seeing him pee THRICE outside the vet with everyone staring in disapproval
we finally went in.

and the nice quite pretty young and nice vet lady
took shaver and shaved the hair off.
like how pain is that!
imagine shaving over a deep cut!!!
and finally
we saw the 1cm radius hole
the big horrid neighbour dog.
had sank his huge teeth in
leaving his bacteria from his mouth into my dear idiotic dog's neck
andthe nice vet lady
she took a pair of scissors.
and she cut the hole
and some hardened pus came out.
then she used her bare hands
and she started SQUEEZING the BLOB OF SWOLLEN THINGY HALF THE SIZE OF MY FIST
and blood gushed out.
along with chicken fats looking, blobs of pus.
so disgusting!
and my poor dear idiotic dog had a muzzle so he couldnt scream
though he was going to cry
see lah! act so brave go and fight for what! ahhh so dumb!!!
and he just stared at me and whimpered.
and i just went oh my gosh! OWWWW!
i bet he was irritated by my uselessness
hah
anyway
the whole thing that looked swollen
was actually pus and blood.
so she just squeeze and squeeze everything out.

and washed it with iodine and stuff
and injected him with antibiotics.

and so

my brave maid has to do the same thing twice a day at home.
eeeyer.
and i shall help by grabbing him and stopping him from squirming.
yuck!
squeezing all that blood and pus out.
gosh
i cant ever do that
its like causing intentional hurt to someone even though its for their good.
eeeeeeeeeewwwwwwwwwwwwww

and we have to keep him indoors
otherwise flies will comeand lay eggs
and his wound will be maggot infested!
ewwwwwwwwww
and he will be cut open etc
he shld have been given anasthetic why dint they!!!
so now im hallucinating cos i seem to hear flies buzzing near him.
yuck
so now he is staying in the toilet
awww.
and we tied his hind legs tgth.
so he has to hop about.

COS THAT FREAKING DUMB IDIOTIC DOG WANTS TO SCRATCH HIS WOUND!
which idiot will scratch an open wound!
he is just hurting himself morelah
so dumb!
and he still rubs his open wound against the wall.
yuck

and his blood is dripping from the wound

its like

a bullet hole.
and then you see a bubble comeout.
then it bursts
and then blood oozes out
and it continues

SO GROSS RIGHT

and we cant bandage it for some reason
it will hinder the recovery or smth

oh gosh im never going to be a doctor or anything
and im not going to the vet again

ahhh.
he is sooooo poor thing
he just looks at me with big wide eyes.
and its so sad.
esp when
he was being squeezed at the vet

he was looking at me like
why i dint do anything to help him from being tortured by the vet lady
and all i did was say oh my gosh yuck.

eeeeyer
so traumatising

and now he cant sleep
ahhh so freaky!
i bet he is traumatised too.

gosh gosh gosh
the hole was like 1cm wide lah!!!

and imagine.
my maid has to stick the dropper thingy into the hole to squirt iodine into the swell blob of pus
everyday,twice
yuck.
sticking soemthing into the body and injecting something
YUCK

and he is bleeding still.
yuck!

i want to be a speck of dust!
yay!
then i can fly up in the clouds when i want.
and fall back to the ground tgth with the rain!
thats so coool right!
then i can fly from singapore,
to england,
to australia.
to everywhere.
and nobody will see me or notice me.
i can do whatever i want.
there will be no homework.
no need to eat.
no need to do anything but enjoy.
then i can spend years stoning if i want to.
or else i can globetrot when im bored.
i wont have a brain so i dont need to think.
i wont have virtues.
i wont have evilness.
i wont have any thoughts.
i wont know whats happiness and whats sadness.
isnt that coool!

and therefore.
i wish i was a speck of dust :)

wheeeeeeeee.

my sunken ships.

THE DAY THE SHIPS SANK

Everyone owns a ship or two,
my many ships,
they come and go.

Row row to keep them afloat,
watch them bob up and down in the little moat.
"Ahh pirates!" i often hear them goad.

Stop rowing and watch them sink.
Aye Captain you lazy pig,
you scaredy cat!

Because of pirates,
because of Captains,
because of stormy seas.

My precious fleet half sunken deep,
all slumbering into deep sleep,
and that shall be our last meet.


gosh!
i can write poems!
HAH!
and it has alot of hidden meanings lorh!
its not shallow kind of poem, its VERY indepth!!!
inspired by the many many things.
i am poetic and poetic!
and this poem is not talking about a person.
it is of an intangible object.
kind of an object.
aiyah its just a noun lah.


gosh
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oh how ironic howblahthis is.
oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh

give up trying to figure out what that was about.
its meant to be ambiguous.
so there.

oh gosh!
the guy in my blog skin looks like jacob
just uglier abit
which proves jacob looks normal!

i am trying to upload the photos but it doesnt seem to work leh.
ahhhh!
forget it.

blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah .
so there.
i shall keep all my views to myself.

milo was rather okay.
ironicaly
we dint get a single drop of free milo
awww.
adidas warehouse was a dissappointment
kind of pissed me off
to think we all looked forward to it.


we went one utama.
midvalley.
sungei wang

all ok only lah.
cos not enough time.


the trip back from one utama was freaky
cos it was 9.30pm le.
and we couldnt find taxi.
then there was so few streetlamps.
and we were 5 girls alone with no escort
so we screamed and ran at the smallest of things.
especially when
there was this two indian guys on a motorcycle staring at us weirdly and heading towards our direction.
we all screamed and ran for our lives!
in the end they were just illegal u turning
HAHAAA


but was freakky
but managed to find a taxi in the end.

i am really lazy to reflect on this trip.
im just sure tht i came back with more knowledge
and less money
and less time
and being more lame and sick (courtesy of cat)
and saying "whatever manxxxxx" (learn from eileeen)
tsk tsjk
so many bad habits
worse is the sicko ness
EWWWWWW CAT!

jacq is cool
ken cool but ugly
rio tanaka super kawaii! she bowed to me okay cat!
jacob alexanda quite shuai but un cool but ULTRA ULTRA PRO.(jodee's obsession)
sarah is ugly fat and jodee's love rival but PRO
tamika is PRO and pretty and quite nice.
and blah blah.

i like roti planta

i hate the hygiene standard in malaysia
i hate the lack of pedestrian crossings

i barely bought anything
pffft.

and on the last night.
apparently we were supposed to not sleep.
though i planned to sleep.
in the end jodee "rest her eyes" until MORNING HORH.
she slept on the sofa.
i slept on my single bed.
eileen cat jacq slept on the king bed
so gay right!
cat slept at the foot of the bed though
she and jacq wanted to go back to their rooms.
but they fell asleep so oh wells.

and thx eileens parents for the many great treats!!!

took a few pictures.
very few lah

and at astaka.
cat so conspicuosly took pictures of jacob with my hp camera.
and we exagerated the whole story of he and jacob to make jodee jealous.
jodee regrets not going to astaka doesnt she!
HAHAAA

was funny making jodee jealous.
jodeee!
we brushed shoulders with him leh!!
hahaaa.
no lah.
maybe 1m away lah

aiyah
there nothing great about him.
alot of ppl look like him lorh
just that compared to asians,
he looks better what

and mabel and mg girls and nanyang girls and some of us conspicously took cameras to secretly take pics of him lah!
he saw lorh and was kind of embarassing.
mabel was using my camera to conspicously take a picture of him.
then an indian coach from india looked over her shoulder
and was shaking his head in disgust when he saw that mabel took photo of jacob.
HAHHAAA
i ranaway when i saw him do that
so malu lah!


thanks anyway
but i have a mind of my own
so there.
and i seriously
oh whateveer.

thoughts are safest when kept to myself.

and someone please tell me why i am doing what i am doing.

see you simin and veron and yijie on friday!
i miss you buttwhackers :)
aww.
no jessie on friday.

got alot alot of work to do.
but not planning to start till i finish my drama serials.

perfection

isnt life just an endless search for perfection
to achieve the things you want to bring u a step closer to perfection

we search endlessly for beauty
for good grades

yah,
we all love beauty
we want it
we need it
we live with it.

whether its our physical appearance,
our stuff,
our bags,
our anything
it all has to be the most beautiful

and the search for beauty is whats making all of us suffer.
i bet the reason u are pissed today or yesterday or some day was cos of beauty
whether its cos of jealousy of other ppl's beauty
whether because its cos of greed for it.
it just makes you pissed/sad/irritated/frustrated

yesssss.
it makes sense
and the reason ppl suffer
is brought about by their ownselves.
yes,
i have answered His question.
He wanted to stop ppl's sufferings.
now the root of the problem is identified.
yesss.
all we can do to stop all the sufferings in the world is to stop of our own actions.
but thats impossible.

so theres that
its impossible to live a life with no sufferings.
so i shld stop complaining


but stillllll.
gosh
i have no reason why im hurting ppl.
yes.
i dint mean to at all.
but now that i unintentionally did
i dont know how to stop it.
cos my dignity is in my way.
yah,
im just so frrreaking selfish
my dignity is more impt than ur well being.
to think i am the welfare rep
i started and now i cant stop.
better late than never,
but im just too frreakking arrogant and immature to stop it.
sorry.

anyway!
must let everyone know who puddles is!


ignorance is bliss,
indeed.
i wish i was dull minded.
then i wouldnt know any truths.
then i wouldnt know all that evil.

i want to learn tobe more thick skinned!!!!
cos my life is miserable being thin skinned

and
and
and
and
and


gosh
stop hating lah

i just dont like ppl to cheat me.



do you know how much everyone sacrifices to keep you happy
and what we get in return is unworthy of such a sacrifice.

i wished i was
oh well forget it.


i wished you would just stop doing whatever you are doing
cos i aint gonna stop you even if i want
and you're just gonna get youself hurt

this time.
i wont give in
i wont give in to your pleas.
this time
i must make you give up.
it'll just lessen the hurt to you.

i still cant forget.
what you said to me.
and
i just cant stand it how imperfect i am.
how superficial
how hypocritical.

i know what i shld be.
i know what to do to be perfect.
everyone knows too.
its the part about doing it that is hard.
actions speak louder than words.

im back to square one.
and i hate it.

yessss.
i must learn to be patient
i either learn to accept being in square one
or i change it.

STOP BEING SELFISH YOU FRREAKKING GIRL.
ahhh.
im monologuing again!


and in my search for beauty and perfection
i ruined their lives

im no longer sure who i can trust. no. not even myself.
im really really really really really really really really really really really really really really sorry

we all love milo!

yayy.
going milo open on tuesday.
hopefully got milo truck XD


and im playing a jap girl
cool right!
but i cant find anything on her.
but shes probably pro

anyway
i trained for an hour today to ge used to flexpoint

eeyer.
its so heavy one
anyway
i hit theball out 4 times.
3 times it bounced on the floor,
bounced against the railing and rolled.
it nearly went over the railing lorh
then 4th time i hit too high AGAIN
and it went out and OVER the railing.

and poor puddles (the name of my ball anthea came up with)
fell to his death and drowned in the rain!

hahahaha
it was kind of like gao1 lou2 pao1 wu (erm,,somehow i dont think its supposed to be "wu" but nvm, u know what i mean,killer litter)
imagine a warm/HOT ball falling 3 storeys down
its alot of potential energy okay
so if it hits someone.
can get concussion lorh!

csc squash courts are deserted and more ulu than sengkang or boon kheng!
but as it was going to rain,
the sea breezes,
eh no,
sea WINDS
were very strong
blew my stuff every where
and i almost got blown tooooo.
so scary lorh!
so i went to hide in the courts
cos got glass wall to protect me XD

eh mabeel! i dont sound like juniors okay.
though i know im cute and young at heart XD

anyway.
i dint have anyone to talk to for one whole hour so i smsed and smsed
and i tried to look over the railing for my ball
but i was so high up so i couldnt see it anywhere
my condolences to my cuddly puddles!


anyway.
im not ver used to flexpoint
it makes my strokes lousy!

anyway
looking forward to tuesda !

she died with tears

i think i finally have learnt to feel for others.
and not just selfishly wallow in self pity all day long.
thanks so much.
you made me learn how to cry for others and not just for myself.

i hate deaths.

YAY!
i got my flexpoint alrdy!
haha! but the green strings are weird.
and anyway,
i look forward to going trning.
cos i cant wait to try my racquet out!
but....i guess trning itself isnt smth to look forward to...

and i think i better use the cover otherwise it will break again.

anyway
going sports planet was traumatising
firstly, there were alot of ppl.
and i saw mao shi hui.
then i ran in the shop,
saw coach
and zainal.
so scary

then coach stared at me weirdly
say: you played squash ah?
then i : HUH? YAH YAH YAH...
actually i also dunno what se say, i just yah yah yah,
haha.
cos i thought she meant i played squash today or smth?
but then again, there were matches ongoing at kallang,
so...
oh well, shes probably asking if i trained today or smth.
anywa, i said hi, then grabbed my racquet and ran out without saying bye
ooops

anyway!
i think music is very nice!
and i have new found loves and new found hates too.


and.
i managed to complete geog pt in 3hrs!
considering how long i chatted, yes im quick.
i slept at 1.30 am though i finished before that
cos im a nice person.
i helped alot of ppl, and chatted with someone. kind of...lent a listening ear lah.

oh my!
im such a goood person.
ok, i shld be humble lest ppl say im ego...

anyway.
truths really shed new light on everything.
maybe thats why i dont like them.

yesterday was certaintly a day of many discoveries.
scandals are nice :)
and i found out smth which is the most unimaginable and shocking thing ever.


i think i am a sexist and i shld remain that way.
cos some things just prove me right.
or maybe its just what happened to her.

but, still.
i totally side her.

you'll never guess what happened.
its very very very shocking.
i think its the most shocking thing i have ever heard in my life.
yes.

i cant believe it...
no no no no no no no no no no no.

if that happened to me, i would probably died of depression,
but then again, i wouldnt ever let smth like that happen to me.
so there.

but i guess, i'll never know what will actually happen to me.
i guess when it comes to love, people will just do anything.

so much for the love crossing all boundaries.
she crossed those boundaries,
and it is that which put an end to her life.
yes,
i wont ever cross that line.

even someone like me who knows nth about what it feels like, what it is like, can feel so much. you probably wont be able to imagine how heart shredding it is.

yes, its really really literally like really your heart will shred.
even though it dint happen to you.
yes, its that bad and that sad and that shocking.

theres nothing i can do to help due to my immaturity,and i dont know why you are telling me all that, but i just want you to know that .

and joan chan shu fang passed away.

i hate deaths.
i think i rather die than see someone die.
and yet i have discovered that two people i knew actually died.
my condolences,
may all the love be with you:)

i think i shld never had bought a dog so hastily.
but considering my age at that time, its not my fault.
i regret so much.
i dont want a dog!
i dont want to see it die.
i dont want to witness deaths.
nope.
i shld have just spared myself from all that sorrow and just love a soft toy instead
at least a soft toy doesnt die,
at least its huggable.
at least it listens to you.
at least it loves you when no one does.
at least it remains innocent when everything goes wrong.

whats my problem.
GROW UP GIRL.


im sorry i cant do anything but cry for you.
im sorry you have to go through this.
im sorry i cant emphatise and can only sympathise.
i know crying solves no problems.
i know we arnt close at all.
i just want you to know
that though i cant help in anyway,
though i wont ever be ur best friend.
i will always lend a listening ear to you.
maybe im just kaypoh.
but please just know that i feel deeply for you.
may all the love be with you.
may all the love evryone has for me be showered onto you.
you need it more than i do.
wipe those tears away girl!
i know you arnt that weak!

but if smth like that happens to anyone, she'll probably be weaker than you.
just want to let you know, you are my new idol!
haha.
i really really salute you.
for your courage.
your strength
your logical reasoning.
not just superficialty.

hello!
im supposed to do geog but oh well.
as usual im slacking.i better make this quick

anyway dint realise jodee wasnt in school today
searched high and low for her during rs.
hmph.

i nicely offered to search for her lorh
and ms lim was like nvm lah, just sms her.
but as usual she dint reply so i asked ms lim to let me find her.
run everywhere.
then thought of the squashcourts
but so far, i also very lazy.
and besides se wouldnt play during sch hours?
anyway, went back.
after leaving anna to dicuss rs with herself and take minutes of her own one-to-herself minutes XD
and so she asked if i checked library then i OH NO.
haha.
forgot.
then she ran up.
cos i was panting badly.
then she panted even worsely and came down.

and still no jodee.
though intellectual me considered the possibility that she was not even in sch that day.
but my eyes told me the that she had came
COS I SAW HER!!!
but apparently not.

and then i smartly guesses that jodee would probably be super fuming.
considering that i would if i couldnt find anyone
so i came to a conclusion that jodee disappeared cos
1) she got stuck in the toilet
2) the more probable, she commited suicide cos she was very pissed

im so smart
it was neither of the above!
hahaha.
but i really saw her that day!!!

oh well.


turns out jodee was happily at home.
stressing over her mountain of homework.

anyway
i have decided to get the flexpoint 130.
but i hope i dont regret taking that instead of ncode.

i am sooooo broke.
money all spent on squash
and i still have to pay for my shoes-__-
gosh

trning tmr
i dont feel like going
gotta chiong geog

but i think geog last minute also can one lah
but mine sure no insight!

haha.nvm
when did i have insight anyway
but my chinese better than jodee!
im pro man!

cotote ugly is very nice
and the star is quite pretty,
but got some sick scenes though

there was smth funny from my convo withanthea, but i cant rmb.
so forget it.

anyway

trning yesterday was very goooood

coach nicely treated us to venezia ice cream!

i rmb what was funny le!

anthea: i want coac to have boyfriend!
me: find a guy for her lah! ur cousin or smth, then u can be her relative!
anthea: sophia has 2 brothers older than coach,we offered to introduce them to her
lifang: so cool! was she interested?
anthea: no lah
lifang: aiyah...OH WOW.actually, we can be gay and marry coach!
anthea: yay! i want!
lifang: oh nooo.but coach is straight!



wheee.
super funny


wasted 4 hrs.
havent done geog.
and i cant be bothered le.


phtotaking tmr!
and i cut my hair!

lalalala.
team dinner tonight was ok.

cat is so sick!

sakura was ok.
only the prawns and cheesecake and dessert was good.

everything else was ok lah


hah!
andi just realised for some reason i have da chang jin chinese or cantonese or some language maybe korean song in my com.

sengkang is dangerous!
jodee poor girl so many influences XD
how can p6 ppl take drugs and smoke!!!!


gosh.

and i ate ALOT of cakes.
cheesecake, chocalate cakes, tiramisu, cream puff.
hahaha.
super filling.
but now im not full le.


IM SO HAPPY TOMORROW THERES TRNING!

but nowim trying to o geog.
havent started
talk so much
grrr....
i want to sleep!
was falling asleeep on the bus.

i need to watch sound of music and da chang jin.
but got no time.

and some ppl are plain irritaing.
because i dont see any logic in their ways.
maybe they are really illogical or im just irritable.
i think its the latter.


i was rather lame today.

trning was tiring.
but coach serene trained us so it was goooood!
i love coach!
wheeeeeeeee.

but i cant do volley drops
and my boasts deprove like siao.
gosh.
now i cant do anything but serve, drive straight and cross court
which isnt much at all.

the sec ones and germaine are so catching up very quickly, its scary.

and i havent started geog yet

and i cant stand the fact that some ppl are irritating.
and i think i dont like to talk to ppl in a bad mood.
so i think i know how ppl feel when im always pissed XD

so i shall try to be cheery

and i failed math.
i dont even know im sad anot.
i dont think so.
im just at a loss.
so despairing.


and do you know jay chou and wilber pan sing the ye ren zhi ai is super nice!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
swoons


oh and i like the colours of the visual in my new blogskin!
the effect is so nice and rainbowy.

i think there isno point in loving with no love in the world.
its likeu wont even love urself, so everyone will jut go commit suicide.
which is worse than global warming.
and imagine without love,
you go school everyday plotting to kill ur teacher or classmate.
hahaha.


and EDIT:
whatever i said here
IS NOT ABOUT JOCELYNE

its up to you to believe it.
and you'll be certaintly happier if u believe me.
YES indeed.

and anyway
whoever i was saying about.
hey there, im no longer pissed XD
really.
just rather irritable that day.

so anyone who saw that just pretend u dint see anything.

i shall take it off to prevent further misunderstandings.

and jocelyne u dint know my format of writing horh.
i bitch about ppl
is like.
every line is different ppl,
"you" means alot of different ppl.
DONT BELIEVE ASK.....EILEEN!
haha.
really it isnt about you!

kuo jian hua is soooo coooooooooool!
and i think listening to songs i listened in primary school is very sweeeet.
yep.
i still listen to the same old songs.
memories last in songs.

i like ren4 wo3 ao3 you3 the theme song sung by toro!!!!


its been months since i listened to any music.
now that i do, i love it!
yay!
i feeeel sing songy


and i think i like truths.
even though they hurt,
its better than guessing and worrying so much.

now i know how you feel, i wont ever be so mean again.
i never knew we all felt the same way.
sorry.

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for goodness sake.
will you just leave me alone and stop stressing me out.
gosh.

i havent done philo.
i dont want to do!
and i just realised its impt!

jfnwhnciuncoi
shit.
yep after abstaining from this vulgarity i cant help but say it again.
i am frustrated and pissed.

and why kdnincwudbncubu the shit wijcnucwi do i have to find my own trouble and offer to help others when i dont even have time to help myself.

shoosh.
not that i mind helping but it just makes things more complicated.


going out with simin and jessie was fun
brought back the memories.
shall elaborate next post or smth
gotta do geog research,
philo journal,study chinese,do maths?


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gosh gosh gosh.
im am freaking annoyed.

and some people just make things worse.
stupid hypocritical selfish greedy fjgnvuw3vnwoun freak.

pffffffft.


school was fun today.
till philo spoiled everything.

einstein is a genius!

"The fear of death is the most unjustified of all fears, for there's no risk of accident for someone who's dead."

precisely.
i shall try to be less kiasi cos its jus a matter of time before we all die.
actually,i think whats scary is suffering pain and agony,and not death.
sometimes,death can be a blessing.
yay!

"The most beautiful thing we can experience is the mysterious. It is the source of all true art and all science. He to whom this emotion is a stranger, who can no longer pause to wonder and stand rapt in awe, is as good as dead: his eyes are closed."

yep.
i guess this is rather true...
but dont really understand it totally.
but his words sound so beautiful!

"You see, wire telegraph is a kind of a very, very long cat. You pull his tail in New York and his head is meowing in Los Angeles. Do you understand this? And radio operates exactly the same way: you send signals here, they receive them there. The only difference is that there is no cat."

waahaha.
he sure has a great way to explain stuff.
einstein shall be my IDOL!
he is genius in spiritually,scientifically,and blah blah.

"Not everything that counts can be counted, and not everything that can be counted counts."

this is called word play!
seeeeeee.ancient times also got so cheem language techniques!

"Gravitation is not responsible for people falling in love."

HAHAHA.
this is so cooooool.
word play again!

"Reality is merely an illusion, albeit a very persistent one."

yah yah.
reality is such an irritating pest.
a stubborn mule that rams its head constantly into the door.

"The only real valuable thing is intuition."

wooooh.
i guess we all have to do stuff with our hearts not our heads?
maybe this technique is outdated...
if everyone uses heart not head,
heh heh
everyone is irrational.

"A person starts to live when he can live outside himself."

i guess this is the same as like....
there is no fear for anything but fear itself?
like,we are the ban4 jiao3 shi2 in our on way.
like we have nothing to overcome but ourselves.
YES!

"I never think of the future. It comes soon enough."

time flieeeeeeeeees.
indeed.
PRECISELY.
so dont need to plan so far into the future what....
i guess like the day before i graduate then i shld start thinking of an ambition then.
that is if i even graduate....

"Science without religion is lame. Religion without science is blind."

HAH.
this certaintly sounds like some da vinci code thingy
hehe.
seeeeeeee.conflict management!
must come to a compromise then both parties will be happy.
to think that einstein had such grrreat foresight!
hah.
and this applies to all religions i guess?

"Anyone who has never made a mistake has never tried anything new."

OH WOW.
no wonder nobody's perfect!
gosh.
that means someone who is "perfect" is actually the least perfect of all!
HAH
i realised that last time but just dint know how to phrase it.
this totally explains my dislike for ___!
ok.fine i dont dislike her,just cant stand her "perfectness"

"Common sense is the collection of prejudices acquired by age eighteen."

hahaha.
wow.
common sense is really common.
but might not necessary be factual.
its just basically literally common in simple terms XD

"Peace cannot be kept by force. It can only be achieved by understanding."

seeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
if everyone was understanding there will be WORLD PEACE.
i think i want to be a humanitarian next time!
and anyway.
this probabl explains why my world peace theory works.
cos i understand why others do things they do cos its their nature etc,
and so there is peace between us!
even if my understanding is warped,its still a form of understanding!
so yay to world peace!

and goodness gracious me.
i hope that there really is peace between me and everyone.
though i bet someone out there hates me like shit.
oh noooooooo.



"The most incomprehensible thing about the world is that it is comprehensible."

yep.
sometimes we just think so much.
why think about something u understand already?
i guess its called tentative or something.
trying to think more about it to discover smth new?



einstein is coool!