omg.
i HATE her.
really really really really really hate her.
want to whack her face lah.
vain bimbo
zi lian!
ugly fat freak.
and we must win!
yes we can do it!
try our best...
and even if we lose.
we have years ahead.
but still.
thats really far away
and anyway.
we wont lose our teamspirit
even if the reality is that we lost
and i really think i dont mind playing squash my whole life!
but i guess im not good enough to be professional.
and im not sure if i can sacrifice and have triangular legs.
haha
i think i can!
wheee.
go ppl!
we can do it!
Sunday, March 26, 2006
Saturday, March 25, 2006
our teamspirit is not superficial and i do love the rgsquashers
and the seniors are really nice
and im ashamed to say i dont noe the juniors names.
then again.
we werent introduced.
and i think we have really bonded thru the mgs match.
yayy
and i think the seniors are really nice.
and its very sad reading their blogs.
and i think i noe whats true team spirit now.
but so much for team spirit
it just wouldnt change the fact that i lost.
that i pulled the whole team down.
hmmm.
and dont tell me no one blames me cos we are a team.
its just the big fact there that i did not play properly and lost
so theres no need for self delusion.
and i dont think i did freak out.
i dint freak out enough
so i stoned
yes i did
in my first official match ever
i wonder how i could not prepare myself for such an impt match
or maybe i had too much mental preparation
cos i was just feeling numb thruout the match
like i lose 1 set, come out
oh i lost one set
then go in.
get thrashed.
still stone
come out.
still never wake up
third set
lose
again
just like realised i had lost.
and then.
after we confirmed lost le.
and coach was talking to us.
it FINALLY hit me that i had lost
lost becos there was a freaking problem with me.
becos i wasnt freaked enuf
becos i was just stupidly stoning
cos i wasnt putting in my best
and i was seriously going to cry lah.
cos i realised that i freaking caused the team to lose.
but of course i dint
cos i HAD to maintain my image.
and cos i HAD to be strong.
but i dont noe why i just broke down when coach just stared at me.
i guess its just really hit me that i had let down so many ppl.
most imptly, myself
i was not responsible at all.
and i trained so hard.
put in so much time i sacrifice shopping, mugging, slacking.
and i trained.
just to lose.
to lose my first ever match
just to not play my best and lose for no reason
and i just cant believe it.
its seems so real.
and it is.
i dint expect it to be so real.
and its my freaking fault for not being prepared.
and i just have to account for it i guess
and i guess its nice to noe ppl care.
but the so many "no one blames you" is just deluding myself
and i appreciate it.
but even if u ppl dont blame me.
i have myself to blame
and i dint want to go for dinner was not only cos i dint bring my tuition stuff
but also cos i dint want to go home crying.
my eyes were freaking red and swollen
and i was not going to let them see i cried.
nope.
they never did and never will.
i guess i have never cried in front of anybody before.
and anyway
not like they freaking care
she doesnt even noe my comps are on.
she doesnt noe i lost
but i guess its cos i dint tell her.
so much for being strong and holding back the tears.
as eileen said.
wo zhuo kan you kan dou bu xiang shi yi ge jui ku de ren
i guess its the habit, the responsibility of being strong.
of holding back the tears.
and i think jodee and jacq are so cool
eileen's lob serves too.
and mabel's volleys
too
i love u peeps.
all rgsquashers.
and im really sorry for just dashing our hopes.
wasting ur hard work
DONT tell me about the process not the outcome thing
cos my match hads no process at all
i just went in, stoned and got thrashed
blegh
im sorry im hypocritical
im sorry for lying
but i just want to make u happy.
cos i feel really sad to see how bad u feel.
and even though what i said was to optimistic to be true.
just believe it
and somehow
i think i am so unfortunate and stressed
but i noe im not the only one.
im ashamed of wallowing in self pity.
when my problems are just so pathetic.
and i think im scared of everything
im scared of everyone
everything
myself
life
...
im scared i will make u angry
scared i will disappoint you
scared to talk to you
scared you would think im siao
scared u hate me
scared to hurt ur feelings
scared to tell u the truth
scared to see u cry
scared to wonder what u are thinking
scared i will cry
scared i will die
scared i will do stupid things and embarrass myself
scared i will let my secrets be found out
scared to let u noe how i feel
scared to let you noe how deep u hurt me
scared to let u noe how much im jealous of you
im scared of reality
how real it is.
and now im back to reality.
all i can do is cry and pick myself up from here
and hope for the best
im sorry.but i noe no matter how many times i apologise.its just like no use.like putting a dead fish in a fish tank waiting to see it swim.but i noe i cant change the facts.i dashed our dreams.our chance.our passion.our hopes.
and the seniors are really nice
and im ashamed to say i dont noe the juniors names.
then again.
we werent introduced.
and i think we have really bonded thru the mgs match.
yayy
and i think the seniors are really nice.
and its very sad reading their blogs.
and i think i noe whats true team spirit now.
but so much for team spirit
it just wouldnt change the fact that i lost.
that i pulled the whole team down.
hmmm.
and dont tell me no one blames me cos we are a team.
its just the big fact there that i did not play properly and lost
so theres no need for self delusion.
and i dont think i did freak out.
i dint freak out enough
so i stoned
yes i did
in my first official match ever
i wonder how i could not prepare myself for such an impt match
or maybe i had too much mental preparation
cos i was just feeling numb thruout the match
like i lose 1 set, come out
oh i lost one set
then go in.
get thrashed.
still stone
come out.
still never wake up
third set
lose
again
just like realised i had lost.
and then.
after we confirmed lost le.
and coach was talking to us.
it FINALLY hit me that i had lost
lost becos there was a freaking problem with me.
becos i wasnt freaked enuf
becos i was just stupidly stoning
cos i wasnt putting in my best
and i was seriously going to cry lah.
cos i realised that i freaking caused the team to lose.
but of course i dint
cos i HAD to maintain my image.
and cos i HAD to be strong.
but i dont noe why i just broke down when coach just stared at me.
i guess its just really hit me that i had let down so many ppl.
most imptly, myself
i was not responsible at all.
and i trained so hard.
put in so much time i sacrifice shopping, mugging, slacking.
and i trained.
just to lose.
to lose my first ever match
just to not play my best and lose for no reason
and i just cant believe it.
its seems so real.
and it is.
i dint expect it to be so real.
and its my freaking fault for not being prepared.
and i just have to account for it i guess
and i guess its nice to noe ppl care.
but the so many "no one blames you" is just deluding myself
and i appreciate it.
but even if u ppl dont blame me.
i have myself to blame
and i dint want to go for dinner was not only cos i dint bring my tuition stuff
but also cos i dint want to go home crying.
my eyes were freaking red and swollen
and i was not going to let them see i cried.
nope.
they never did and never will.
i guess i have never cried in front of anybody before.
and anyway
not like they freaking care
she doesnt even noe my comps are on.
she doesnt noe i lost
but i guess its cos i dint tell her.
so much for being strong and holding back the tears.
as eileen said.
wo zhuo kan you kan dou bu xiang shi yi ge jui ku de ren
i guess its the habit, the responsibility of being strong.
of holding back the tears.
and i think jodee and jacq are so cool
eileen's lob serves too.
and mabel's volleys
too
i love u peeps.
all rgsquashers.
and im really sorry for just dashing our hopes.
wasting ur hard work
DONT tell me about the process not the outcome thing
cos my match hads no process at all
i just went in, stoned and got thrashed
blegh
im sorry im hypocritical
im sorry for lying
but i just want to make u happy.
cos i feel really sad to see how bad u feel.
and even though what i said was to optimistic to be true.
just believe it
and somehow
i think i am so unfortunate and stressed
but i noe im not the only one.
im ashamed of wallowing in self pity.
when my problems are just so pathetic.
and i think im scared of everything
im scared of everyone
everything
myself
life
...
im scared i will make u angry
scared i will disappoint you
scared to talk to you
scared you would think im siao
scared u hate me
scared to hurt ur feelings
scared to tell u the truth
scared to see u cry
scared to wonder what u are thinking
scared i will cry
scared i will die
scared i will do stupid things and embarrass myself
scared i will let my secrets be found out
scared to let u noe how i feel
scared to let you noe how deep u hurt me
scared to let u noe how much im jealous of you
im scared of reality
how real it is.
and now im back to reality.
all i can do is cry and pick myself up from here
and hope for the best
im sorry.but i noe no matter how many times i apologise.its just like no use.like putting a dead fish in a fish tank waiting to see it swim.but i noe i cant change the facts.i dashed our dreams.our chance.our passion.our hopes.
Thursday, March 23, 2006
gosh
wheeee.
i love the battle tour trip!
i love kranji cemetery!
and the battlebox was absolutely cool!
wde was boring....
food was good.
cept for the freaking main course.
the chicken was the worst thing i ever ate.
it was cold.
tated and smelt frozen.
was unfresh.
stinked badly.
tasted worst than shit.
had eeeeeky fats on the slimy disgusting fatty skin.
dressed with cheapskate ketchuppy sauce.
blegh.almost puked
canopy walk was ok only lah
quite boring.
the plants my house also have...cept for those weird shaped ugly trees....
but some plants were cool.
the canopy walk was ok.
not scary at all.
i was only scared...VERY when jocelyne leaned over the railings with MY camera to take pictures for me.
freaking scared it would drop....
eeeeeeee
jane was scared of heights.
haha
and the bridge was shaking....vibrating i mean...
haha
and the view was okay.
beyond the trees can see the reservoir.
haha.
it was shrouded in mist
so it kinda looked like in movies that kinda
PARADISE
wheeee
im crapping
what photo jpournal are we supposed to do!?!?!?!
anyway.
i have realised that my bread cannot...totally cannot possibly grow mould within 3 days.
sheesh
im gonna fail that science pt
fake the results i also dunno how to fake.
blegh.
AND
i dint get bitten by mosquitoes though i wore culottes!
HAH jocelyne!
and i dint put insect repellent either!!!
wheeee.
we waited an hr for the freaking tour guide.
blegh
whats with freaking and me....
tmr is the comps against mgs le!!!
ahhhhh...
and i freaking cant do forehand drives as well as before.
and cant freaking serve hard.
my arm very pain from practising hard serves....
and i MUST run to the T....
blah.
but i just cant....
hope i will win.
and hope im in top form tmr.
shall be optimistic....
GO RGSQUASH C'DIV!!!!!!!
we can do it!
we must do it!
we will do it!
teamspirit feels good.
though jacq refuses to change her display pic....
haha
and we have got cool teamshorts and shirts!!!!!
(that cost a bomb)
haha
my science experiment is so dead.
blah.
i love the battle tour trip!
i love kranji cemetery!
and the battlebox was absolutely cool!
wde was boring....
food was good.
cept for the freaking main course.
the chicken was the worst thing i ever ate.
it was cold.
tated and smelt frozen.
was unfresh.
stinked badly.
tasted worst than shit.
had eeeeeky fats on the slimy disgusting fatty skin.
dressed with cheapskate ketchuppy sauce.
blegh.almost puked
canopy walk was ok only lah
quite boring.
the plants my house also have...cept for those weird shaped ugly trees....
but some plants were cool.
the canopy walk was ok.
not scary at all.
i was only scared...VERY when jocelyne leaned over the railings with MY camera to take pictures for me.
freaking scared it would drop....
eeeeeeee
jane was scared of heights.
haha
and the bridge was shaking....vibrating i mean...
haha
and the view was okay.
beyond the trees can see the reservoir.
haha.
it was shrouded in mist
so it kinda looked like in movies that kinda
PARADISE
wheeee
im crapping
what photo jpournal are we supposed to do!?!?!?!
anyway.
i have realised that my bread cannot...totally cannot possibly grow mould within 3 days.
sheesh
im gonna fail that science pt
fake the results i also dunno how to fake.
blegh.
AND
i dint get bitten by mosquitoes though i wore culottes!
HAH jocelyne!
and i dint put insect repellent either!!!
wheeee.
we waited an hr for the freaking tour guide.
blegh
whats with freaking and me....
tmr is the comps against mgs le!!!
ahhhhh...
and i freaking cant do forehand drives as well as before.
and cant freaking serve hard.
my arm very pain from practising hard serves....
and i MUST run to the T....
blah.
but i just cant....
hope i will win.
and hope im in top form tmr.
shall be optimistic....
GO RGSQUASH C'DIV!!!!!!!
we can do it!
we must do it!
we will do it!
teamspirit feels good.
though jacq refuses to change her display pic....
haha
and we have got cool teamshorts and shirts!!!!!
(that cost a bomb)
haha
my science experiment is so dead.
blah.
Sunday, March 19, 2006
seriously...
my less than half a year old racquet has cracked.
thanks to my violent outbursts of frustration.
ohwell.
if it just breaks halfway during competition, im going to die.
i will.
i will just lose.
and what if im playing he deciding match.
sheesh.
ahhh.
WE MUST BEAT MGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hmmm.
blogging is getting boring.
and i have not started my sc pt AT ALL.
and everyday i just slack.
nope.
this whole week played squash EVERY SINGLE DAY.
bleh.
tmr going raffles place ealy really early in the mrning.
to do the english/lit thingy.
seriously.
how poetic can one get.
writing in such an uninspirational place....
pissed on friday.
and so much for it supposing to be a good day.
i really really hate you.
but then again
what can i do.
and actually,
putting myself in your,
u dint do anything wrong.
im just reading too deep into things
or is ur biasness just that obvious.
hmph.
and ur stupid fat friend's needs are more impt than mine...
bleh.
but at least for once i dint feel like sleeping during tuition.
guess i was too angry
or
i was just engrossed in smsing...
haha.
ohwells.
sometimes i noe how its like.
but cant u freaking put yourself in my shoes.
i do try u noe.
i try to be who i should be.
who u want me to be.
try to be perfect.
try to make everybody happy.
but i guess i just cant be who u want me to be.
im just not perfect enough for u.
and u are freaking unreasonable.
and now i know what it feels like.
why drug addicts take drugs.
why smokers smoke.
why people commit suicide.
why people go missing.
why people want to make the news.
hmmm.
sometimes i feel like even i disappear.
you wouldnt notice.
u will still be sleeping like a pig
as usual
and u dont understand me at all.
u arnt even sure of what i like.
u arnt sure of what i need
what i want
what i feel
what im going thru
sometimes i wish i could choose my ideal mother
seriously
aside from providing the basic neccessities
u havent exactly aided me in life
barely.
you dont care if i come home late and look tired and angry.
you still dont do anything
yet when she isnt sick and just looks tired.
you go thru all that trouble to boil something for her.
hmph.
and talk about tired.
i come home after more than 12 hrs out.
im tired.
you go out 3 hrs.
tired like a pig.
and u expect me to understand you when u dont even understand me.
you expect me to respect you when u dont deserve any.
you dont set a good example.
you are a hypocrite.
and yet you criticise me.
you think you are giving me my own space.
but in fact you just dont care about me.
i wished i could choose my own mother.
sometimes i hate you.
but sometimes i guess i know how it feels for you to be burdened with such a big problem.
i shall not be melancholic.
whats with everybody.
or rather whats with me.
i shall stop wasting time
and i realised that when im not busy.
i will just think too much.
i will just wallow in self pity.
i will just make the next day worse than ever.
so i shall immerse myself in whatever senseless random stuff.
escaping from reality is nice'
nicer than a holiday.
yayy.
sometimes i just wish that there will be tours to heaven instead of to mars or what ever alienated place
like freakin moon.
bleh.
anyway
went to support coach yesterday
and i hereby conclude that mr lee is super nice'
we shld get him something to thank him
and we were late for trning again
and coach was really cool
though she lost'
she was surprisingly happy.
and hoppity
so cute
and my stupid squash ball burst halfway while i was at csc just now.
so i trained only half hr
oooh.
saturday was maluating
mabel REALLY carryoing her pomspoms.
and three of us getting onto a taxi and then getting out within 1 min.
and the taxi driver was bewildered and pissed.
haha
friday we shall all jiayou!!!!!!!!!!
but my canopy walk is before our match
and its very rush
and i will walk like siao.
so will be too tired to play.
HOW????
but i cant be bothered to swap/
but what if it makes me lose
surprisingly.
im not as nervous as when we had the trials
bleh
thats really bad
someone motivate me!
i have lost all self motivaion.
bleh.
my motal is really cute
she told me retardedly that a vein on her feet was popping out and she was turning into a fish
just like the lizard incident
haha
and i think she shld go watch the matches
why arnt the sec1s enthu?
last thime we so enthu lorh
and its a good experience
and get to cheer lots!
anyway
what am i thinking
see us play can learn what....
i hate life.
thanks to my violent outbursts of frustration.
ohwell.
if it just breaks halfway during competition, im going to die.
i will.
i will just lose.
and what if im playing he deciding match.
sheesh.
ahhh.
WE MUST BEAT MGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hmmm.
blogging is getting boring.
and i have not started my sc pt AT ALL.
and everyday i just slack.
nope.
this whole week played squash EVERY SINGLE DAY.
bleh.
tmr going raffles place ealy really early in the mrning.
to do the english/lit thingy.
seriously.
how poetic can one get.
writing in such an uninspirational place....
pissed on friday.
and so much for it supposing to be a good day.
i really really hate you.
but then again
what can i do.
and actually,
putting myself in your,
u dint do anything wrong.
im just reading too deep into things
or is ur biasness just that obvious.
hmph.
and ur stupid fat friend's needs are more impt than mine...
bleh.
but at least for once i dint feel like sleeping during tuition.
guess i was too angry
or
i was just engrossed in smsing...
haha.
ohwells.
sometimes i noe how its like.
but cant u freaking put yourself in my shoes.
i do try u noe.
i try to be who i should be.
who u want me to be.
try to be perfect.
try to make everybody happy.
but i guess i just cant be who u want me to be.
im just not perfect enough for u.
and u are freaking unreasonable.
and now i know what it feels like.
why drug addicts take drugs.
why smokers smoke.
why people commit suicide.
why people go missing.
why people want to make the news.
hmmm.
sometimes i feel like even i disappear.
you wouldnt notice.
u will still be sleeping like a pig
as usual
and u dont understand me at all.
u arnt even sure of what i like.
u arnt sure of what i need
what i want
what i feel
what im going thru
sometimes i wish i could choose my ideal mother
seriously
aside from providing the basic neccessities
u havent exactly aided me in life
barely.
you dont care if i come home late and look tired and angry.
you still dont do anything
yet when she isnt sick and just looks tired.
you go thru all that trouble to boil something for her.
hmph.
and talk about tired.
i come home after more than 12 hrs out.
im tired.
you go out 3 hrs.
tired like a pig.
and u expect me to understand you when u dont even understand me.
you expect me to respect you when u dont deserve any.
you dont set a good example.
you are a hypocrite.
and yet you criticise me.
you think you are giving me my own space.
but in fact you just dont care about me.
i wished i could choose my own mother.
sometimes i hate you.
but sometimes i guess i know how it feels for you to be burdened with such a big problem.
i shall not be melancholic.
whats with everybody.
or rather whats with me.
i shall stop wasting time
and i realised that when im not busy.
i will just think too much.
i will just wallow in self pity.
i will just make the next day worse than ever.
so i shall immerse myself in whatever senseless random stuff.
escaping from reality is nice'
nicer than a holiday.
yayy.
sometimes i just wish that there will be tours to heaven instead of to mars or what ever alienated place
like freakin moon.
bleh.
anyway
went to support coach yesterday
and i hereby conclude that mr lee is super nice'
we shld get him something to thank him
and we were late for trning again
and coach was really cool
though she lost'
she was surprisingly happy.
and hoppity
so cute
and my stupid squash ball burst halfway while i was at csc just now.
so i trained only half hr
oooh.
saturday was maluating
mabel REALLY carryoing her pomspoms.
and three of us getting onto a taxi and then getting out within 1 min.
and the taxi driver was bewildered and pissed.
haha
friday we shall all jiayou!!!!!!!!!!
but my canopy walk is before our match
and its very rush
and i will walk like siao.
so will be too tired to play.
HOW????
but i cant be bothered to swap/
but what if it makes me lose
surprisingly.
im not as nervous as when we had the trials
bleh
thats really bad
someone motivate me!
i have lost all self motivaion.
bleh.
my motal is really cute
she told me retardedly that a vein on her feet was popping out and she was turning into a fish
just like the lizard incident
haha
and i think she shld go watch the matches
why arnt the sec1s enthu?
last thime we so enthu lorh
and its a good experience
and get to cheer lots!
anyway
what am i thinking
see us play can learn what....
i hate life.
Thursday, March 16, 2006
omg.
these is so cool
http://img94.exs.cx/img94/405/songofpig7gr.swf
http://www.albinoblacksheep.com/flash/hampster
so cute!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
these is so cool
http://img94.exs.cx/img94/405/songofpig7gr.swf
http://www.albinoblacksheep.com/flash/hampster
so cute!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wednesday, March 15, 2006
Tuesday, March 14, 2006
i cant stand my eldest sister.
she is so drama.
was telling me bout her st john days....
then added this overly drama part which made her sound like the hero.
and i said nthat she was lying.
hah.
and she was like: aiyah.make it more interesting mah....
whatever
then she always does bad things and thats why think i will take revenge.
so everything missing also accuse me.
and she insists her water got an ant.
so my maid says pour into her cup.
and she was going to till i stopped her.
no brains larh.
got ants so she dont want
then somemore want to give the ants to my maid to drink.
brainless inconsiderate freak
and also.
that time.
kayaking course.
her fren leg cramp in the sea....
and she just left her fren alone to call for help....
dumb leh.
call for help also cant live her distressed fren alone right.....
what if she cant stay afloat anymore....
nvm.
then shes so cowardly.
and somemore.
she was chatting with her junior on the 2nd last day of the course
then the junior said tmr last day got test....
then she was like
huh.got test one ahh
dumb lah
take course obviously must pass a test right.
and if her junior dint tell her.
she wouldnt noe at all.
but anyway i think she failed in the end.
cos she dint noe how to bandage her juniors "injured" arm.
in the end
her junior had to give my sis instructions on how to tie larh
but she duh failed cos she had to be prompted by a junior.....
blegh.
but isnt that so blur and cute too.
but in conlcusion
i think my sister is childish.
inconsiderate.
vengeful.
blur.
lazy.
dumb.
drama.
and basically
her moral values seem jumbled....
and i think i give up on her.
sigh.
she is so drama.
was telling me bout her st john days....
then added this overly drama part which made her sound like the hero.
and i said nthat she was lying.
hah.
and she was like: aiyah.make it more interesting mah....
whatever
then she always does bad things and thats why think i will take revenge.
so everything missing also accuse me.
and she insists her water got an ant.
so my maid says pour into her cup.
and she was going to till i stopped her.
no brains larh.
got ants so she dont want
then somemore want to give the ants to my maid to drink.
brainless inconsiderate freak
and also.
that time.
kayaking course.
her fren leg cramp in the sea....
and she just left her fren alone to call for help....
dumb leh.
call for help also cant live her distressed fren alone right.....
what if she cant stay afloat anymore....
nvm.
then shes so cowardly.
and somemore.
she was chatting with her junior on the 2nd last day of the course
then the junior said tmr last day got test....
then she was like
huh.got test one ahh
dumb lah
take course obviously must pass a test right.
and if her junior dint tell her.
she wouldnt noe at all.
but anyway i think she failed in the end.
cos she dint noe how to bandage her juniors "injured" arm.
in the end
her junior had to give my sis instructions on how to tie larh
but she duh failed cos she had to be prompted by a junior.....
blegh.
but isnt that so blur and cute too.
but in conlcusion
i think my sister is childish.
inconsiderate.
vengeful.
blur.
lazy.
dumb.
drama.
and basically
her moral values seem jumbled....
and i think i give up on her.
sigh.
rotting away
cant things be just like it was.....
why must things change.
i guess thats just called the impermanence of things.
that i might just die anytime.
that i might just pass my math.
that i might just make everybody hate me.
hmmm.
i guess humans are humans and not immortals cos they suffer.
and why do they suffer?
hmmm.
its cos of the three roots of evils: greed, jealousy, WHAT????(forgot le)
anyway.
i guess
im stressed over tiny things
like whether i might be 10mins late for trning.
or im just being jealous of ___. jealous that she has nicer everything.
nicer hair.
nicer stuff.
nicer grades.
nicer eyes.
nicer nose.
or jealous of my sis that she is a nicer peson.
she gets to go italy
she has nicer clothes
she is more popular at home and at school
that my parents like her more than they like me
and i want this and i want that.
and im always thinking about that nice this, that nice that ....
im being greedy.
greedy for material goods.
for physical appearances
so you might have noticed my wishlist is gone.
i am not going to be greedy and jealous of others.
i shall try
yes i shall.
i shall try to be optimistic and enjoy life while i can.
i might always die suddenly from ....erm.some mysterious virus?
or bird flu?
wow.
how optimistic.
ok.
i should always be happy cos nobody's making life miserable but myself.
i should be happy cos i should be considerate towards others
i should be happy cos theres nothing to be sad about.
i should be happy cos there's a rainbow behing the black cloud.
(how cliched...)
i should be happy im more fortunate than others.
that im alive and healthy
i guess monologuing makes me feel better.
sorts my thoughts.
makes me reflect.
theres so much to live for.
i am smiling at the end of this post cos i am glad i feel happy.
and i am happy cos i am being optimistic!!!!!!!!!
and i shall try to live life to the fullest!!!!!
blegh.
seems so amazing.
now i just see the reality.
the problems staring at me again.
the problems that cant be solved by trying to be optimistic.
i guess the purpose of this post has not been achieved.
cos right now i feel like dying.
cos i am STARING at my science pt.
grrr.
if only we could live as happily as ever.
if only our squad did not have to drift apart.
if only we dint have to grow up.
if only we were forever p6.
if only i could write out my own life.
just like a script.
yes.
just like a script.......
(hah.how drama.and cliched...just for the extra touch!waahaha)
why must things change.
i guess thats just called the impermanence of things.
that i might just die anytime.
that i might just pass my math.
that i might just make everybody hate me.
hmmm.
i guess humans are humans and not immortals cos they suffer.
and why do they suffer?
hmmm.
its cos of the three roots of evils: greed, jealousy, WHAT????(forgot le)
anyway.
i guess
im stressed over tiny things
like whether i might be 10mins late for trning.
or im just being jealous of ___. jealous that she has nicer everything.
nicer hair.
nicer stuff.
nicer grades.
nicer eyes.
nicer nose.
or jealous of my sis that she is a nicer peson.
she gets to go italy
she has nicer clothes
she is more popular at home and at school
that my parents like her more than they like me
and i want this and i want that.
and im always thinking about that nice this, that nice that ....
im being greedy.
greedy for material goods.
for physical appearances
so you might have noticed my wishlist is gone.
i am not going to be greedy and jealous of others.
i shall try
yes i shall.
i shall try to be optimistic and enjoy life while i can.
i might always die suddenly from ....erm.some mysterious virus?
or bird flu?
wow.
how optimistic.
ok.
i should always be happy cos nobody's making life miserable but myself.
i should be happy cos i should be considerate towards others
i should be happy cos theres nothing to be sad about.
i should be happy cos there's a rainbow behing the black cloud.
(how cliched...)
i should be happy im more fortunate than others.
that im alive and healthy
i guess monologuing makes me feel better.
sorts my thoughts.
makes me reflect.
theres so much to live for.
i am smiling at the end of this post cos i am glad i feel happy.
and i am happy cos i am being optimistic!!!!!!!!!
and i shall try to live life to the fullest!!!!!
blegh.
seems so amazing.
now i just see the reality.
the problems staring at me again.
the problems that cant be solved by trying to be optimistic.
i guess the purpose of this post has not been achieved.
cos right now i feel like dying.
cos i am STARING at my science pt.
grrr.
if only we could live as happily as ever.
if only our squad did not have to drift apart.
if only we dint have to grow up.
if only we were forever p6.
if only i could write out my own life.
just like a script.
yes.
just like a script.......
(hah.how drama.and cliched...just for the extra touch!waahaha)
and i waited
i waited.
and i dont know what i am waited for...
what is it.
why am i waiting.....
and i refuse to believe the only possible reason im waiting.
cos i know its not true.
or am i just ecsaping from reality?????
forget the self reflection part.
hmmm.
had a nice talk with dearest veron!
yesterday
then met jodee and eileen at heeren.
HAH
jodee immediately boasted about buying a nicer addidas shorts.
which she promised to wear today.
and as i was saying how i refused to see it....
haha.
walking down the escalator.
then suddenly realised i was on the wrong direction of the escalator
haha.
so dumb
and i was laughing like siao
everyone was staring.
haha
sometimes im just plain dumb.
fine...maybe always.
anyway.
talking about dumb...
i bought the 10 packet thingy of mamee.
then eat one,
realised no seasoning thingy inside.so bland
so i check the packet.
saw"ready to eat"
so i thought they decided to cut down on msg,
put for us so little seasoning....
eat the last packet.
then realised there was SOOOOOOOOOOO many packets of seasoning at the bottom of the whole big packet.
hmph.
dumb larh
so the seasoning has been wasted.
its rotting at home right now.
anyway
took neoprints with veron.
though they dint turn out very nice and was kinda ex....
and was a traunatic experience....
ohwell.
nice souvenier i guess.
and on the log book outside the neoprint shop....
so sick.
got one picture of this guy and girl french kissing.
and they publicise it like that.
blegh.
oh well.
as jodee said.
i guess i AM closed minded....
anyway.
we dint see the machine say dont insert coins.
but i inserted 10 coins.
hmph.
then suddenly this woman appeared and scolded us.
then we said we put already.
dint noe cannot put....
and that mean old 20+ auntie said: too bad lorh.cant print out no refund.
and while scolding, she wasted 2 of our pictures.....
so throughout the whole thingy.
we were chao scared our 10 dollars would be wasted.
my plams were sweating larh.
cos that was the remaining 5dollars out of the 10 dollars left in my pocket.
BUT IT DID COME OUT
and we purposely went admiring our neos in front of her.
HAHA
yes.
i spent nearly-fifty dollars yesterday
sheesh
im broke le larh
$12 for squash tee
$10 top up ezlink
$7 pastamania
$1 can drink
$1 ice lemon tea
$12 for huiqi's present and some useless cute toy i bought for fun
$5 for neos(which did come out!)
$2 on beard papa cream puff (cos i was full but greedy)
anyway
my mortal's so cute.
she just reported to me today bout how her freaky lights at home exploded and she got cut by the glass.....
hah.
and last time told me how she playing with her pilot pen till she poked her face and bled...
haha.
so cute right.
HAH!!!!!!!!!!
and she's a squasher too!!!!!!!!!
today had training at kallang.
1-3pm
but played till 4pm.
hah.
coach brought tjc guys to spar with us.
lost my first match with this irritating guy.
ha.
at least i won first set.
but thats cos he gave in.
he thought sure win cos I'M THIRTEEN and he's SEVENTEEN
haha.
whatever.
so after i won.
he bully me lorh!!!!!!!!!!
waaaaaa.
he started smacking the ball like super duper hard.
shivers.
but still not as hard as dearest mabel.
oh well.
but im pissed
i wasnt playing properly larh
just stood at the back and dint run cos coach was outside.
hmmm.
realised i do get stage fright.
still traumatised by last year's english oral and chinese too.
in front of whole class somemore...
and speech and drama assesment too.
and it was just in front of like....20 ppl??????
blegh.
oh well.
how random.
im guilty.
yes again.
for finding dearest____ irritating.
exactly.
for no reason.
sometimes i just find fault with everybody cept myself.
and im guilty cos when my sis left for italy,
i dint say bye.
and actually dint care
till next mrning i on my phone.
realised she had even bothered to sms me before her plane took off...
she said bye and asked if i wanted chocolates.
GRRRR....
i hate regretting my actions.
i cant stand being and irritating mean hypocrite.
blegh.
anyway.
the next guy i played with was apparently nicknamed pineapple tart by coach....
and i won him.
YAYY
his stroke abit weird.
but he hit very hard
and the meano fren of his was like.
aiyah u sure lose one larh
so mean to his own teammate....
anyway.
accepted the meano guy's offer to play a match
cos mabel lost badly to him.
and i wanted to challenge myself!!!
hah.
was quite fun
anyway
apparently nobody wanted to play with him cos coach said he stank.
(oh wells.he changed his shirt in the end)
and he's the shortest.
seventeen and shorter than me.
hahaha
anyway.
was ok challenging.
apparently coach said he was best cos he played for many years.
and then suddenly i realised i was going to miss the shot.
screamed like siao.
super high pitched.
and mabel and jodee screamed at the same time.
cos very jing zhang.
haha
inthe end
i dint miss.
but cos he got a shock
he dropped his racquet to cover his ears from 3 girl's screams....
haha
so he missed and i won that rally.
we played one set only.
cos the lights off le.
anyway was a close match.
after that.
i was laughing like siao.
then kept missing.
until 8-8
haha
suddenly i screamed again but apparently it worked no more....
hmph.
lost 10-8.
haha
but was fun
and when mabel played with him.
she was cursing....
and me and eileen laughing like siao.
cos the guy was like.
relax larh.....
haha....how "gentlemanly"
anyway.
we were like asking mabel to start crying so he wud let her win considering how "gentlemanly" he was.....
oh well.
hahahaha
tmr must go yio chu kang at nine
and im determined to be punctual for once.
im always like WAYWAY early...
(ranging from 1/2 hr---1hr)
haha.
okay.
and was supposed to go out with ngaman tmr for a movie.
but im determined to start on my sc pt.
btw,
anyone who knows mrs jeannie goh's email add pls tell me.
THANKS
and anybody willing to swap date for western dining etiquette course pls tell me.
cos it clashes with my competitions.
THANKS
and i dont know what i am waited for...
what is it.
why am i waiting.....
and i refuse to believe the only possible reason im waiting.
cos i know its not true.
or am i just ecsaping from reality?????
forget the self reflection part.
hmmm.
had a nice talk with dearest veron!
yesterday
then met jodee and eileen at heeren.
HAH
jodee immediately boasted about buying a nicer addidas shorts.
which she promised to wear today.
and as i was saying how i refused to see it....
haha.
walking down the escalator.
then suddenly realised i was on the wrong direction of the escalator
haha.
so dumb
and i was laughing like siao
everyone was staring.
haha
sometimes im just plain dumb.
fine...maybe always.
anyway.
talking about dumb...
i bought the 10 packet thingy of mamee.
then eat one,
realised no seasoning thingy inside.so bland
so i check the packet.
saw"ready to eat"
so i thought they decided to cut down on msg,
put for us so little seasoning....
eat the last packet.
then realised there was SOOOOOOOOOOO many packets of seasoning at the bottom of the whole big packet.
hmph.
dumb larh
so the seasoning has been wasted.
its rotting at home right now.
anyway
took neoprints with veron.
though they dint turn out very nice and was kinda ex....
and was a traunatic experience....
ohwell.
nice souvenier i guess.
and on the log book outside the neoprint shop....
so sick.
got one picture of this guy and girl french kissing.
and they publicise it like that.
blegh.
oh well.
as jodee said.
i guess i AM closed minded....
anyway.
we dint see the machine say dont insert coins.
but i inserted 10 coins.
hmph.
then suddenly this woman appeared and scolded us.
then we said we put already.
dint noe cannot put....
and that mean old 20+ auntie said: too bad lorh.cant print out no refund.
and while scolding, she wasted 2 of our pictures.....
so throughout the whole thingy.
we were chao scared our 10 dollars would be wasted.
my plams were sweating larh.
cos that was the remaining 5dollars out of the 10 dollars left in my pocket.
BUT IT DID COME OUT
and we purposely went admiring our neos in front of her.
HAHA
yes.
i spent nearly-fifty dollars yesterday
sheesh
im broke le larh
$12 for squash tee
$10 top up ezlink
$7 pastamania
$1 can drink
$1 ice lemon tea
$12 for huiqi's present and some useless cute toy i bought for fun
$5 for neos(which did come out!)
$2 on beard papa cream puff (cos i was full but greedy)
anyway
my mortal's so cute.
she just reported to me today bout how her freaky lights at home exploded and she got cut by the glass.....
hah.
and last time told me how she playing with her pilot pen till she poked her face and bled...
haha.
so cute right.
HAH!!!!!!!!!!
and she's a squasher too!!!!!!!!!
today had training at kallang.
1-3pm
but played till 4pm.
hah.
coach brought tjc guys to spar with us.
lost my first match with this irritating guy.
ha.
at least i won first set.
but thats cos he gave in.
he thought sure win cos I'M THIRTEEN and he's SEVENTEEN
haha.
whatever.
so after i won.
he bully me lorh!!!!!!!!!!
waaaaaa.
he started smacking the ball like super duper hard.
shivers.
but still not as hard as dearest mabel.
oh well.
but im pissed
i wasnt playing properly larh
just stood at the back and dint run cos coach was outside.
hmmm.
realised i do get stage fright.
still traumatised by last year's english oral and chinese too.
in front of whole class somemore...
and speech and drama assesment too.
and it was just in front of like....20 ppl??????
blegh.
oh well.
how random.
im guilty.
yes again.
for finding dearest____ irritating.
exactly.
for no reason.
sometimes i just find fault with everybody cept myself.
and im guilty cos when my sis left for italy,
i dint say bye.
and actually dint care
till next mrning i on my phone.
realised she had even bothered to sms me before her plane took off...
she said bye and asked if i wanted chocolates.
GRRRR....
i hate regretting my actions.
i cant stand being and irritating mean hypocrite.
blegh.
anyway.
the next guy i played with was apparently nicknamed pineapple tart by coach....
and i won him.
YAYY
his stroke abit weird.
but he hit very hard
and the meano fren of his was like.
aiyah u sure lose one larh
so mean to his own teammate....
anyway.
accepted the meano guy's offer to play a match
cos mabel lost badly to him.
and i wanted to challenge myself!!!
hah.
was quite fun
anyway
apparently nobody wanted to play with him cos coach said he stank.
(oh wells.he changed his shirt in the end)
and he's the shortest.
seventeen and shorter than me.
hahaha
anyway.
was ok challenging.
apparently coach said he was best cos he played for many years.
and then suddenly i realised i was going to miss the shot.
screamed like siao.
super high pitched.
and mabel and jodee screamed at the same time.
cos very jing zhang.
haha
inthe end
i dint miss.
but cos he got a shock
he dropped his racquet to cover his ears from 3 girl's screams....
haha
so he missed and i won that rally.
we played one set only.
cos the lights off le.
anyway was a close match.
after that.
i was laughing like siao.
then kept missing.
until 8-8
haha
suddenly i screamed again but apparently it worked no more....
hmph.
lost 10-8.
haha
but was fun
and when mabel played with him.
she was cursing....
and me and eileen laughing like siao.
cos the guy was like.
relax larh.....
haha....how "gentlemanly"
anyway.
we were like asking mabel to start crying so he wud let her win considering how "gentlemanly" he was.....
oh well.
hahahaha
tmr must go yio chu kang at nine
and im determined to be punctual for once.
im always like WAYWAY early...
(ranging from 1/2 hr---1hr)
haha.
okay.
and was supposed to go out with ngaman tmr for a movie.
but im determined to start on my sc pt.
btw,
anyone who knows mrs jeannie goh's email add pls tell me.
THANKS
and anybody willing to swap date for western dining etiquette course pls tell me.
cos it clashes with my competitions.
THANKS
Sunday, March 12, 2006
nothing
summatives over le.
geog and history was okay.
chinese i got 30/40.
yayy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hah
lit was not very good.
cos i was _____ and i dint really understand the book.
jodee said that nothings safe to blog bout so i shall try to keep things discrete.
yes.
i shall try.
ohwell.
i just wont complain bout ppl larh....
wangleehom's xinzhongdereye album is so nice!
budebuai from wilber's gao shou is nice too!
hah!
val. if u stop saying his name in the english pronunciation, i might rmb to burn the cd for u...
hah.
oh well.
shall hope i can rmb to burn it by the end of this as-usual-will-be-long post.
math i hope i can pass.
wasnt that hard i think.
but dunno how to do anything.
set theory i totally wasted marks.
forgot how to do.
bleh.
mabel's in malaysia.
hope she buys bubblegum!!!!
i love sweets.
hmm.guess chocs are nicer.
sigh.
she miss so many trainings le....
but she pro le mah....
nationals coming up le.
ahhh......super scary.
and we must uplift our morales.
seriously eileen.
must jiayou and dont give up even if u play a more pro person!!!!!!!!!
cos u very taiko.
and ur game tactics are pro....!!!!
just use ur jian zhao can le.
okay!!!!!!!!!!!
jiayou squashers!
we can do it!
hoping for a third at least.
thats low expectations lorh.
considering the no. of schools taking part.....
friday was swim carn.
okay larh.
me and joan had lunch.
met eileen.
we shared table at the caifan stall.
as usual she was showing me weird grins.
i know she was trying not to laugh.
oh jocelyne set beside us too.
the caifan stall so popular meh???
oh well.
its nice.
RIGHT EILEEN????
hah!
somemore say u will never eat there again hor???
hahaha.
last time ask u to eat there u dontwant.
can dont eat caifan what....
got yu pian mi fen what.
RIGHT??????
and.omg
im so guilty.
but nevermind.
whats over is over.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY VERON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i love u lots.
miss u too.
jiayou ok!!!!!
sigh.
so sorry.
sigh.
maybe simin was right....
hmmm.
i guess shes not irritating....
just concerned...or busybody?
not like if i were her i wouldnt be....
why must be drifting apart.
why must there be a rift between us....
i realised i AM a determined person.
no means no.
most of the time....
i guess jodee is right.
im overly resoluted cos im not very openminded....
im irritated.
like whatever larh.
u are SO IRRITATING AND LAME.
if only i could just ignore u....
goh wan ting has the nicest legs on earth.
i want nice legs too.
and a nice tan!!!
but i guesss female swimmers have uglier physique than the guys...
but that mr li hadley hse teacher and squash tcher.
he was absolutely eww in his purple chao high trunks with his bulging tummy.
fair like toufu
i still rmb mt conolly swam for buckle last year
kt was ewww.
bet he thought he was cool.
hah!
he has no abs....
haha
irritating sissy larh he.
extra.
grr.
shall not waste time on idiots like him.
swim carn was basically okay
just that buckle as usual so lousy
and we got cheapskate ugly souveniers unlike the other houses
rushed home after that or tuition.
saturday woke at 6.15am to go mgs for a stupidly boring talk.
me and jodee were munching on crunchies and talking bout the retarded thingy the boy in front was playing with.and basically just crapping.
cat slept.
and jacq kept shh...ing us
and eileen was doing nothing.
i think
after that we ate brunch at some ulu place which had a cool vintage setting and cash register
service very bad.
food was badd
jodee got poisoned.
kinda
trning wasnt very good.
okay larh.
coach tot i was esecially stupid that day.
taught me how to count 1 and 2~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!
ahah
told her i was like tat everyday.
so in the end me and eileen couldnt do it so we switched to something simpler
haha
played with that vulgar p4 girl.
yayy.
i won.
fortunately
after that.
RUSHED AGAIN
to suntec.
jammed larh!!!!!
had yummy marche dinner
and anderson's fondue
and shopped.
cos was a belated bdae dinner for my sis
and today 2am mrning shes going italy
notfair'
hmph.
oh well.
so came home all sweaty
bathed at 9pm.
woah.
out from 7am to 9pm
today fortunately nothing on....
but woke at 8am
sigh.
used to waking at 6am
ohwell.
went swimming to achieve my goals of nice legs and tan
apparently dint suceed.
the pool stank
cos we couldnt go the new one.
swimmers were having trning in that pool.
and the pool we went so may old ppl.
wanted to squash.
but no time
maybe i will go later....
yayy.
tmr have to go yio chu kang at 9am.
wednesday and friday too...
siao lorh
sigh.
tmr meeting veron to shop.
after trning
yayy....
gotta rush again
from yck to orchard
not that far larh...
but i will be sweaty and stinky
blegh
again]
im always rushing
hmmm.
hope fridqay after trning can watch movie with nga man.
jocelyne say want ot go then now back out.
hmph.
nvm.
thursday hope i can go out with simin and jessie.
busy everyday lah....
mylife'sSOhectic
geog and history was okay.
chinese i got 30/40.
yayy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hah
lit was not very good.
cos i was _____ and i dint really understand the book.
jodee said that nothings safe to blog bout so i shall try to keep things discrete.
yes.
i shall try.
ohwell.
i just wont complain bout ppl larh....
wangleehom's xinzhongdereye album is so nice!
budebuai from wilber's gao shou is nice too!
hah!
val. if u stop saying his name in the english pronunciation, i might rmb to burn the cd for u...
hah.
oh well.
shall hope i can rmb to burn it by the end of this as-usual-will-be-long post.
math i hope i can pass.
wasnt that hard i think.
but dunno how to do anything.
set theory i totally wasted marks.
forgot how to do.
bleh.
mabel's in malaysia.
hope she buys bubblegum!!!!
i love sweets.
hmm.guess chocs are nicer.
sigh.
she miss so many trainings le....
but she pro le mah....
nationals coming up le.
ahhh......super scary.
and we must uplift our morales.
seriously eileen.
must jiayou and dont give up even if u play a more pro person!!!!!!!!!
cos u very taiko.
and ur game tactics are pro....!!!!
just use ur jian zhao can le.
okay!!!!!!!!!!!
jiayou squashers!
we can do it!
hoping for a third at least.
thats low expectations lorh.
considering the no. of schools taking part.....
friday was swim carn.
okay larh.
me and joan had lunch.
met eileen.
we shared table at the caifan stall.
as usual she was showing me weird grins.
i know she was trying not to laugh.
oh jocelyne set beside us too.
the caifan stall so popular meh???
oh well.
its nice.
RIGHT EILEEN????
hah!
somemore say u will never eat there again hor???
hahaha.
last time ask u to eat there u dontwant.
can dont eat caifan what....
got yu pian mi fen what.
RIGHT??????
and.omg
im so guilty.
but nevermind.
whats over is over.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY VERON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i love u lots.
miss u too.
jiayou ok!!!!!
sigh.
so sorry.
sigh.
maybe simin was right....
hmmm.
i guess shes not irritating....
just concerned...or busybody?
not like if i were her i wouldnt be....
why must be drifting apart.
why must there be a rift between us....
i realised i AM a determined person.
no means no.
most of the time....
i guess jodee is right.
im overly resoluted cos im not very openminded....
im irritated.
like whatever larh.
u are SO IRRITATING AND LAME.
if only i could just ignore u....
goh wan ting has the nicest legs on earth.
i want nice legs too.
and a nice tan!!!
but i guesss female swimmers have uglier physique than the guys...
but that mr li hadley hse teacher and squash tcher.
he was absolutely eww in his purple chao high trunks with his bulging tummy.
fair like toufu
i still rmb mt conolly swam for buckle last year
kt was ewww.
bet he thought he was cool.
hah!
he has no abs....
haha
irritating sissy larh he.
extra.
grr.
shall not waste time on idiots like him.
swim carn was basically okay
just that buckle as usual so lousy
and we got cheapskate ugly souveniers unlike the other houses
rushed home after that or tuition.
saturday woke at 6.15am to go mgs for a stupidly boring talk.
me and jodee were munching on crunchies and talking bout the retarded thingy the boy in front was playing with.and basically just crapping.
cat slept.
and jacq kept shh...ing us
and eileen was doing nothing.
i think
after that we ate brunch at some ulu place which had a cool vintage setting and cash register
service very bad.
food was badd
jodee got poisoned.
kinda
trning wasnt very good.
okay larh.
coach tot i was esecially stupid that day.
taught me how to count 1 and 2~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!
ahah
told her i was like tat everyday.
so in the end me and eileen couldnt do it so we switched to something simpler
haha
played with that vulgar p4 girl.
yayy.
i won.
fortunately
after that.
RUSHED AGAIN
to suntec.
jammed larh!!!!!
had yummy marche dinner
and anderson's fondue
and shopped.
cos was a belated bdae dinner for my sis
and today 2am mrning shes going italy
notfair'
hmph.
oh well.
so came home all sweaty
bathed at 9pm.
woah.
out from 7am to 9pm
today fortunately nothing on....
but woke at 8am
sigh.
used to waking at 6am
ohwell.
went swimming to achieve my goals of nice legs and tan
apparently dint suceed.
the pool stank
cos we couldnt go the new one.
swimmers were having trning in that pool.
and the pool we went so may old ppl.
wanted to squash.
but no time
maybe i will go later....
yayy.
tmr have to go yio chu kang at 9am.
wednesday and friday too...
siao lorh
sigh.
tmr meeting veron to shop.
after trning
yayy....
gotta rush again
from yck to orchard
not that far larh...
but i will be sweaty and stinky
blegh
again]
im always rushing
hmmm.
hope fridqay after trning can watch movie with nga man.
jocelyne say want ot go then now back out.
hmph.
nvm.
thursday hope i can go out with simin and jessie.
busy everyday lah....
mylife'sSOhectic
Saturday, March 04, 2006
!?!?!?!?!whatver world
blegh.
dunno if my archives are working
changed skin cos i realised the ultra retro one aint working....
ohwell.
WANZI CD SO COOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i love the design of the album.
SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO RETRO!!!!!
haha.
and chao funny too.
but very pervetic.
right jodee?????
haha
oh well.
today founders day wake up so early.
blegh.
boring larh.
and then we ate brunch at 10.30am......
oh well.
then cos i am a REALIST....not a pessimist EILEEN!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok
erm.
tot we wud be late for trning.AGAIN
so suggested we tell coach we MIGHT be late.
haha
so she offered to pick us up at holland road bus stop.
seriously larh.
trning at JURONG isnt fun at all.
waste my energy.
make me tired and sick even before trning start.
and whose fault is this?????????
irritating nosey parker kt.
hmph.
oh well.
he was just being responsible.i guess.
whatever larh.
tired larh
train from 12 noon to 3.15pm......
eileens dad dropped me and eileen at boon kheng....
then i refused to take 21 to kallang cos jodeesaid it was super scary and ulu!!!!!!!!!!
so i took mrt
and i met XINER!!!!!!!!!!!!
haha.
and in the end i stopped at aljunied and my mum gave her a lift home.
and i got to eat sardine puff!!!!!!!!!!
im determined to get around eating my delicious instant noodles tmr mrning.
i must nd i WILL!!!!!!!!!
haha.
what determination.
i guess the only meal i get to eat at home is dinner.
oh well.
so much food i wanna eat but cant find time to eat.
im sick of eating measly unhealthy yet yummy outside food.
i want to eat more.
but just no appetite
feel so bloated.
sigh.
friday was ...hmmm.....
we were u;ltra late for trning.
oh well.
ooopsies.
and we had no manners lorh.
we dint realised that we were supposed to apologise until coach told us.
sigh.
we need to be more polite.....
but it wasnt intentional lorh.........
its cos we spent 10mins crazily flagging a taxi.
inthe middle of the road....
haha.
we were screaming like "taxi!taxi!" hahaha
super funny.
and no taxi wud stop so we were late......
and the grip i changed not tacky at all lorh.
hmph.
jodees addicted to glue.....
so stinky she say okay....
oh well.coach was seeing double and nearly fainted.
its either cos of that or she was dissappointed in us that she was getting abit pissed.....
but i think i deproved.
ohwell.
eileen after saturday trning improve like siao....
friday played eileen lost lorh.
oh well.
but dunno why im unfeeling.
not sad not angry.....
played michelle and chelsia
chao fun.
but duh-uh lost badly.
but good experience.
WE SHLD PLAY MORE WITH SENIORS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haha.
oh well.
kallang courts wads very stinky larh.....\
but pt on steps is innovative and fun.
not that tiring larh.
but anytime better than running round the track
irritaing pop-ups keep popping out.
blegh.
coach bought us all nice turtles.
so cute......
but left early so havent get yet.
she so funny lorh.
act cute like rainie.
haha.
whine to the uncle to sell hercos wasthat kind must use the machine claws to take the toy.
in taiwan larh.
she bought for us cos we like "william hung"
hahaha.
so in the end she paid more to buy from the uncle.
haha
she took spastic picture of the turtles in a circle too.!!!!!!!!!!!!
haha.
today so could not hit properly.
but trning was best and productive.....
yayy.
one to one with mr li.
take turns lah.
then i improved forehand volleys but backhand volleys deproved lots.
totally couldnt do backnad volleyboasts......
oh well.
and i wanted to do the off the backwall thingy.
but misssed it cos was trning under mr li at that time.
hmph.
but apparently jodee an eillen had to run like siao while doing that....
but i still want to do it.....
was kinda moody during 2nd half of the trning.
cos i realised i deproved lots.
and was very angry for no reason.
oh well.
just submitted rs proposal.....
got to study geog math lit.
sigh
last minute bah
and our joint blog is seriously dead......
mr li so funny.
told us go and study and coach tot he ask her.haha.
history exam was okay....
just realised im so going to die.
so much work.......
and veron finally realised we were drifting apart.
wow.....
hmmmm.
tmr is my sis bdae....
ohwell.
today train so late....
otherwise cud have eaten dinner out....
oh well.
but i guess eating homefood wud be nice.
i just found out that boonkheng existed.
haha.
mr wolf is funny....
last night spur of the moment detemined to train hard....
haha.
smsed that to jodee during tuition.....
haha
oh well.
coach said our serves were terrible....
REALLY????????????
i tot mabels good lorh.
if hers arnt, then what is considered okay lorh.
maybe coach just saw the lousy serves and not the pro one.
eileen is improving at an alarming rate.
that is good for the team!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i think im a unfeeling person with feelings.
HAHA JODEE!!!!!!!!!!!THAT MADE SENSE BUT DINT MAKE SENSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haha.
oh.so random.
plaza sing the rice thingy with omelette is SUPER YUMMILICIOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
as nice as the double cheese thingy.....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i love gluttony!
dunno if my archives are working
changed skin cos i realised the ultra retro one aint working....
ohwell.
WANZI CD SO COOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i love the design of the album.
SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO RETRO!!!!!
haha.
and chao funny too.
but very pervetic.
right jodee?????
haha
oh well.
today founders day wake up so early.
blegh.
boring larh.
and then we ate brunch at 10.30am......
oh well.
then cos i am a REALIST....not a pessimist EILEEN!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok
erm.
tot we wud be late for trning.AGAIN
so suggested we tell coach we MIGHT be late.
haha
so she offered to pick us up at holland road bus stop.
seriously larh.
trning at JURONG isnt fun at all.
waste my energy.
make me tired and sick even before trning start.
and whose fault is this?????????
irritating nosey parker kt.
hmph.
oh well.
he was just being responsible.i guess.
whatever larh.
tired larh
train from 12 noon to 3.15pm......
eileens dad dropped me and eileen at boon kheng....
then i refused to take 21 to kallang cos jodeesaid it was super scary and ulu!!!!!!!!!!
so i took mrt
and i met XINER!!!!!!!!!!!!
haha.
and in the end i stopped at aljunied and my mum gave her a lift home.
and i got to eat sardine puff!!!!!!!!!!
im determined to get around eating my delicious instant noodles tmr mrning.
i must nd i WILL!!!!!!!!!
haha.
what determination.
i guess the only meal i get to eat at home is dinner.
oh well.
so much food i wanna eat but cant find time to eat.
im sick of eating measly unhealthy yet yummy outside food.
i want to eat more.
but just no appetite
feel so bloated.
sigh.
friday was ...hmmm.....
we were u;ltra late for trning.
oh well.
ooopsies.
and we had no manners lorh.
we dint realised that we were supposed to apologise until coach told us.
sigh.
we need to be more polite.....
but it wasnt intentional lorh.........
its cos we spent 10mins crazily flagging a taxi.
inthe middle of the road....
haha.
we were screaming like "taxi!taxi!" hahaha
super funny.
and no taxi wud stop so we were late......
and the grip i changed not tacky at all lorh.
hmph.
jodees addicted to glue.....
so stinky she say okay....
oh well.coach was seeing double and nearly fainted.
its either cos of that or she was dissappointed in us that she was getting abit pissed.....
but i think i deproved.
ohwell.
eileen after saturday trning improve like siao....
friday played eileen lost lorh.
oh well.
but dunno why im unfeeling.
not sad not angry.....
played michelle and chelsia
chao fun.
but duh-uh lost badly.
but good experience.
WE SHLD PLAY MORE WITH SENIORS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haha.
oh well.
kallang courts wads very stinky larh.....\
but pt on steps is innovative and fun.
not that tiring larh.
but anytime better than running round the track
irritaing pop-ups keep popping out.
blegh.
coach bought us all nice turtles.
so cute......
but left early so havent get yet.
she so funny lorh.
act cute like rainie.
haha.
whine to the uncle to sell hercos wasthat kind must use the machine claws to take the toy.
in taiwan larh.
she bought for us cos we like "william hung"
hahaha.
so in the end she paid more to buy from the uncle.
haha
she took spastic picture of the turtles in a circle too.!!!!!!!!!!!!
haha.
today so could not hit properly.
but trning was best and productive.....
yayy.
one to one with mr li.
take turns lah.
then i improved forehand volleys but backhand volleys deproved lots.
totally couldnt do backnad volleyboasts......
oh well.
and i wanted to do the off the backwall thingy.
but misssed it cos was trning under mr li at that time.
hmph.
but apparently jodee an eillen had to run like siao while doing that....
but i still want to do it.....
was kinda moody during 2nd half of the trning.
cos i realised i deproved lots.
and was very angry for no reason.
oh well.
just submitted rs proposal.....
got to study geog math lit.
sigh
last minute bah
and our joint blog is seriously dead......
mr li so funny.
told us go and study and coach tot he ask her.haha.
history exam was okay....
just realised im so going to die.
so much work.......
and veron finally realised we were drifting apart.
wow.....
hmmmm.
tmr is my sis bdae....
ohwell.
today train so late....
otherwise cud have eaten dinner out....
oh well.
but i guess eating homefood wud be nice.
i just found out that boonkheng existed.
haha.
mr wolf is funny....
last night spur of the moment detemined to train hard....
haha.
smsed that to jodee during tuition.....
haha
oh well.
coach said our serves were terrible....
REALLY????????????
i tot mabels good lorh.
if hers arnt, then what is considered okay lorh.
maybe coach just saw the lousy serves and not the pro one.
eileen is improving at an alarming rate.
that is good for the team!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i think im a unfeeling person with feelings.
HAHA JODEE!!!!!!!!!!!THAT MADE SENSE BUT DINT MAKE SENSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haha.
oh.so random.
plaza sing the rice thingy with omelette is SUPER YUMMILICIOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
as nice as the double cheese thingy.....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i love gluttony!
Monday, February 27, 2006
blegh.
iritating!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i could not do a single volley today.
finally realised that was standing too close to the ball.
then i started being able to hit.
then change side.
hmph.
then totally hit like crap.
and tmr dont think got time to train.
ahhh.....
im deproving.
i think i seriously dont deserve to be 2nd.....
cant hit at all.
and eileen.who said u cant hit huh!!!!!!!!
I LOVE CUCUMBER MILKSHAKE!!!!!!!!!!
haha eileen and jodee.
boo.
today actually wasnt depressed.just that trning spoilt my mood.
pissed.
highly irritated.
and yesterday was just depressed like suddenly.
no particular reason.
haha.
today not cos i realised that actually not that much homework
haha.
but now
grrr.........\
pt so tiring.
run under the hot sun.
got tanned and dehydrated.
throat hurts now....
com studs took some cool pics
but email then dunno why cant recieve.
blegh....
chem starting le.
and jodee and eileen have an evil scheme up their sleeves.
muahaha.
inside joke.
but nvm.
I REALLY LOVE CUCUMBER MILKSHAKE WITH PEAS!!!!!!!!!!!
haha.
problems accumulating.grrr....
i love u simin.
thx lots!!!!!!!
iritating!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i could not do a single volley today.
finally realised that was standing too close to the ball.
then i started being able to hit.
then change side.
hmph.
then totally hit like crap.
and tmr dont think got time to train.
ahhh.....
im deproving.
i think i seriously dont deserve to be 2nd.....
cant hit at all.
and eileen.who said u cant hit huh!!!!!!!!
I LOVE CUCUMBER MILKSHAKE!!!!!!!!!!
haha eileen and jodee.
boo.
today actually wasnt depressed.just that trning spoilt my mood.
pissed.
highly irritated.
and yesterday was just depressed like suddenly.
no particular reason.
haha.
today not cos i realised that actually not that much homework
haha.
but now
grrr.........\
pt so tiring.
run under the hot sun.
got tanned and dehydrated.
throat hurts now....
com studs took some cool pics
but email then dunno why cant recieve.
blegh....
chem starting le.
and jodee and eileen have an evil scheme up their sleeves.
muahaha.
inside joke.
but nvm.
I REALLY LOVE CUCUMBER MILKSHAKE WITH PEAS!!!!!!!!!!!
haha.
problems accumulating.grrr....
i love u simin.
thx lots!!!!!!!
Saturday, February 25, 2006
yearning for sleep
today woke up chao early to go to ulu or rather the other end of the world.
jo's hse for trning.
haha.
its a nice place.
and coach lives opp the mountain in front of jo's condo.
haha.
sorry jodee for making u wait so long.
just that i underestimated the time.
never knew singapore was so big.
haha.
last time over estimated like super much.....
and i saw two weird scary men who were snoring right in front of me while they were standing with their eyes wide open.
ewwwww.
bathed at 10+pm yesterday.
sweaty smelly stinky me!
was out of hse yesterday from 6.30am to 10.15pm.
more than 12hrs.
super exhausted.
dinner had ban mian with jodee at bugis...
nice but i had no appetite.
only liked the ikan bilis and the soup.
barely ate the noodles.
talk about eating more.....
cant wait for coach to come back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haha.
oh well.
ms neo came up with a great idea that our footwork was bad so now nationals havent over,we have to train with mr yang.
which means lots of pt....
that means the secones get serene to themselves.
hmph.
whatever.
coach serene also can help us with footwork what.
in no way do i think serene is inferior to mr yang.
oh well.
anyway sooner or later have to train with him.
blegh.
but that means coach come back we also cant train with her.
so no point looking forward to her return....
shall chiong hw last minute tmr.
supposed to do hw but blogged.
blegh.
jo's hse for trning.
haha.
its a nice place.
and coach lives opp the mountain in front of jo's condo.
haha.
sorry jodee for making u wait so long.
just that i underestimated the time.
never knew singapore was so big.
haha.
last time over estimated like super much.....
and i saw two weird scary men who were snoring right in front of me while they were standing with their eyes wide open.
ewwwww.
bathed at 10+pm yesterday.
sweaty smelly stinky me!
was out of hse yesterday from 6.30am to 10.15pm.
more than 12hrs.
super exhausted.
dinner had ban mian with jodee at bugis...
nice but i had no appetite.
only liked the ikan bilis and the soup.
barely ate the noodles.
talk about eating more.....
cant wait for coach to come back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haha.
oh well.
ms neo came up with a great idea that our footwork was bad so now nationals havent over,we have to train with mr yang.
which means lots of pt....
that means the secones get serene to themselves.
hmph.
whatever.
coach serene also can help us with footwork what.
in no way do i think serene is inferior to mr yang.
oh well.
anyway sooner or later have to train with him.
blegh.
but that means coach come back we also cant train with her.
so no point looking forward to her return....
shall chiong hw last minute tmr.
supposed to do hw but blogged.
blegh.
stressified...officially
DANGER! HIGHLY IRRITABLE! KEEP OFF!
sigh.
super stress.
i feel like crying.
but theres nothing to cry about.
sigh.
but crying helps relieve stress!!!!
ohwells.
unsolved problems + more problems= stress
not like im the only one.but still....
sometimes i wonder wats the point in trning extra when we are not going to be first.most probably larh.
sigh.
i noe its the process.
but.
of course i enjoy trning.
most of the time.
but the greatest joy isnt it in being first?
but if i train so much and enjoy every training.
the total joy i get from trning should be more than winning first.
oh well.
how philo.
but i guess long term joy is better than short term joy.
but then again.
squash is whats stressing me.
or rather one of the reasons.
im rolling downhill.......plop.
feel like dying.
sighsighsigh.
so much homework but i rather complain about it then solve it...
i want to join odac next year.
i want everything but i never achieve it.
blegh.
I WANT THAT BLUE ADDIDAS SLIPPERS!!!!!!!!!!!
i want a peaceful life too.
at the same time.
i think it feels good to noe what ppl think about you.
im feeling ugly.ewww.
im someone who doesnt take risks and hates changes and have bad adaptations skills.
sigh
yesterday.SUPER STRESS.
i hate being in a rush.
friendly with nanyang was okay.
all super tall lorh.
not fair.
and i think my thighs are short.
and tzelin said im skinny.
SO NOT.
okay.so random.
i won the 3rd,5th and 6th.
oh wells.
wasnt very fun cos it wasnt challenging.
i think the amerpro match with the mgs girl was cool and SUPER FUN AND CHALLENGING!
even though i lost....
but it was the funnest game i ever played.
YAYY!!!!!!!!!!!
hoping to join the watver tournament in march.
NATIONALS ON 20TH MARCH!!!!!!!!
ahhhhhhh!
mr li super funny.
cos the tournament sponsored by a construction company.
he said he prize would be a brick with ur name on it.
anyway.
wats wif construction and squash????????????????
ohwell.
hahahahaha.
so cute.
but i guess it would be cool to cement it onto ur room wall!!!!!!!!!!
haha.
nayangers are super tall unlike shortie rafflesians.
sometimes im really dumb.
and i feel so malu now that i look back and realise that what i said was so embarrassing.
blegh.
somehow.i hope that he would just fall for someone else so i wouldnt have to worry about what to do next.
sigh.
i think sometimes i just dont say no to ppl.
guess im just accomodating....
ohwells.
its the least of probs but still contributing to it.
as eileen said.
i should just state my stand.
but oh well.
i guess im kind of standing on the fence...
and i think i cant bear to do something so mean again...
im sorry to everybody i offended or insulted unconciously.and for hurting your feelings.
sorry for snapping at you last night cos i was just tired and grouchy.
and i noe i was being mean...
i want to sleep.
sigh.
im really tired.
physically and emotionally drained.
i guess i need some emotions mangement course.
i ont think i noe how to handle my life.
and theres no one to help me.
thats why im feeling helpless and at a loss.
i guess somethings just cant be said out loud.
some darkest secrets cant be shared with ur bestest frens cos nobody can be trusted.
i hate living in a world where i have to doubt everybody.
i hate keeping secrets and dark dark probs to myself.
i hate living in a world full of fear.
sometimes i just hate being alive.
i guess probs just make life interesting.
i hate putting on a brave front and being someone im not at all.
i hate acting.
why cant i just be who i am.
why cant i jus be who i want to be.
sigh.
cant i just be weak for once?
sigh.
life's too short for regrets.
i need for sleep desperstaely or i will snap at ppl and make everyone's life miserable.
sometimes i try to put myselves in other ppl's shoes.
but i just cant be sensitive enough.
why cant i just be immature and cry at every lil thing cos im sick of acting brave.
i hate growing up.
it ruined my life.
i guess thats called impermanence.
if only friendship could last.
if only there was at least someone who can be trusted...
life is just bad.
sigh.
super stress.
i feel like crying.
but theres nothing to cry about.
sigh.
but crying helps relieve stress!!!!
ohwells.
unsolved problems + more problems= stress
not like im the only one.but still....
sometimes i wonder wats the point in trning extra when we are not going to be first.most probably larh.
sigh.
i noe its the process.
but.
of course i enjoy trning.
most of the time.
but the greatest joy isnt it in being first?
but if i train so much and enjoy every training.
the total joy i get from trning should be more than winning first.
oh well.
how philo.
but i guess long term joy is better than short term joy.
but then again.
squash is whats stressing me.
or rather one of the reasons.
im rolling downhill.......plop.
feel like dying.
sighsighsigh.
so much homework but i rather complain about it then solve it...
i want to join odac next year.
i want everything but i never achieve it.
blegh.
I WANT THAT BLUE ADDIDAS SLIPPERS!!!!!!!!!!!
i want a peaceful life too.
at the same time.
i think it feels good to noe what ppl think about you.
im feeling ugly.ewww.
im someone who doesnt take risks and hates changes and have bad adaptations skills.
sigh
yesterday.SUPER STRESS.
i hate being in a rush.
friendly with nanyang was okay.
all super tall lorh.
not fair.
and i think my thighs are short.
and tzelin said im skinny.
SO NOT.
okay.so random.
i won the 3rd,5th and 6th.
oh wells.
wasnt very fun cos it wasnt challenging.
i think the amerpro match with the mgs girl was cool and SUPER FUN AND CHALLENGING!
even though i lost....
but it was the funnest game i ever played.
YAYY!!!!!!!!!!!
hoping to join the watver tournament in march.
NATIONALS ON 20TH MARCH!!!!!!!!
ahhhhhhh!
mr li super funny.
cos the tournament sponsored by a construction company.
he said he prize would be a brick with ur name on it.
anyway.
wats wif construction and squash????????????????
ohwell.
hahahahaha.
so cute.
but i guess it would be cool to cement it onto ur room wall!!!!!!!!!!
haha.
nayangers are super tall unlike shortie rafflesians.
sometimes im really dumb.
and i feel so malu now that i look back and realise that what i said was so embarrassing.
blegh.
somehow.i hope that he would just fall for someone else so i wouldnt have to worry about what to do next.
sigh.
i think sometimes i just dont say no to ppl.
guess im just accomodating....
ohwells.
its the least of probs but still contributing to it.
as eileen said.
i should just state my stand.
but oh well.
i guess im kind of standing on the fence...
and i think i cant bear to do something so mean again...
im sorry to everybody i offended or insulted unconciously.and for hurting your feelings.
sorry for snapping at you last night cos i was just tired and grouchy.
and i noe i was being mean...
i want to sleep.
sigh.
im really tired.
physically and emotionally drained.
i guess i need some emotions mangement course.
i ont think i noe how to handle my life.
and theres no one to help me.
thats why im feeling helpless and at a loss.
i guess somethings just cant be said out loud.
some darkest secrets cant be shared with ur bestest frens cos nobody can be trusted.
i hate living in a world where i have to doubt everybody.
i hate keeping secrets and dark dark probs to myself.
i hate living in a world full of fear.
sometimes i just hate being alive.
i guess probs just make life interesting.
i hate putting on a brave front and being someone im not at all.
i hate acting.
why cant i just be who i am.
why cant i jus be who i want to be.
sigh.
cant i just be weak for once?
sigh.
life's too short for regrets.
i need for sleep desperstaely or i will snap at ppl and make everyone's life miserable.
sometimes i try to put myselves in other ppl's shoes.
but i just cant be sensitive enough.
why cant i just be immature and cry at every lil thing cos im sick of acting brave.
i hate growing up.
it ruined my life.
i guess thats called impermanence.
if only friendship could last.
if only there was at least someone who can be trusted...
life is just bad.
Thursday, February 23, 2006
ha
my toes are cold for no reason.
2nd post in ten minutes?
oh well.
theres something wrong with me.
my body is rebelling...
im on a mission to eat more.
but i eat so little and i dont feel hungry.
ewww.and my calves are muscular....
blegh.
i dont want triangular legs....
2nd post in ten minutes?
oh well.
theres something wrong with me.
my body is rebelling...
im on a mission to eat more.
but i eat so little and i dont feel hungry.
ewww.and my calves are muscular....
blegh.
i dont want triangular legs....
bleh
life seriously has its ups and downs.
im highly amused.
but it think its mean to take its as a joke when the other person might be serious about it.
something's wrong with jodee.shes getting increasingly lame.at an alarming rate...
haha
jacq so lovable...
and cat's really nice!
eileen is astonishing.
im so proud of her! HAH!
dint expect her to really change that much
oh well.
i was trying to control my temper yesterday.and all was well until the end when i just couldnt hit and just flared up...
oohwell.
sam wang is disgusting. his singing larh.
oh besides that....
really stressed.
im so caught up with retarded and irritating and unimportant problems which actually are quite important.
hah.jodee.that made so much sense lorh!!!!
anyway.
im officially STRESSED OUT...
so sorry if i flare up at anybody.
cos im very irritated.
sigh.
today i just told her off.
cos was pissed and finding fault with everybody.
and all she did was ask mengxia why i look so glum.
ohwell.
and i feel guilty.
for lots of reasons.
RIGHT CAT????
and for being evil and mean....
and being edgy.
and for making the squash toilet flush incessantly and wasting tons of water....
im thinking of the ppl in countries experiencing droughts.
blegh.
im so guilty....
and we made pizza and quiche today....
not bad but i managed to wobble and drop one quater of my pizza and half my quiche.
oh well.
and last week dropped all mengxias peanuts...
blegh.
im so clumsy.
sometimes i think i do really stupid things.
but sometimes i think im amazing.
like today i did amazing unexpected back wall boasts which unfortunately jodee could return and so i lost the rally....
blegh.
sigh.
i really do think thru my actions and i weigh the pros and cons.
but then i realise later that what i did was really stupid.
sigh.
i guess thats human nature or maybe im just that dumb.
and no i donot have low self-esteem.
OOOH!!!!!!!!!!
saw an amazing squash book in the sch library today.
thanks yishyuan.
but dint borrow cos no time to read.
exams next week.
still got dumb philo journal...
stressed like siao.
tomorrow match with nanyang.
hope im okay today and dont get freaked out...
jiayou squashers and i love u pple lots!
just now got some hardworking juniors trning!!!!
and i cant lob serve consistently.
die le.
love squash to bits!
im highly amused.
but it think its mean to take its as a joke when the other person might be serious about it.
something's wrong with jodee.shes getting increasingly lame.at an alarming rate...
haha
jacq so lovable...
and cat's really nice!
eileen is astonishing.
im so proud of her! HAH!
dint expect her to really change that much
oh well.
i was trying to control my temper yesterday.and all was well until the end when i just couldnt hit and just flared up...
oohwell.
sam wang is disgusting. his singing larh.
oh besides that....
really stressed.
im so caught up with retarded and irritating and unimportant problems which actually are quite important.
hah.jodee.that made so much sense lorh!!!!
anyway.
im officially STRESSED OUT...
so sorry if i flare up at anybody.
cos im very irritated.
sigh.
today i just told her off.
cos was pissed and finding fault with everybody.
and all she did was ask mengxia why i look so glum.
ohwell.
and i feel guilty.
for lots of reasons.
RIGHT CAT????
and for being evil and mean....
and being edgy.
and for making the squash toilet flush incessantly and wasting tons of water....
im thinking of the ppl in countries experiencing droughts.
blegh.
im so guilty....
and we made pizza and quiche today....
not bad but i managed to wobble and drop one quater of my pizza and half my quiche.
oh well.
and last week dropped all mengxias peanuts...
blegh.
im so clumsy.
sometimes i think i do really stupid things.
but sometimes i think im amazing.
like today i did amazing unexpected back wall boasts which unfortunately jodee could return and so i lost the rally....
blegh.
sigh.
i really do think thru my actions and i weigh the pros and cons.
but then i realise later that what i did was really stupid.
sigh.
i guess thats human nature or maybe im just that dumb.
and no i donot have low self-esteem.
OOOH!!!!!!!!!!
saw an amazing squash book in the sch library today.
thanks yishyuan.
but dint borrow cos no time to read.
exams next week.
still got dumb philo journal...
stressed like siao.
tomorrow match with nanyang.
hope im okay today and dont get freaked out...
jiayou squashers and i love u pple lots!
just now got some hardworking juniors trning!!!!
and i cant lob serve consistently.
die le.
love squash to bits!
Sunday, February 19, 2006
ahhhh
oh no.
i just found out that what i thought seems not to be what it is.
i never knew "wtf" was vulgar.
kind of dint see it in that light.
AHHHHH!i hate myself.how could i ever use such a vulgar word.
ohwells.
i guess i dint mean THAT when i used it considering that i dint noe wat it meant.
i hate myself.feel like dying lorh.why am i so dumb.
nvm.i shall just use my brain before doing anything.
im glad to be 2ND!!! but i think jodee deserves it more than i do.
sigh.
and its kind of weird that jodees vice captain. as in i always treated her as a normal friend.
guess its weird to see her in such an impt position......
dear duizhang so cute!
i love jacq!
friday was VERY interesting and amusing.
i love squash and squashers!
im so glad.
somehow i feel relaxed after our longlonglong chat of dunno how many hours.
and i will try to change.
somehow i think it feels good that ppl think you are nice and friendly.
i guess it kind of makes you heave a sigh of relief that you are'nt as hateful as you think you are!
and i think it was very touching.cos we were all so sincere.
jodee cried...
and jacq was intimidating!!!! she talk to me stare at me in the eyes!!!!shiver.like....normally we talk also no i contact one mah.....
yayy.
and saturday was HORRIBLE.
i think we were too angry to exactly cry or anything.
cept mabel.
i guess its not his fault.just his duty.
sorry ms neo,mr li,coach and fellow squashers if i contributed in any way to getting you ppl into trouble.....
but seriously lah.
we play squash so we are responsible for our own safety.
like....i mean jodee hit me with a ball, 9i wont go crying home and like....."mummy!tell the principal!"
watever lorh.
and they might as well chop off our hands in case we strangle ourselves, or our legs lest we trip in the dangerous schoool compounds and break our nose or something.
sigh.
24th feb we are having friendly with nanyang.
jiayou squashers!
love yall lots!
i just found out that what i thought seems not to be what it is.
i never knew "wtf" was vulgar.
kind of dint see it in that light.
AHHHHH!i hate myself.how could i ever use such a vulgar word.
ohwells.
i guess i dint mean THAT when i used it considering that i dint noe wat it meant.
i hate myself.feel like dying lorh.why am i so dumb.
nvm.i shall just use my brain before doing anything.
im glad to be 2ND!!! but i think jodee deserves it more than i do.
sigh.
and its kind of weird that jodees vice captain. as in i always treated her as a normal friend.
guess its weird to see her in such an impt position......
dear duizhang so cute!
i love jacq!
friday was VERY interesting and amusing.
i love squash and squashers!
im so glad.
somehow i feel relaxed after our longlonglong chat of dunno how many hours.
and i will try to change.
somehow i think it feels good that ppl think you are nice and friendly.
i guess it kind of makes you heave a sigh of relief that you are'nt as hateful as you think you are!
and i think it was very touching.cos we were all so sincere.
jodee cried...
and jacq was intimidating!!!! she talk to me stare at me in the eyes!!!!shiver.like....normally we talk also no i contact one mah.....
yayy.
and saturday was HORRIBLE.
i think we were too angry to exactly cry or anything.
cept mabel.
i guess its not his fault.just his duty.
sorry ms neo,mr li,coach and fellow squashers if i contributed in any way to getting you ppl into trouble.....
but seriously lah.
we play squash so we are responsible for our own safety.
like....i mean jodee hit me with a ball, 9i wont go crying home and like....."mummy!tell the principal!"
watever lorh.
and they might as well chop off our hands in case we strangle ourselves, or our legs lest we trip in the dangerous schoool compounds and break our nose or something.
sigh.
24th feb we are having friendly with nanyang.
jiayou squashers!
love yall lots!
Monday, January 09, 2006
i think its going to be really sad when next year serene is gone and we are going to have super pt siao mr yang as coach...
i hate ppl to lie to me larh.
that stupid pig somemore said what....oh,i buy this then i wont ever buy anything else again.
and in the end she bought the skirt which i wanted and saw firstlah.
maybe i shall not wait for stussy to have sale.
i shall just buy it at 18.90
though i dont think floral prints exactly suit me.
ohwells.
but i guess its ok since its not that obvious kind....
ooooh.yesterday my sis bought the small cup of GODIVA CHOCOLATE drink for $8.
it kind of tasted like ice cream...
later got trials.
xiang dang nian i went wif simin to go for trials.
waahaha
tmr i dont exactly feel like watching movie wif jodee leh.
i need time to mug!!!!!!
haha.
there eileen!
who says i dont mug lah.
hmph.
mat5h was bad.
sit beside her super yali.
haha.
and i dont agree with serene that im most playful and mischievous.
sounds like that kind of p1 kiddo boy.
i think im kind of like more qing chun huo li than mischievous.
its called being young lah.
IGNORANT.
waahaha.
im joining odac.
but it was kind of impulse thing.
dint tell anyone.
just felt like itr today.
ha.
im gonna drag jodee to join wif me.
though i think maybe io shld concentrate on squash.
ohwell.]
five days a week cca.
whee.
how exciting.
im looking forward to odacs kayaking module.
waahaha.
but im scared of interviews.
guess it will be my first.
many more to come.
i wanna work in roxy NOW!!!!!!!!
or mango.
or guess.
or any branded shop!!!!!
ate at marche last night.
has the nicest mushroom soup and pizza.
omg.
that childish sis of mine ios 18 today.
and she wants to buy so much stuff and dont want to work.
pig lah.
only noe how to depend on your father.
i look forward to going to work when im 17.
and i think when im in jc i shaLL GET MY DRIVING LICENCE.
woah.
imagine driving a sports car to rjc!!!!!!!!!!!!!
waahaha.
khs that 6/3 girl joining squash.
ha.
odac or photog?
but i guess odac cos i love photog but maybe informal kind.
so i guess a natuional geographic fphotog ambition was just an impulsive thing cos i was trying desperately to find a job i ,like.
which till now i dunno.
i prefer working for others cos i like to depend on others.
but my dad will disapprove.
sigh.
and like doing business so boring.
i guess i want to be a globetrotter though thats not a job.
i guess none of us will ever be in nationals.
ohwells.
i think it wud be pressure if we had one in our batch.
ladders so fun.
if i win jo i can be the top.
though it is super temporary cos ha.
i noe im not the best and i will lose jacq or mabel or eileen.
tata.
i lurv training.and doing boasts.
i hate ppl to lie to me larh.
that stupid pig somemore said what....oh,i buy this then i wont ever buy anything else again.
and in the end she bought the skirt which i wanted and saw firstlah.
maybe i shall not wait for stussy to have sale.
i shall just buy it at 18.90
though i dont think floral prints exactly suit me.
ohwells.
but i guess its ok since its not that obvious kind....
ooooh.yesterday my sis bought the small cup of GODIVA CHOCOLATE drink for $8.
it kind of tasted like ice cream...
later got trials.
xiang dang nian i went wif simin to go for trials.
waahaha
tmr i dont exactly feel like watching movie wif jodee leh.
i need time to mug!!!!!!
haha.
there eileen!
who says i dont mug lah.
hmph.
mat5h was bad.
sit beside her super yali.
haha.
and i dont agree with serene that im most playful and mischievous.
sounds like that kind of p1 kiddo boy.
i think im kind of like more qing chun huo li than mischievous.
its called being young lah.
IGNORANT.
waahaha.
im joining odac.
but it was kind of impulse thing.
dint tell anyone.
just felt like itr today.
ha.
im gonna drag jodee to join wif me.
though i think maybe io shld concentrate on squash.
ohwell.]
five days a week cca.
whee.
how exciting.
im looking forward to odacs kayaking module.
waahaha.
but im scared of interviews.
guess it will be my first.
many more to come.
i wanna work in roxy NOW!!!!!!!!
or mango.
or guess.
or any branded shop!!!!!
ate at marche last night.
has the nicest mushroom soup and pizza.
omg.
that childish sis of mine ios 18 today.
and she wants to buy so much stuff and dont want to work.
pig lah.
only noe how to depend on your father.
i look forward to going to work when im 17.
and i think when im in jc i shaLL GET MY DRIVING LICENCE.
woah.
imagine driving a sports car to rjc!!!!!!!!!!!!!
waahaha.
khs that 6/3 girl joining squash.
ha.
odac or photog?
but i guess odac cos i love photog but maybe informal kind.
so i guess a natuional geographic fphotog ambition was just an impulsive thing cos i was trying desperately to find a job i ,like.
which till now i dunno.
i prefer working for others cos i like to depend on others.
but my dad will disapprove.
sigh.
and like doing business so boring.
i guess i want to be a globetrotter though thats not a job.
i guess none of us will ever be in nationals.
ohwells.
i think it wud be pressure if we had one in our batch.
ladders so fun.
if i win jo i can be the top.
though it is super temporary cos ha.
i noe im not the best and i will lose jacq or mabel or eileen.
tata.
i lurv training.and doing boasts.
Saturday, December 31, 2005
yeaowww
sigh.
my toe was pain all thru trning today.
when i removed my sock at home,realised the sock was a bit bloody cos my nail cracked or the flesh split or something.
its stinging badly.
ouch.
oooh.
and it was raiining heavily larh.
fortunately bus was quick for once.
haha.
the ride was amusing.
i saw this girl wearing flip flops crossing the road.
then cos the road flooded, her slipper once side floated off her feet.
and she had no umbrella so had to be drenched as she retrieved it.
haha.
poorthing.
then....
i saw A TOAD CUTELY JUMPING ALONG THE FLOODED ROAD.
haha
i wanna go ecp to play that temporary thing.
todays trning was excellent.
we did boasts.
yayy.
and coach said me and jodee did much better today.
ohwells.
we tot start at 9am.so we came at 8am.
when trning start at 10am.
but i lurv boasts.
and coach was in a good mood.
so good that she said jodee was cute.
clumsy more like it larh.
blegh
looking forward to shopping tmr.
lovesquash
my toe was pain all thru trning today.
when i removed my sock at home,realised the sock was a bit bloody cos my nail cracked or the flesh split or something.
its stinging badly.
ouch.
oooh.
and it was raiining heavily larh.
fortunately bus was quick for once.
haha.
the ride was amusing.
i saw this girl wearing flip flops crossing the road.
then cos the road flooded, her slipper once side floated off her feet.
and she had no umbrella so had to be drenched as she retrieved it.
haha.
poorthing.
then....
i saw A TOAD CUTELY JUMPING ALONG THE FLOODED ROAD.
haha
i wanna go ecp to play that temporary thing.
todays trning was excellent.
we did boasts.
yayy.
and coach said me and jodee did much better today.
ohwells.
we tot start at 9am.so we came at 8am.
when trning start at 10am.
but i lurv boasts.
and coach was in a good mood.
so good that she said jodee was cute.
clumsy more like it larh.
blegh
looking forward to shopping tmr.
lovesquash
Thursday, December 29, 2005
rising from the dead.
im finally blogging.
haha
i want to be in 204.not 201.
sigh.
i hate eating in foodcourts and i cant imagine how pple can stand eating every single meal there.
eating once in a while is okay but practically every alternate day is really bad.
cockroaches and the smell make it worse then a hawker centre.and thank you.i wud rather eat in a hawker centre then at a food court.
im sick of cai fan.
im sick of rice.
i lurv noodles.
i dont like bread.
i love chocalates.
why dont i survive on chocolates then.
grrrrr.i really cant stand my unreasonble mother.
this is the worst my mother has ever been
and i just passed my worst birthday ever.and i totally hate school.
and the only reason im still in school is squash.and studying for the sake of studying so that it wont be a disgrace to say i have a psle certificate only.
or else i wud drop out of school if i could.
not that i dont like studying.
i like it but maybe the environment is just bad.
oooh.
and i think i will die if i get into the school team.....as a reserve.
because apparently my attitude on 27th dec 2005 at 11.20am wasnt exactly good.
and i havent exactly aced in trainings althpough u must admit then i am indeed hardworking.
ha.
as eileen said.
i was really bad at the start of the year.GLARES AT EILEEN.but i have improved tremendously.
thank you*claps*
watever.
im broke.
if im gonna pay for extra trainings till nationals.
i will ave to spend all my new year pocket money.
assuming that i will get enough.
and my savings have been exhausted totally.
sigh.
and i have not read my lit books yet.
haha
only when on the net to read the plot overview.
sigh.
still got annotations to do.
but considering how much time there is left and the rate at i work and process those words in my brain.i will take forever.so forget it.
oooh.
i hope my new racquet will last thru at least the whole of next year.
and wang zi bian qing wa is the nicest show ever.besides qian jin bai fen bai and hai tun wan lian ren.
ha.
and who says taiwanese dramas are badd.
idiotpig.
say not nice somemore watch for wat
u are a hypocrite
and im so sorry tongyi but i was just so lazy.
so i think i will email u instead.
ooopsies.
hope u will come 201 next year.
i dread school.
haha
i want to be in 204.not 201.
sigh.
i hate eating in foodcourts and i cant imagine how pple can stand eating every single meal there.
eating once in a while is okay but practically every alternate day is really bad.
cockroaches and the smell make it worse then a hawker centre.and thank you.i wud rather eat in a hawker centre then at a food court.
im sick of cai fan.
im sick of rice.
i lurv noodles.
i dont like bread.
i love chocalates.
why dont i survive on chocolates then.
grrrrr.i really cant stand my unreasonble mother.
this is the worst my mother has ever been
and i just passed my worst birthday ever.and i totally hate school.
and the only reason im still in school is squash.and studying for the sake of studying so that it wont be a disgrace to say i have a psle certificate only.
or else i wud drop out of school if i could.
not that i dont like studying.
i like it but maybe the environment is just bad.
oooh.
and i think i will die if i get into the school team.....as a reserve.
because apparently my attitude on 27th dec 2005 at 11.20am wasnt exactly good.
and i havent exactly aced in trainings althpough u must admit then i am indeed hardworking.
ha.
as eileen said.
i was really bad at the start of the year.GLARES AT EILEEN.but i have improved tremendously.
thank you*claps*
watever.
im broke.
if im gonna pay for extra trainings till nationals.
i will ave to spend all my new year pocket money.
assuming that i will get enough.
and my savings have been exhausted totally.
sigh.
and i have not read my lit books yet.
haha
only when on the net to read the plot overview.
sigh.
still got annotations to do.
but considering how much time there is left and the rate at i work and process those words in my brain.i will take forever.so forget it.
oooh.
i hope my new racquet will last thru at least the whole of next year.
and wang zi bian qing wa is the nicest show ever.besides qian jin bai fen bai and hai tun wan lian ren.
ha.
and who says taiwanese dramas are badd.
idiotpig.
say not nice somemore watch for wat
u are a hypocrite
and im so sorry tongyi but i was just so lazy.
so i think i will email u instead.
ooopsies.
hope u will come 201 next year.
i dread school.
Saturday, November 26, 2005
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
yayy.im leaving tomorrow on holiday.
amerpro finally ended.
haha.
was very fun except for the waiting time.
im so sick of taking mrt the whole week.
sigh
lost my 3rd round but felt super accomplished
cos the mgs girl was very good
and i kind of lost 11-8 like that.
haha.
i think its more fun to play someone pro than win easily by playing lousy person.
more challenging.
hah.
super unfair.
i dont get into plates so i just play with 3 pple.
what alt of experience.
oooh
shared court with this jjc girl.
AND
i dint noe she hit down serve or smth le.
so i ran behind her wanted to hit but she raised her racquet to hit back to me, thinking i was at the back
AND SO SHE SMACKED MY FACE
ouch.
jaw hurt.
WORSE STILL.
my forehead got much more disfigured than it had already been.
super ouch larh.
its now STILL super swollen and blue-blacked and PAIN
the swell, in addition to my already deformed bone jutting out on my forehead due to countless knockings since young due to my clumsiness, totally swelled out way much
looked like a freak larh
sigh.
but was very fruitful.
yesterday trning super slack.
sigh.
serene is okay.
she looks super familiar.
a bit winnie the pooh.
haha.
sigh i dont want to miss trning for like 4 sessions larh!!!!!!!!
sigh.
sigh.
sigh.
less than 12hrs to go.
out of hell soon
yayy!!!!!!!!!
amerpro finally ended.
haha.
was very fun except for the waiting time.
im so sick of taking mrt the whole week.
sigh
lost my 3rd round but felt super accomplished
cos the mgs girl was very good
and i kind of lost 11-8 like that.
haha.
i think its more fun to play someone pro than win easily by playing lousy person.
more challenging.
hah.
super unfair.
i dont get into plates so i just play with 3 pple.
what alt of experience.
oooh
shared court with this jjc girl.
AND
i dint noe she hit down serve or smth le.
so i ran behind her wanted to hit but she raised her racquet to hit back to me, thinking i was at the back
AND SO SHE SMACKED MY FACE
ouch.
jaw hurt.
WORSE STILL.
my forehead got much more disfigured than it had already been.
super ouch larh.
its now STILL super swollen and blue-blacked and PAIN
the swell, in addition to my already deformed bone jutting out on my forehead due to countless knockings since young due to my clumsiness, totally swelled out way much
looked like a freak larh
sigh.
but was very fruitful.
yesterday trning super slack.
sigh.
serene is okay.
she looks super familiar.
a bit winnie the pooh.
haha.
sigh i dont want to miss trning for like 4 sessions larh!!!!!!!!
sigh.
sigh.
sigh.
less than 12hrs to go.
out of hell soon
yayy!!!!!!!!!
Monday, November 14, 2005
whats the world coming to
"Where Is The Love?"
What's wrong with the world, mama
People livin' like they ain't got no mamasI think the whole world addicted to the drama
Only attracted to things that'll bring you trauma
Overseas, yeah, we try to stop terrorism
But we still got terrorists here livin'In the USA,
the big CIAThe Bloods and The Crips and the KKK
But if you only have love for your own race
Then you only leave space to discriminate
And to discriminate only generates hate
And when you hate then you're bound to get irate, yeah
Madness is what you demonstrate
And that's exactly how anger works and operates
Man, you gotta have love just to set it straight
Take control of your mind and meditate
Let your soul gravitate to the love, y'all, y'all
People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek
Father, Father, Father help us
Send some guidance from above'
Cause people got me, got me questionin
'Where is the love (Love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love
The love, the love
It just ain't the same, always unchanged
New days are strange, is the world insane
If love and peace is so strong
Why are there pieces of love that don't belong
Nations droppin' bombs
Chemical gasses fillin' lungs of little ones
With ongoin' sufferin' as the youth die young
So ask yourself is the lovin' really gone
So I could ask myself really what is goin' wrong
In this world that we livin' in people keep on givin'in
Makin' wrong decisions, only visions of them dividends
Not respectin' each other, deny thy brother
A war is goin' on but the reason's undercover
The truth is kept secret, it's swept under the rug
If you never know truth then you never know love
Where's the love, y'all, come on (I don't know)
Where's the truth, y'all, come on (I don't know)
Where's the love, y'allPeople killin', people dyin'Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek
Father, Father, Father help us
Send some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)Where is the love (The love)Where is the love (The love)Where is the loveThe love, the love
I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder
As I'm gettin' older, y'all, people gets colder
Most of us only care about money makin'
Selfishness got us followin' our wrong direction
Wrong information always shown by the media
Negative images is the main criteria
Infecting the young minds faster than bacteria
Kids wanna act like what they see in the cinemaYo',
whatever happened to the values of humanity
Whatever happened to the fairness in equality
Instead in spreading love we spreading animosity
Lack of understanding, leading lives away from unity
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' under
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' down
There's no wonder why sometimes I'm feelin' under
Gotta keep my faith alive till love is found
People killin', people dyin'Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek
Father, Father, Father help usSend some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)Where is the love (The love)Where is the love (The love)Where is the love (The love)Where is the love (The love)Where is the love (The love)Where is the love (The love)
why must there be so much terror.
sigh
im going to somewhere with SERIOUS birdflu AND threats of terrorist attacks
yep.
china
i am super paranoid
think i will die lah
i hope not
though jodee has comforted me with reasons to show that i wont.
thx gurl.
im not only kiasu but kiasi
haha
what a true singaporean.
squashing tmr.
yayy
i cant stand my mum.
pig!!!
always dont let me argue cos she noes she will lose.
hmph
oh my.
super malu.
play with mabel the other day.
i tot i was 9-4 le.
so i wanted to shake hand.
then she said it was 8-4 only.
how malu-ating.
sigh.
i better not say anything during the tournament or scream or hug the wall screaming
"ouch" OR "no!"
haha
my skin kinda got prob but cant be bothered
tata
What's wrong with the world, mama
People livin' like they ain't got no mamasI think the whole world addicted to the drama
Only attracted to things that'll bring you trauma
Overseas, yeah, we try to stop terrorism
But we still got terrorists here livin'In the USA,
the big CIAThe Bloods and The Crips and the KKK
But if you only have love for your own race
Then you only leave space to discriminate
And to discriminate only generates hate
And when you hate then you're bound to get irate, yeah
Madness is what you demonstrate
And that's exactly how anger works and operates
Man, you gotta have love just to set it straight
Take control of your mind and meditate
Let your soul gravitate to the love, y'all, y'all
People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek
Father, Father, Father help us
Send some guidance from above'
Cause people got me, got me questionin
'Where is the love (Love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love
The love, the love
It just ain't the same, always unchanged
New days are strange, is the world insane
If love and peace is so strong
Why are there pieces of love that don't belong
Nations droppin' bombs
Chemical gasses fillin' lungs of little ones
With ongoin' sufferin' as the youth die young
So ask yourself is the lovin' really gone
So I could ask myself really what is goin' wrong
In this world that we livin' in people keep on givin'in
Makin' wrong decisions, only visions of them dividends
Not respectin' each other, deny thy brother
A war is goin' on but the reason's undercover
The truth is kept secret, it's swept under the rug
If you never know truth then you never know love
Where's the love, y'all, come on (I don't know)
Where's the truth, y'all, come on (I don't know)
Where's the love, y'allPeople killin', people dyin'Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek
Father, Father, Father help us
Send some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)Where is the love (The love)Where is the love (The love)Where is the loveThe love, the love
I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder
As I'm gettin' older, y'all, people gets colder
Most of us only care about money makin'
Selfishness got us followin' our wrong direction
Wrong information always shown by the media
Negative images is the main criteria
Infecting the young minds faster than bacteria
Kids wanna act like what they see in the cinemaYo',
whatever happened to the values of humanity
Whatever happened to the fairness in equality
Instead in spreading love we spreading animosity
Lack of understanding, leading lives away from unity
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' under
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' down
There's no wonder why sometimes I'm feelin' under
Gotta keep my faith alive till love is found
People killin', people dyin'Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek
Father, Father, Father help usSend some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)Where is the love (The love)Where is the love (The love)Where is the love (The love)Where is the love (The love)Where is the love (The love)Where is the love (The love)
why must there be so much terror.
sigh
im going to somewhere with SERIOUS birdflu AND threats of terrorist attacks
yep.
china
i am super paranoid
think i will die lah
i hope not
though jodee has comforted me with reasons to show that i wont.
thx gurl.
im not only kiasu but kiasi
haha
what a true singaporean.
squashing tmr.
yayy
i cant stand my mum.
pig!!!
always dont let me argue cos she noes she will lose.
hmph
oh my.
super malu.
play with mabel the other day.
i tot i was 9-4 le.
so i wanted to shake hand.
then she said it was 8-4 only.
how malu-ating.
sigh.
i better not say anything during the tournament or scream or hug the wall screaming
"ouch" OR "no!"
haha
my skin kinda got prob but cant be bothered
tata
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